媽媽是…有彈性的 Mommy is... stretchable.
有彈性是什麼意思 What do you mean by stretchable?
爸爸很硬 你沒法動搖他 Daddy's hard. You can't move him.
他一生氣 事情就僵住了 He gets mad, and that's it.
媽媽也會生氣 Mommy gets mad too,
但她更像橡皮泥 but she's more like putty.
嗯 Mm.
她也會傷心 And she gets sad too.
那時候彈性最大 That's when it's the most stretch.
橡皮泥 嗯…你是怎麼讓她有彈性的呢 Putty, um... I wonder how is it that you stretch her?
你就… You just--
我能… 現在能輪到我說話了嗎 求你了 Can I... Can I talk now? Please?
嗯… Um...
媽媽說話可以嗎 可以 Is it okay if Mommy talks? Yep.
好的 Okay.
我沒有彈性 我不是橡皮泥 I'm not stretchable. I'm not putty.
但這是她對你的感受 Well, that's her experience of you.
那不是真的 That isn't true.
我努力想控制她還有所有事情 I try very hard to be in control of her and everything,
但 嗯 就好像我根本不存在一樣 but, um, may as well not even be there at all.
看法嘛 既然看法即現實 那就-- perceptions Well, perception is reality, so--
而且 我不傷心 Also, I don't get sad.
你現在看起來挺傷心的 You seem sad right now.
你確實看起來挺傷心的 You do seem sad right now.
我們在這裏是為了討論如何讓你好起來 We're here to talk about how to get you better.
我們談的全都是關於我 All we do is talk about me.
我可以傷心 我是說 我有權利傷心 對吧 I can be sad. I mean, I'm allowed to be sad, right?
當然有 Well, of course.
但 嗯 你必須知道這一切都糾纏在一起 But, um, you must know that this is all tangled up together
而你應該比任何人都清楚… and you of all people should know--
我知道 我知道 但是 嗯… I know. I know, but, um...
這樣… 這樣事情… this... this isn't how things...
…是不會好轉的 嗯… ...are gonna get better. Um...
女孩 媽媽 別哭了… GIRL Mommy, please don't cry...
不 不 我… No, no. I--
…不然我也要哭了 寶貝 ...because then I'll cry. Sweetie.
她… 寶貝 沒事的 沒事的 She... Sweetie, it's okay. It's okay.
我們現在就要拔掉飼管 We want the tube removed. Now.
不 你們不能殺我 要拔管 我們需要… No, you can't kill me! And to do that, we need...
不 她不會做她該做的事 No, she won't do what she has to do
因為她知道有這個安全網 because she knows that she has this safety net.
目前情況還不夠穩定… Things are not stable enough right now to--
很明顯我們的目標不一致 It's clear that we have different goals.
你想讓她先好轉再拔管 You want her to get better before the tube can be removed.
我認為要先拔管 I think the tube needs to come out,
然後她才能好轉 and then she can get better.
我們目標都是一致的 We all have the same goal here.
但通過我們大家一起談話 我瞭解到 But what I'm learning as we're talking all together
你和我需要花些時間 就我們兩個人 is that you and I need to spend some time, just the two of us,
不帶她… without her here...
…來談一些嚴肅的問題 ...to talk about some serious issues.
我需要你 I'm gonna need you to
晚上重新開始管飼 restart the tube feedings at night
我需要你開始做… and I need you to start doing...
你買的是不加奶酪的那種嗎 Did you get the kind with no cheese?
我不能每次都跟你解釋 寶貝 I can't explain this to you every time, sweetie.
他們會笑話我 說這只是麵包 好嗎 They would just laugh at me and say it's bread, okay?
我們到家後我會把奶酪拿掉的 當然 I'll take the cheese off when we get home, of course.
是那種醬料裏有 Is it the kind with the little
綠色和黑色小點點的嗎 green and black things in the sauce?
就是我們常買的那種 It's the same kind we always get.
那種醬料裏就有那些東西 That kind has the things in the sauce.
我吃不了… 我吃不了 I can't... I can't eat it.
比如 你能把它刮掉… Like, can you scrape it off--
你到底想不想拔管 還是只有我想拔 Do you even want the tube out or is it just me who wants it out?
你必須… You have to be...
天啊 Jesus.
哎呀 Oh, poo.
哦… Oh...
如你所願 沒有奶酪了 You got your wish. No cheese.
是你希望這事發生的嗎 是的 Did you will that to happen? Yeah.
你是什麼女巫之類的嗎 Are you some kind of witch or something?
嘿 直接去餐桌 其實不行 Hey, straight to the table. Actually, no.
先洗手 然後直接去餐桌 Wash hands first, and then straight to the table.
但我不用上廁所 I don't have to go to the bathroom though.
沒人讓你上廁所 No one's making you go to the bathroom.
我只是請你洗手 I'm just asking you to wash your hands, please,
像我們平時做的那樣 like we always do.
爸爸來嗎 爸爸在哪 Is Daddy coming? Where's Daddy?
呃 他說可能睡覺時間回來 Uh, he said maybe bedtime.
他什麼時候又走 When does he go again?
他才剛回來 所以… 一個月後 He just got back, so... in a month?
媽媽 Mommy?
嗯 Yeah.
我剛才確實要上廁所 I did have to go to the bathroom.
好的 Okay.
可能需要點時間 This might take a while.
好的 Okay.
媽媽 Mommy?
怎麼了 Yeah?
衛生間裏有水 The bathroom has water in it.
好的 那是好事 Okay, well, that's good.
不 我是說地上有水 No, I mean on the floor.
快來呀 Come quickly!
你來了嗎 Are you coming?
媽媽 Mommy!
天啊 怎麼了 Oh, my God. What?
你一進來為什麼不馬上告訴我 Why didn't you tell me as soon as you came in here?
我剛注意到… I just noticed...
因為我剛才急著要上廁所 because I had to go to the bathroom so bad.
我不喜歡它弄到襪子上的感覺 I don't like how it feels on my socks.
水從哪來的 有多深 Where's it coming from? How deep is it?
我們會死嗎 Are we gonna die?
房子會塌下來壓住我們嗎 Is the house gonna fall on top of us?
媽媽 Mommy?
你能抱我起來帶我出去嗎 Can you lift me up and carry me out?
好的 就待在那兒 好嗎 等著 Yep, just stay there, okay? Hold on.
媽 你為什麼丟下我 你去哪 Mom, why are you leaving me? Where are you going?
就待在馬桶上 好嗎 Just please stay on the toilet, okay?
不 No.
你能請你過來… Can you please come...
你能現在過來嗎 Can you come now?
我的… Oh, my...
哦… Oh...
…我的天啊 ...my fucking God.
媽媽 Mommy!
媽媽 你還沒告訴我是什麼 Mommy, you're not telling me what it is!
媽媽 Mommy!
怎麼回事 什麼 What's going on? What?
發生什麼事了 媽 What's happening, Mom?
我們會死嗎 Are we gonna die?
嘿 嘿 是的 Hey. Hey, yeah.
我們剛到家 你絕對不敢相信… We just got home, and you would not believe--
天啊 天啊 Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
不 不 不 別過來 No, no, no! Do not come here.
別進來 Do not come in here!
現在 走 走 走 馬上 馬上 Right now, go, go, go! Right now! Right now!
走 走 走 走 Go, go, go, go!
走 天啊 Go! Oh, my God!
一切都很陌生 不真實 Nothing is familiar or real.
一直都是 Ever.
每次有這種感覺 我就離真實的自己 Every time I feel this way I get further and further away
越來越遠 好像再也回不去了 from being in myself, and, like, I can never get back.
當你想到時間 When you think about time,
你如何看待它 how do you see it?
我如何看待時間 How do I see time?
嗯… Um...
時間是一系列需要熬過去的事情 Time is a series of things to get through.
每個目標都是一座懸崖 Each goal is a cliff.
盡頭什麼都沒有 There's nothing at the end of it,
但等到了那裏 又會出現另一座懸崖 but then it comes, and there's just another cliff.
我太生你的氣了 I'm so mad at you!
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哦 該死 Oh, shit.
喲 你知道全息呼吸法嗎 Yo, you know about holotropic breathing?
不 Mm-mm.
喲 這東西可厲害了 Yo, this shit is lit.
基本上 你騙你的大腦以為它死了 Basically, you trick your brain into thinking it's dead,
然後你就能看到宇宙 and you see the fucking universe.
你懂我意思嗎 You know what I'm saying?
這樣如果有什麼不對 你就不會感到偏執和愧疚 So you won't feel paranoia and guilt if something's wrong.
我有個朋友做靈氣療法之類的 I've got a friend who does Reiki and shit like that.
不 懂我意思嗎 這更像是過度換氣 Nah, see what I'm saying? This is like hyperventilating.
當你死的時候 他們說會釋放這種化學物質 When you die, they say you let off this chemical.
當你做夢時 也會釋放同樣的化學物質 And when you're dreaming, you let off the same chemical.
有點像那樣 懂吧 It's sort of like that, you know?
你讓你的大腦以為它死了 You make your brain think it's dead,
但腦死亡也還是活著 but being brain-dead is still alive.
全像呼吸法 全息 Holographic breathwork? Holotropic.
全息 全息呼吸法 Tropic. Holotropic.
那是真的嗎 什麼 Is that real? What?
那個… 腦死亡的事 哦 是的 The... the dead brain thing? Oh, yeah.
我是說 靠 我覺得什麼都有可能是真的 I mean, shit. I guess anything could be real.
我的意思是 什麼也都可能是胡扯 I mean, anything could be bullshit too.
你懂我意思嗎 You know what I'm saying?
但你知道那種感覺 就像當你不… But you know that feeling like when you're not...
是的 Yeah.
哦 你在取笑我 Oh, you're making fun of me.
小姐 我根本不認識你 對 Miss, I don't even know you. Right.
好的 嗯 這些要 但酒不要 Okay. Um, yes on these, but no on the wine.
為什麼 Why?
法律禁止我現在賣酒給你 The law prohibits me from selling you this wine right now.
但現在還不到兩點 But it isn't even 2:00.
現在是一點五十八分 It's 1:58.
對 但是… Right, but--
等我把這些東西結完賬 就過兩點了 By the time I ring these up, it will be past two.
嗯 呃… Huh. Um...
我只要花生醬杯好了 I'll just get the peanut butter cups.
記在我房間賬上 You can put them on my room.
好的 Will do.
我不能再談這個了 I can't talk about this anymore.
我告訴你 求你了 I'm telling you. Please.
嘿 嘿 聽著 如果斯普林醫生認為那樣最好 Hey, hey. Look, if that's what Dr. Spring thinks is best,
那我們就得聽斯普林醫生的 then we have to listen to Dr. Spring.
但這裏沒有"我們" There is no "we" though.
只有我 我… 我… It's just me. I... I'm...
這不公平 我告訴你 哇哦 It's not fair. I'm telling you. Whoa!
公平 聽著 我在工作 好嗎 Fair? Listen, I'm working, all right?
我在應付很多混蛋 你根本不知道 I'm dealing with a lot of assholes. You have no idea.
我無法在這裏處理 And I cannot do anything about
那邊發生的事情 what's going on there from here.
我們需要團隊合作 你今天必須去那裏 We need to be a team. You have to go there today
報到 讓他們知道 and check in and let them know
這整件事不是… 我知道 我知道 that this whole thing is not-I know. I know.
但那個邏輯的問題在於 The problem with that logic, though,
就是我不是家庭主婦 is that I'm not a housewife.
我也工作 哇哦 哇哦 哇哦 I work too. Whoa, whoa, whoa.
媽媽 這酒店的食物太難吃了 Mommy, this hotel food is gross.
早上好 真噁心 Good morning. This is disgusting.
哇 Wow.
你們倆長得真像雙胞胎 有人說過嗎 You guys look just like twins. Anybody ever tell you that?
呃 沒有 你是第一個 Uh, no. You're the first person
注意到並且或說出來的人 to notice and/or say that.
每個人都這麼說 Everyone says that.
嘿 小可愛 想看個魔術嗎 想 Hey, cutie. Wanna see a trick? Yeah.
哇 你怎麼做到的 Whoa. How'd you do that?
媽媽 Mommy?
你該吃掉 她不會吃的 You should take it. She's never gonna eat it.
好吧 Okay.
我現在要吐了嗎 Am I gonna throw up now?
嗯 你掛我電話 Yeah? You hung up on me.
聽著 我知道你有很多事要處理 Look, I know you have a lot on your plate,
但她正在好轉 but she's getting better,
剩下的都是完全暫時的 and the rest of it is totally temporary.
天花板會修好的 我保證 The ceiling will get fixed, I promise.
天不會塌下來 這些都不是你的錯 The sky is not falling. None of this is your fault.
我愛你 對不起 我也愛你 I love you. I'm sorry. I love you too.
住酒店有什麼不好 What's so bad about a hotel anyway?
既然你在那裏 就利用一下游泳池 And while you're there, take advantage of the pool.
他們有游泳池 對吧 They got a pool, right?
你總說你希望有個游泳池 You always said you wish you had a pool,
現在你有了 so now you have one.
你為什麼不去呢 你可以游幾圈 休息一下 Why don't you go? You can do some laps, lounge a little.
拿個浮圈 放鬆一下 喝點瑪格麗塔… Get a floatie. Kick back, get a couple of margarita...
好的 Okay.
你知道你可以訓練倉鼠愛你嗎 Did you know that you can train hamsters to love you?
不 No.
你可以訓練它們愛你 You can train them to love you.
嗯 我希望你能吃完培根 Well, I would love if you would finish your bacon.
這樣我就能告訴大家你早餐得了滿分 That way I can tell everybody you got 100% on breakfast.
一旦它們愛你 你就能讓它們做任何事 And once they love you, you can get them to do everything
包括耍把戲 including tricks.
我們先吃一口 Let's start with one bite.
鈴兒響叮噹，串鈴叮咚響 Ring, ding Ring-a-ring-a-ling-dang
鈴兒響叮噹，叮鐺響叮咚 Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang-do
鈴響，鈴兒響叮噹... Ring, ling Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang...
這阻隔了他對你的愛意 Keeps him from lovin' you
停車管理員又會生氣嗎 Is the parking guy gonna get mad again?
並排停車 並排停車 並排停車 Double-park! Double-park! Double-park!
好的 Okay.
要快 你知道上次發生了什麼 Gotta be fast. You know what happened last time.
你錯過了過去幾周的家庭治療 You've missed the last few weeks of family sessions.
是的 Yeah.
我告訴過你發生了什麼 I told you what happened.
我們整個天花板塌了 一片混亂 Our entire ceiling fell down, and with all that chaos,
我們住在酒店裏… and we're living out of the hotel--
所以我們需要盡快安排時間 So we need to schedule something as soon as possible
討論她的目標和治療過程 to talk about her goals and the treatment process.
好的 好的 嗯 好的 Yeah. Yeah, okay. Yeah.
當然 Duh.
是的 Yeah.
嗯 嗯 Mm-hm. Mm-hm.
哦 你是說現在 好的 好吧 Oh, you meant now? Okay. All right.
呃… Um...
嗯 讓我看看我的日程 Well, uh, let me look at my schedule.
我可能得安排… I should probably do that...
我知道你已經知道這一點 I know that you already know this,
但你不能開始讓愧疚和控制的感覺 but you can't start letting feelings of guilt and control
影響你對疾病和治療的態度 about this illness and treatment affect you.
這不是任何人的錯 It's no one's fault.
沒錯 我一直聽人這麼說 That's right. That's what I keep hearing.
還有 我真的需要你開始照顧好自己 Also, I really need you to start taking care of yourself.
對 是的 Right. Yes.
不 先戴好我的氧氣面罩 No. Put my oxygen mask on first.
嗯 嗯 Mm-hm, mm-hm.
我只好直說了 I'm just gonna have to get blunt here.
她需要在下周達到體重目標 So she needs to reach her weight goal in the next week.
如果她做到了 那我們就可以安排拔管 If she does that, then we can put tube removal
和出院日期 and discharge dates on the books
但如果她做不到 but if she doesn't do that,
我將不得不重新評估護理級別 I'm gonna have to reassess the level of care
因為顯然有些地方出了問題 because obviously something is not working here,
這就是我需要和你談的 and this is what I need to talk to you about.
我們什麼時候能正式坐下來談 When can we sit down properly?
好的 嗯 九月七日 Yeah, fine. Uh, September 7th.
現在是九月十五日 It's September 15th.
九月二十日 我是說 九月… September 20. I mean, September...
九月二十日 September 20.
嘿 Hey!
嘿 我告訴過你別那麼做 下次 Hey! I told you not to do that, and the next time
我會向大樓管理處投訴你 I will report you to the building.
你無權投訴我 You have no authority to report me.
你不會被允許進入停車場 我會把你車拖走 You won't be allowed in the lot. I'll have you towed!
哦 當然 叫他們來啊 Oh, sure! Call them!
我停的時間不長 I'm not in there long enough
他們根本來不及來 for them to even come!
隨便 Whatever!
混蛋 Asshole.
公寓離這步行30分鐘 The apartment is a 30-minute walk,
但感覺像在火星一樣遙遠 but it might as well be on Mars.
我只是 我無法… And I just, I can't...
每次我去查看 情況都更糟 Every time I go check, it looks worse,
我… 我無能為力 and I... I have no control.
你試過和房東 Have you tried discussing a compromise
商量一個折中方案嗎 with your landlord?
也許他們可以把有洞的房間隔開 Perhaps they could section off the room with the hole,
這樣你就能在公寓其他部分自由生活了 then you could live freely in the rest of the apartment.
自由生活在石棉 Live freely with asbestos
和百年灰塵以及黑黴菌孢子中 and 100-year-old dust and black mold spores?
這就是你的建議 That's your advice?
這不是建議 是個值得考慮的問題 It's not advice. It's a question to consider.
我真該讓你看看這個洞 I should really show you this hole.
我天花板上有個噩夢般的大洞 It's an entire nightmare on my ceiling.
查爾斯什麼時候回來 When does Charles return?
八周中的第三周 This is week three of eight.
我的意思是 你應該知道 你不記事情的嗎 I mean, you should know that. Don't you write things down?
記住我生活中無聊的細節 It's your job to remember
是你的工作 the boring details of my fucking life.
我們現在必須停止了 時間到了 We do have to stop now. We are out of time.
我還有另一個病人要來 所以… I have another patient coming, so...
等等 現在 Wait, now?
十分鐘提醒呢 What about the ten-minute warning?
是的 我剛才沒注意 Yeah, I just wasn't paying attention.
你沒有回復我發給你的關於我夢境的郵件 You didn't respond to the email that I sent you about my dream.
我不回復來訪者關於夢境的郵件 I don't respond to my client's dream emails.
好吧 所以 如果你不提起 Okay. So, if you don't bring it up,
那又有什麼意義 then what is the point?
好吧 呃 被你抓住了 Okay. Uh, you got me.
我做了個夢 今天需要談談 I had a dream, and I need to talk about it today,
但我沒時間了 and I didn't get any time
因為你沒給我提醒 because you didn't give me a warning.
我們可以在下次治療時討論你郵件裏說的夢 We can discuss the dream you emailed next session.
嗯 其實是另一個夢 Well, it's actually a different dream.
嗯 我不太… 關於你的 Well, I don't really-About you.
好吧 快點說 好的 Okay, quickly. Okay.
我在醫院日間活動室 I was in a hospital day room
或者娛樂室之類的地方 or a recreation room or something,
我知道我女兒也在醫院 and I knew my daughter was also in the hospital
但是… 但是在很遠的地方 另一部分 but... but far away, another part,
但看起來不像去年她住的那家醫院 and it didn't look like the hospital
當時一切都發生了 雖然 she was in last year, though,
當一切發生的時候 那裏不一樣 很奇怪 when everything happened. It was different. It was weird.
我在等查爾斯來接我 And I was waiting for Charles to come get me,
這樣我們就能接她 so we could pick her up
但取而代之的是 你在那裏 but instead, you were there,
而且你想坐得離我非常近 and you wanted to sit really close to me.
然後我就在長凳上一點點挪開 And I was, like, inching away from you on the bench
而你一直一點點靠近 and you kept inching closer.
我拿出手機想給查爾斯發短信 And I got my phone out to text Charles
因為我很緊張他會進來看到 'cause I was nervous he'd come in and he'd see
然後你試圖搶手機 and then you tried to grab the phone
然後你開始撓我癢癢… and then you started to tickle me...
…想讓我把手機掉下來 ...to try to get me to drop it,
我當時就像… and I was, like...
我其實很享受 I was really enjoying it,
但我很害怕查爾斯會進來看到 but I was so scared that Charles would come in and he would see.
好了 All right.
行了嗎 Okay?
好了 你得告訴我 All right. You got to tell me.
我們下次再談 We'll talk about it next time.
好嗎 Okay?
我們下次不會談的 We won't talk about it next time.
你知道的 You know that.
毫無頭緒 完全沒有頭緒 There's no thread. There's no thread at all.
什麼事 又怎麼了 Yes? What now?
男人 你好 很抱歉 MAN Hi, yes. So sorry.
必須離開 停工了 Have to leave. Stop work.
呃 什麼 Uh, what?
母親去世了 我必須離開 工期要延長了 Mother died. I have to leave. Work is going to take longer.
呃 好吧 呃 就… Uh, okay, uh, just--
我馬上回來 I'll be one second.
好吧 那問題是什麼 能告訴我嗎 Okay, what is the issue then? Can you tell me?
這事已經拖了這麼久了 This has been going on for so long.
我需要找新的承包商嗎 Do I need to get a new contractor?
蔓延了 It spread.
呃 很滿 非常滿 你明白嗎 非常滿 Uh, it's full. It's very full, you understand? Very full.
蔓延了 It spread?
不好解釋 不是我的語言 Not easy to explain. Not my language.
我說西班牙語 用你的語言解釋 我能聽懂 ¡Yo hablo español! Explicame en tu idioma, ¡lo entendere!
抱歉 但我不懂那些詞 Sorry, but I don't understand those words.
你要為你母親哀悼多久 How long will you be grieving for your mother?
我說不准 不知道 沒法說 I don't say. I don't know. I can't say.
聽著 我需要一個日期 好嗎 必須修好 Look, I need a date, okay? It needs to be fixed.
就給我個日期 我丈夫和我將要回到… Just give me a date. My husband and I will be returning to--
我一周後回來 I'll be back, one week.
好吧 嗯 行 我會去那裏 Okay, well, fine. I'm going to be going there
檢查你到目前為止的進度 and checking on what you have done so far,
我會拍照 而且我… and I'm going to be taking pictures, and I--
去你媽的 混蛋 Vete a la mierda, el cabron.
我現在能看到你了 I can see you now.
我很樂意為你保持這個安靜的空間 但是… I'm really happy to hold this silent space for you but...
…和往常一樣 我很好奇 ...as usual, I am curious as to
你可能會在想什麼 what you might be thinking about.
萊利 Riley.
這是我唯一能想到的 That's all I can think about.
告訴我發生了什麼 Tell me what's going on.
嗯 我… Well, I...
我一直告訴你 是… I keep telling you, it's--
就像我一直對他的醫生說的 他… It's like I keep saying to his doctor, he--
他不笑 他… He doesn't smile. He--
他看我的眼神很奇怪 He looks at me weirdly,
他一直都非常不舒服 and he's just very uncomfortable all of the time,
而且… 而且沒人願意做點什麼 and... and no one will do anything about it.
你知道我想要什麼 You know what I would love
而且我認為會非常有幫助的 and what I think would be extremely helpful
就是你能在不帶萊利的情況下來一次治療 is if you could come to a session without Riley.
我認為那會… I think it would be...
我知道你認為你不能… 不 我不能 I know you think you can't-No, I can't.
但我覺得如果你找一個你信任的保姆 一個你能… But I think if you got a sitter who you trusted, who you could--
你聽說紐約那個保姆的事了嗎 Did you hear about that nanny in New York?
那個媽媽下班回家 The mom came home from work,
發現保姆在浴缸裏 and the nanny had stabbed
把她的兩個孩子都捅死了 both of her kids to death in the bathtub.
那是真事 確實發生了 That is real. That happened.
那種情況非常 非常 非常罕見 好嗎 A situation like that is very, very, very unusual, okay?
大多數人都有看護人 Most people have caregivers
可以信任他們… 我不能 who can trust that... I can't.
嗯 我… 我相信你能 Well, I... I believe you can.
我只是覺得你不想或者你害怕 I just think you don't want to or you're afraid
所以我們來堅持一些實際的… so let's stick to some practical--
我需要保護他 I need to protect him.
防範什麼具體的東西嗎 From something specific?
因為非常糟糕的事情正在發生 Because something very bad is happening.
我太… 我能就… 等一下 我必須… I'm so... Can I just-One second. I just have to...
這可能和我女兒有關 我… 我很抱歉 This could be about my daughter. I'm... I'm so sorry.
呃… Um...
是的 聽著 我… 我不是萊利的醫生 Yeah. Look, look, I-I'm not Riley's doctor
所以我不能說他可能或不可能發生了什麼 so I can't speak to what may or may not be going on with him.
我們只能談論你的感受 We can only talk about your feelings
關於你認為萊利發生了什麼 about what you perceive is going on with Riley,
這就是為什麼我確實相信藥物可以… which is why I do believe medication can be--
我不是認為 I'm not perceiving it.
是確實發生了 It is happening.
我對此感到非常難受 And I feel awful about it.
好吧 聽著 Okay, listen.
當你和萊利在家有這些深度恐慌的感覺時 When you're having these feelings of deep panic at home with Riley,
當你和萊利在家有這些深度恐慌的感覺時 at home with Riley,
就把他放在嬰兒床或嬰兒車裏或其他安全的地方… just put him in his crib or carrier or somewhere safe...
…然後泡個澡 ...and draw a bath.
深呼吸直到心跳不再加速 Just breathe until your heart isn't racing anymore,
然後出來穿好衣服 come out and get dressed,
重新開始這一天… start the day over again...
…穿上真正的衣服 ...put on some real clothes.
你正在經歷的這些感覺 These feelings that you're experiencing
它們… 非常 非常 非常可怕 they are... they're very, very, very scary.
好嗎 而且非常黑暗 Okay? And very dark.
所以你需要保持行動 And that's why you need to keep moving.
你需要繼續前進 You need to keep going.
你需要保持忙碌 You need to be busy.
你不能沉浸在恐懼 You can't sit inside the fear
疑慮 and doubt
和恐懼之中 and scariness.
呼吸工作法是對神經系統的深度療愈 Breathwork is a deep healing in the nervous system,
我們在這裏儲存創傷和被壓抑的情緒 where we hold trauma and trapped emotions.
我們無法通過談話擺脫創傷 We can't talk our way out of trauma.
身體需要處理 The body needs to process
體內未處理的情緒 unprocessed emotions within the body.
這就是為什麼呼吸工作法如此強大 And this is why breathwork is so powerful.
如果你在尋找更深層的療愈方式 If you're looking for deeper ways of healing
並且在尋找替代方案 and you're searching for alternatives,
不要再等待了 don't wait any longer.
讓我們聯繫並安排你的第一次呼吸療法課程 Let's connect and schedule your first breathwork session.
就在法官宣讀對奧爾特加的判決之前 Directly before the judge read Ortega her sentence,
她請求寬恕她犯下的駭人罪行 she begged for forgiveness for her unspeakable crime.
她說她很抱歉 She stated she was sorry
為她被法官稱為"純粹邪惡"的行為 for what the judge had called, "Pure evil."
然後她談到未經治療的精神疾病… She then spoke about how untreated mental illness...
該死 Fuck.
法官沒有被說服 媽的 The judge was not convinced. Shit.
她將在監獄中度過餘生 She will be serving life in prison
不得假釋 法官說… with no possibility of parole, saying that--
你絕對不敢相信我今天經歷了什麼 You would not believe what I have been through today.
好吧 所以 我不知道你是否記得 Okay, so, I don't know if you recall
但有一對絕對驚艷 華麗 but there was this pair of absolutely davoon-ianca,
驚艷 華麗的皮手套 davoon, gorge leather gloves
我在The RealReal上看到的 that I saw on The RealReal.
我今天早上醒來 發現被禁了 I wake up this morning, banned.
被禁了 是的 我知道 Banned. Yeah. I know.
查爾斯 嘿 親愛的 CHARLES Hey, my love!
所以你一直有堅持 So you been keeping up
好好吃飯 做所有該做的事嗎 and eating, and doing all the right things?
是的 我今天吃了一些奶酪 Yeah, I ate some cheese today!
嗯 奶酪 Mmm. Cheese!
太棒了 我愛奶酪 That's fantastic. I love cheese!
爸爸 我能養只倉鼠嗎 不行 Daddy, can I get a hamster? No.
我已經告訴過你了 你不能養倉鼠 I already told you, you're not getting a hamster.
不 不 你知道嗎 我們看看 好吧 No, no. You know what, let's see, okay?
也許等我們回到公寓… Maybe when we get back to the apartment...
不 不 不 不 不 她不能養倉鼠 No, no, no, no, no. She's not getting a hamster.
爸爸 你什麼時候回家 Daddy, when are you coming home?
她不能養倉鼠 She's not getting a hamster.
什麼 你在哪 我聽到奇怪的聲音 What, where are you? I can hear something weird.
哦 是的 那個 我在看比賽 Oh. Yeah, that. I'm catching a game.
比賽 是的 A game? Yeah.
是的 我們今天早上到的 Yeah, we got here this morning,
這裏有個小聯盟球隊 and there's a minor league team here
在我們去的島上 有點吵 所以… on the island where we go. It's a little loud, so...
哦 那一定很棒 huh 為自己做點事 Oh, it must be nice, huh, doing things for yourself.
那是什麼感覺 嘿 嘿 嘿 What's that like? Hey, hey, hey.
你想換位置嗎 You wanna switch places?
你不知道我在這裏應付什麼 You don't know what I'm dealing with here.
好吧 那我去坐著… All right, I'll go sit on my ass...
爸爸 …整天接受治療… Daddy! ...all day in therapy...
對不起 哈哈 I'm sorry. Ha-ha.
我是說 "坐著"聽別人抱怨 I mean, "sit on my butt" listening to people whine,
而你可以駕駛這艘該… and you can captain this fu--
呃… 這艘愚蠢的船 好嗎 Uh... this stupid boat, okay?
聽著 我休假時有權做點自己的事 Listen, I'm allowed to do things on my time off.
天啊 休假 哦 好吧 嗯… Jesus Christ! Time off? Oh, okay, um...
爸爸得走了 呃 我們得開車了 Daddy has to go now, and, uh, we have to drive,
跟爸爸說再見 好嗎 不 我不用走 so say goodbye to Daddy, okay? No. I don't have to go!
聽著 他們正打到一半… 天啊 Look, they're in the middle... Jesus.
我告訴過你 那是齧齒動物 I told you, it's a rodent,
而且養著毫無意義 and just something to look after for no reason.
拜託 請不要再問了 Please, please don't ask again,
也不要問爸爸我已經拒絕過的事情 and don't ask Daddy things I already say no to.
但是媽媽 這不公平 But Mommy, it's not fair!
斯普林醫生說這是關鍵的一周 Dr. Spring said this is a big week.
她告訴你了嗎 是的 Did she tell you that? Yeah.
我認為你能做到 I think you can do it.
但我已經在盡力了 But I'm already doing it my best.
我知道 但你需要做得更好一點 I know, but you have to do a little better
然後我們就能擺脫這個東西 then we can get rid of this thing,
一切都會好起來的 and everything will be okay.
我會好起來的 I'll be better.
好吧 嗯… Okay. Well...
…這不由我決定 ...it's not up to me.
這取決於你 It's up to you.
今晚我給你讀什麼書 What book can I read you tonight?
我太累了 就唱首歌吧 I'm too tired. Just a song.
好的 什麼歌 Okay, what song?
死鯨魚那首 好的 The dead whale one. Okay.
坐在病床前 Sit beside The breakfast table
想著你的痛苦 Think about your troubles
端起那杯藥水 Pour yourselves A cup of tea
看著氣泡浮動 Think about the bubbles
你可以收起淚水 You can take your teardrops
把它們全部拋棄 And drop 'em in a teacup
帶著它們去河邊 Take 'em down To the riverside
將它們拋到一旁 And throw them Over the side
讓時光帶走 To be swept up by a current
飄向遠方 Then taken to the ocean
最終葬身魚腹 To be swallowed by Some fishes
他們最終葬身於魚腹之中 Who were eaten by Some fishes
而後被巨鯨吞沒 And swallowed by a whale
他已是垂垂老矣 Who grew so old
他化為塵土 He decomposed
我不是說我們都是機器人 I don't mean to say we're all robots,
但我想知道如果你被撫養長大的方式 but I wonder if you had been raised
和你母親被撫養長大的方式一樣 the way your mother had been raised.
我是說 她有個父親一走了之 I mean, she had a father who just took off,
沒有回家 didn't come home.
然後另一個男人進入她母親的生活 Then another man entered her mother's life,
她對他產生了依戀 然後他也離開了 and she became attached to him, and he bailed out.
我知道你在說什麼 I know what you're saying.
我也有過類似的經歷 非常相似 I did have that same one. Very similar.
但是… 好吧 我的問題是 But... Okay, well, my question is
如果你像你母親那樣被撫養長大 if you had been raised as your mother had been raised
你認為你很可能也會 do you think you probably would've
打你的孩子嗎 knocked your kids around too?
看看你能用嘴接住多少 See how many you catch in your mouth.
好的 Okay.
好的 張嘴 Okay, open.
等等 噓 Wait. Shh.
該死 這個該死的醉婆娘… Fuck. This fucking drunk bitch...
記在我房間賬上 拜託 肯定還沒到兩點 Put this on my room, please. It's definitely before 2:00.
女士 我需要看你的身份證 I'm gonna need to see your ID, ma'am.
你以前從沒問我要過 You've never asked me that before.
女士 我需要看你的身份證 Ma'am, I'm gonna need to see your ID.
你真的想讓我 You really want me to go
一路跑回我的房間 all the way back up to my room,
拿我的身份證 再一路跑下來嗎 get my ID, and come all the way back down here?
這是規定 你不是只住在二樓嗎 It's the rule. Aren't you only on the second floor anyway?
這他媽什麼時候成規定了 When is this the fucking rule?
我每天晚上都來這裏… I have been in here every single night...
也許我翻開了規則手冊 Maybe I cracked open the rulebook
發現了一些東西 and found some shit out.
嗯 也許你應該找到我的身份證 就在… Well, maybe you should find my ID that's behind...
女士們 女士們 女士們… Ladies, ladies, ladies...
這是規定 女士 女士們 It's the rule, ma'am! Ladies!
女士們 我不回去 Ladies! I'm not going back!
女士們 哇哦 哇哦 Ladies, whoa, whoa!
女士們 冷靜點 兄弟 我他媽很冷靜 Ladies, calm it down, bro. I'm fuckin' chill.
沒那麼嚴重 It's not that deep.
她他媽在衝我吠 She fucking barking at me.
用我的身份證買吧 Just use my ID for it.
我不能那麼做 為什麼不行 I can't do that. Why not?
我不能用你的身份證給她買酒 I can't use your ID for her wine.
那就算我的酒 她付錢 Well then it's my wine, she's just paying for it.
她他媽拿走了 She fucking took it.
嘿 Hey!
什麼 What?
順便說一句 我叫傑米 The name's Jamie, by the way.
有火嗎 Got a light?
我沒興趣 I'm not interested.
對什麼沒興趣 我需要一個人待著 In what? I need to be alone.
真他媽沒禮貌 Rude as hell.
說聲他媽謝謝會死啊 小姐 A motherfucking thank you would've been nice, miss.
我 呃 在酒店 I'm, uh, at the hotel.
我在外面透透氣 I'm outside just getting some fresh air.
我不喜歡你把她一個人留在那裏 I don't like it when you leave her there by herself,
哪怕一秒 不安全 even for a second. It isn't safe.
我只是出來透會兒氣 I'm just outside for a minute getting some air.
那裏的窗戶打不開 The windows don't open in there.
顯然是為了防止大家自殺 To stop everyone from killing themselves, obviously.
好吧 是 是 是 All right. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
但如果她醒來害怕或… but what if she wakes up and she's scared or--
她從不醒過來 Well, she never wakes up,
而且不管怎樣 我現在酒店有人 and anyway, I have someone at the hotel now.
一個保姆 真的 A babysitter. Really?
你在哪找的保姆 是誰 Where'd you find a babysitter? Who is it?
他叫詹姆斯 His name's James.
他叫詹姆斯 他是男保姆 His name is James? He's a male babysitter?
你打電話就是為了說我是個壞母親 還是怎樣 Did you call just to call me a bad mother, or what?
你根本不知道連一分鐘都不能 You have no idea what it's like not to be able to go outside
獨自出門是什麼感覺 even for a minute, by yourself.
你隨時可以出門 You can go outside whenever you want to.
你想去哪就去哪 You can go wherever you want to.
這機器他媽不停… The machine doesn't fucking stop...
在裏面無事可做… and there's nothing to do in--
嘿 我在這邊拚命工作 Hey, I am over here working my ass off!
天啊 今天誰去看棒球賽了 Oh, my God! Who is the one who went to a baseball game today
誰又裝了500次糊糊 and who is the one who filled her bag with gloop 500 times,
看病人 接她 saw patients, picked her up,
做晚飯她只吃了百分之二十 had to do dinner where she only got 20 percent,
然後還得試圖說服… and then had to try to convince--
我們能別這樣嗎 Can we please not do this?
聽著 我得掛了 Look, I gotta go.
這裏信號真的很差 一切都好 The reception's really bad here. Everything's fine.
不 不 不 等等 等等 你去公寓… No, no, no. Wait, wait, wait. Did you go to the apart--
是的 是的 Yes. Yes.
是的 是的 是的 是的 是的 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
這是洞的照片 Here are pics of hole.
今天忘了發 Forgot to send today.
我午餐時間去的 I went during lunch.
有什麼電影… What is movie...
…嬰兒 殭屍 80年代 母親吃嬰兒 ...babies, zombies, '80s, mothers eating babies?
這是我找到的 Here's what I found.
法庭重新審理了… A court has reopened...
…九周大的嬰兒確實被野狗叼走並殺死 ...nine-week-old baby really was taken and killed by a dingo
在梅麗爾·斯特裏普飾演那位被誤判 24 years after Meryl Streep portrayed the Australian mother
殺害自己孩子而入獄的澳大利亞母親24年後 wrongly jailed for killing her child.
張伯倫一直堅稱… Chamberlain has always insisted...
什麼 What?
媽 Mom?
喂 Hello?
醒醒 媽 醒醒 好了 Wake up, Mom. Wake up. Okay.
媽 媽 聽到我們了嗎 Mom. Mom. You hear us?
來吧 媽 快醒醒 Come on, Mom. Snap out of it.
你若想知道真相，你若想瞭解內情 If you wanna know this If you wanna know that
來我的蜜糖小屋吧 Come to my sugar shack
嘿 嘿 你知道什麼會超級好玩 Hey. Hey, you know what would be super fun
而且像真正的大孩子做的事嗎 and like a really, really big kid type of thing to do?
我聽不見你 I can't hear you.
我說 你知道什麼會超級好玩 I said, you know what would be super fun
而且像大孩子做的事嗎 and a big kid type of thing to do?
什麼 What?
如果我把你放在門口 If I drop you in front of the door
你就自己進去 天啊 and you just go in by yourself. Oh, my God.
那你可就太酷了 不 That would be so cool of you. No.
為什麼不行 所有媽媽都會送進去 Why not? All the moms walk you in.
你是媽媽 你必須送我進去 你必須給我簽到 You're a mom. You have to walk me in. You have to sign me in.
伊娃 伊娃 Eva! Eva!
你今天能送她進去嗎 求你了 求你了 Can you walk her in today? Please, please, please?
我應付不了停車的事 I cannot deal with the parking.
當然 沒問題 Of course. No problem.
沒問題 謝謝 No problem. Thank you.
好的 好消息 猜猜看 猜猜看 Okay. Exciting news. Guess what? Guess what?
伊娃會送你進去 去吧 去吧 去吧 Eva will walk you in! Go, go, go.
走吧 Let's go!
媽媽 艾迪讓我害怕 來吧 Mommy, Addie scares me. Come on.
她只吃能多益 我需要你 She only eats Nutella. I need you!
陪著你 寶貝 求你了 為了媽媽 好嗎 To be with you! Honey, please. For Mama, okay?
求你了 求你了 你是我媽媽 Please? Please? You are my mom.
如果你去 我們今天就去看看倉鼠 We'll go look at hamsters today if you do it.
"看看"它們 "Look" at them?
我給你買一隻 好嗎 去吧 去 I'll get you one, okay? Just go. Go!
好的 看到了嗎 我愛你 我愛你 好嗎 Okay, see? I love you! I love you, okay?
一切都會… 該死 Everything's gonna be... Shit.
嗨 嗨 Hi. Hi.
該死 該死 該死 Shit! Shit! Shit!
我最差勁了 我他媽最差勁了 I'm the worst. I'm the fucking worst!
然後你告訴我如果碰了小鳥 And then you told me that if you touch a baby bird,
鳥媽媽知道後就不會回來了 the mama bird will not come back if they know you touched them.
嗯 那一定是個很特別的夢 Hm. That must have been some dream.
你… 我還沒說完 Do you-I'm not done.
你親了我 You kissed me.
我說 你親了我 I said, you kissed me.
是的 我聽到了 在你的夢裏 我親了你 Yes. I heard you. In your dream, I kissed you.
是的 然後第二天 我感覺… Yeah, and then the next day, I felt...
…沉重的負罪感 ...crushing guilt.
而且我不知怎麼知道你的丈夫 And I knew somehow that your husband
罵我是混蛋 had called me an asshole.
你知道 斯蒂芬 我們可以拋開你的夢 You know, Stephen, we can talk about these feelings
來談談這些感受 apart from your dreams.
但是… But...
我控制不了在我的夢裏你總是想親我 I can't help it if in my dreams you always want to kiss me.
在酒店範圍內 What's the difference
當她睡覺時走到外面… between going outside on hotel property when she's sleeping...
和一路回家有什麼區別 ...and going all the way home?
在一種情況下 我猜我只是個 In one, I guess I'm just a regular mom
做了個糟糕選擇的普通媽媽 making a shitty choice,
而在另一種情況下 我是個… 我是個… and in the other, I'm a... I'm a...
一個徹頭徹尾的糟糕媽媽 a straight up shitty mom.
嗯 我的職責不是 Well, it's not my role
決定你是否應該或不應該… to decide whether you should or whether you should not...
那不是… 不 不 不 我不應該 That's not-No, no, no. I shouldn't.
我知道我不應該 I know I shouldn't.
我甚至一秒鐘都不該離開她 I shouldn't even leave her for a second.
我的意思是 你的工作就是該說 I mean, it is your job to say.
就告訴我不要那麼做 Just tell me not to do it.
就告訴我該怎麼做 Just tell me what to do.
我不認為你想讓我告訴你該怎麼做 I don't think you want me to tell you what to do.
你知道該怎麼做 You know what to do.
沒人會告訴我該怎麼做 No one will tell me what to do.
我應該知道怎麼解決這個問題 I'm supposed to know how to fix this.
我應該知道怎麼治好她 I'm supposed to know how to fix her.
你認為什麼是你需要去解決的 What is it you think it's your job to fix?
她必須在下周前體重達到50磅 斯普林醫生說的 She has to weigh 50 pounds by next week, Dr. Spring said.
那是增重2.5磅 對吧 That's a gain of 2.5 pounds, right?
每天需要攝入2500卡路里 Each day's supposed to be 2,500 calories in
補償她靜息代謝率消耗的1800卡路里 compensating for her resting rate at 1,800 calories burned.
那至少是每餐的80% 持續七天 That's gotta be at least 80% of each meal for seven days
加上管飼 而且這還是在她整天躺著不動的情況下 plus the tube, and that's if she just lays still all day.
如果做不到 And if it doesn't,
那麼關於不能拔管 then something about not getting the tube out
以及重新評估護理級別的事 and reassessing the level of care.
我該怎麼辦 今晚… What do I do? Tonight...
我希望你好好睡一覺 I would like you to get a good night sleep.
我也想 但我在問你一件事 So would I, but I'm asking you a thing.
一個實際問題 一個需要解決的問題 我需要幫助 An actual thing, a problem to fix, and I need help with this.
難道我就該坐視她失敗 Am I supposed to just sit around and watch her fail
然後這一切就永遠持續下去嗎 我該怎麼辦 and this is just gonna go on forever? What do I do?
好吧 這意味著不能喝酒 Okay. That means there's no drinking.
不能吸毒 不能… There's no drugs. There's no...
你在聽我說話嗎 你能聽到我嗎 Are you listening to me?! Can you hear me?!
我在問你 我該怎麼辦 I'm asking you what I'm supposed to do!
你為什麼不喜歡我 Why don't you like me?
我為什麼不喜歡你 Why don't I like you?
我知道你不會回答我 算了 I know you won't answer me. Just forget it.
這非常不公平 That is incredibly unfair.
為什麼這對你現在如此重要 Why is this so important to you right now?
我只是想有人告訴我該怎麼做 I just want someone to tell me what to do.
沒人會告訴我 No one will tell me.
我愛他 我愛他 我愛他 I love him, I love him, I love him.
等我們回家後 When we get home,
他可以在那裏快樂地生活 he can live a happy life there.
我們會永遠 永遠 永遠 And we're gonna have him forever, and ever, and ever,
永遠 永遠擁有他 and ever, and ever.
我愛他 我要親他 我要抱他 I love him. I'm gonna kiss him, and I'm gonna hug him.
天啊 也許他應該叫s'mores Oh, my God. Maybe his name should be S'mores.
這名字真好 That's really nice.
我說了 別打開盒子 I said, don't open the box.
我只是想看看他 他一直在抓 I just wanna see him. He's been scratching.
他不喜歡待在盒子裏 He doesn't like being in the box.
他想出來 He's trying to get out.
你能把它關緊嗎 拜託 保持關閉 Can you hold it closed, please? And keep it closed.
他在抓我 他應該愛我的 He's scratching me! He's supposed to love me.
關上盒子 Close the box.
我關不上 I can't.
媽媽 他要跑出來了 Mommy, he's getting out.
遞給我 遞給我 Just hand it to me. Hand it to me.
他要跳出來了 He's gonna jump out.
他討厭我們 遞給我 我看不見 He hates us. Give it to me. I can't see.
遞給我 Give it to me.
我覺得我們買錯倉鼠了 I think we got the wrong hamster.
該死 Shit.
啊 該死 Ow! Shit.
我們要死了 不 我們不會死 We're gonna die. No, we're not gonna die,
但我得靠邊停車 but I have to pull over.
啊 該死 Ow! Shit!
難道這不是棉花糖夾心餅？ 我的老天！ Maybe this isn't S'mores. Oh, my God.
它出來了 出來了 該死 該死 哦 我的… It's out. It's out! Shit. Shit. Oh, my...
媽媽 天啊 它出來了 Mommy. Oh, my God. It's out.
你為什麼不把它放回去 Why aren't you putting that back in?
把它放回去 Just put it back in.
天啊 天啊 天啊 天啊 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God!
拜託 把它放回去 Please! Put him back in!
我不要了 我不想要他了 I don't want it. I don't want him anymore.
他很壞 He's bad.
好了 好了 嘿 嘿 嘿 Okay. Okay, hey, hey, hey.
你沒事 You're fine.
你沒事 我也沒事 好嗎 沒人受傷 You're fine, and I'm fine, okay? Nobody is hurt.
我們… Let's...
帶上它 帶上它 Take it with you! Take it with you!
我馬上回來 它會傷害我的 I'll be right back. It's gonna hurt me!
我討厭我的倉鼠 I hate my hamster!
嘿 老兄 你在幹什麼 嘿 嘿 嘿 Hey, man. What are you doing? Hey, hey, hey.
哦 你很幸運沒有損壞 Oh. You're lucky there's no damage.
我們不需要交換信息 We don't have to exchange information.
什麼？我的孩子還在那輛車裏！你聽到她的哭聲了嗎？啊？ What? My kid is in that car. Do you hear her crying, huh?
你把她嚇個半死 混蛋 You scared her to death, you dick.
嘿 媽媽 就是輕輕碰了一下而已 Hey, Mom. It was barely just a tap.
別再叫我媽媽了 她剛才以為我們都要沒命了 Don't fucking call me Mommy. She thought we were gonna die.
少拿我孩子的安全來招惹我，聽懂沒？ Don't fuck with me about my child's safety. Huh?
把你所有信息給我 那他媽是什麼 Give me all your information. What the fuck is that?
什麼 那個 那個 What?! That! That!
媽媽 Mommy!
哦 Oh.
媽媽 發生什麼事了 媽媽 Mommy, what happened?! Mommy!
我愛你 我想你 回到這兒來 I love you. I miss you. Come back here.
一切都在掌控之中 Everything is under control.
停下 Stop.
你知道我愛你 Do you know that I love you
我認為你是最棒的 and I think you're the best
為你所做的一切感到驕傲 and so proud of you for everything,
你能做到的 你差不多全好了 and you can do it, and you're almost all better.
你太棒了 媽媽 停下 You're so good. Mommy, stop.
什麼 我不能停 我太愛你了 What? I can't stop. I just love you too much.
你身上有酒味 You smell like wine.
喂 Hello?
嗨 我是… 我是卡羅琳 Hi, it's... it's Caroline.
卡羅琳·普裏姆 你的病人 Caroline Primm, your patient.
抱歉這麼晚打給你 I'm sorry it's so late.
呃… 哦 是緊急情況嗎 Um... Oh. Is this an emergency?
因為 呃 如果是緊急情況 Because, um, if this is an emergency,
你需要掛斷然後… you need to hang up and--
不是緊急情況 我只是… It's not an emergency. I just--
我昨天忘了給你打電話 I forgot to call you yesterday.
什麼 What?
嗯 你告訴我讓我帶萊利去散步 Well, you told me to take Riley for a walk
在我泡完澡平靜下來之後 after I took a bath and calmed down
我照做了 但我忘了給你打電話… and I did it, and I forgot to call you--
哦 好的 是的 呃… Oh. Okay, yes. Um...
嗯 那很好 而且 呃… Well, uh, that's good, and, um...
呃 我… 我覺得我應該告訴你 這個號碼 Uh, I-I do feel though that I should tell you that this number
真的只用於緊急情況 好嗎 is really for emergencies only, okay?
哦 對不起 我只是… Oh. I'm sorry. I just...
我睡不著 想著你在擔心 I just couldn't sleep thinking that you were worried.
我沒有擔心 I wasn't worried.
你… 你沒有 你沒有在想我 You... You weren't? You weren't thinking about me?
我說過如果你… 你可以給我打電話 I said that you could call me if you...
我說如果你無法平靜下來可以給我打電話 I said you could call me if you couldn't calm down
不是說你必須打給我 not that you had to call me.
但是 呃… 你安全嗎 卡羅琳 But, um... but are you safe, Caroline?
你…？ Are you...?
我… 我很抱歉 我… 我誤會了 I'm... I'm sorry. I... I misunderstood.
是的 我真傻 呃… 是的 我安全 Yeah, I'm so dumb. Um... Yes, I'm safe.
好吧 我們治療時再談這個 好嗎 Okay. Well, let's talk about this in session, okay?
對不起 我顯然打擾你了 I'm sorry. I'm obviously bothering you.
這不是你的錯 呃… It is not your fault, uh...
我會… 我下周見你 and I will-I'll see you next week.
嗯 我明天能來嗎 Well, can I come in tomorrow?
只是等到下周似乎太長了 It's just waiting until next week seems too long.
呃 讓我看看我的日程 Uh, well, let me check my schedule,
我會發短信告訴你時間 好嗎 and I will text you a time, okay?
好的 呃 對不起… Okay. Um, I'm sor--
你他媽在開玩笑吧 該死 You've gotta be fucking kidding me! Shit!
喂 Hello?
喂 Hello!
喂 這裏有人在工作嗎 Hello! Is anyone here doing their job?
該死 Shit.
需要幫忙嗎 Want some help with that?
我知道個技巧 有刀 I know a trick. Got a knife.
甜心 Sweetie?
小熊 開門 是媽媽 Little Bear, open up. It's Mommy.
小熊 開門 Little Bear, open up.
傑米 她在幹什麼 JAMIE What is she doing?
哇哦 哇哦 哇哦 Whoa. Whoa, whoa.
你他媽有什麼毛病 什麼 哇哦 What the fuck's your problem? What? Whoa.
怎麼 你迷戀我還是怎麼著 What, you're obsessed with me or something?
你在說什麼 別自作多情了 What are you talking about? Don't flatter yourself.
那你為什麼看著我 什麼 你想要什麼 Well, why are you looking at me? What? What do you want?
我不想你一個人坐在外面 I don't want you just sitting outside and by yourself.
可能會有變態經過什麼的 Some creep might walk past or something.
什麼變態 What creep?
我他媽怎麼知道 女士 How the fuck do I know, lady?
這地方到處都是變態 There's creeps all over this place.
別叫我女士 我的錯 小姐 Don't call me lady. My bad, miss.
別叫我小姐 別 就是別 Don't call me miss. Don't. Just don't.
夫人 Ma'am.
夫人 是的 Frau? Yeah.
婊子！我靠！ Slag. Oh, my God.
你放蕩的本性 Your thottiness?
家庭主婦？ Housewife?
事到如今，我甚至不知道該怎麼稱呼你了 At this point, I don't even know what to refer to you as.
我就直接叫你「女性」了。 I'm gonna just call you female.
喂 瘋婆子 Yo, crazy pants.
我本來打算上網衝浪 I was gonna partake in surfing the web
找點我感興趣的東西 for some things that I'm into,
你懂我的意思 我只是提一下 if you catch my drift, and I'm just putting it out there,
你非常歡迎加入 you more than welcome to join.
沒壓力 就是說說 No pressure. Just saying.
什麼樣的東西 What kind of stuff?
是像暗網那種嗎 Is that like the dark web?
就是那種可以買賣人口的地方 Like where you can buy people and stuff?
我不知道 沒買過人 所以… I don't know. Never bought a person, so...
但可以買嗎 或者賣 But you could? Or sell one?
我猜可以 但我上暗網 I mean, I guess so, but I don't come on the dark web
不是搜那種東西 所以… searching for that kind of shit, so...
上面不是有些地方 Aren't there places on there
人們互相展示謀殺視頻 where people, like, show each other videos of murders
和他們關押的人的視頻嗎 and people they're holding captive?
我們能換個話題嗎 我們來買毒品吧 Can we change the subject? Let's buy drugs.
我們來搞點… Let's get some...
…來點貨 對吧 來吧 你想要什麼 ...some shit, right? Come on. What do you want?
你對什麼感興趣 What are you into?
我不知道 他們有… I don't know. Do they have, like...
可卡因之類的嗎 cocaine or something?
你上次試可卡因是什麼時候 When was the last time you tried cocaine?
你什麼意思 這是很流行的毒品 What do you mean? It's a very popular drug.
我喜歡 I like it.
好吧 嗯 我要買迷幻藥 那我們兩樣都買 All right. Well, I'm getting molly, so we'll get both.
問題是 See, the thing is,
我下周才發工資 所以需要你先墊付 I don't get paid till next week, so I need you to cover me.
哦 哦 我… 不行 Oh. Oh, I'm-No.
不 不 我明白這是怎麼回事了 No, no. I see what this is about.
你去哪 我回房間 Where you going? I'm going back to my room.
為什麼 你連鑰匙都沒有 For what? You don't even have a key.
而且 你女兒已經睡著了 Besides, your daughter's passed out.
前台女士肯定已經睡死了 Front desk lady's definitely in a coma by now.
冷靜 過來坐下 我們來下單 天啊 Calm down. Come sit down. Let's order. Jeez.
我想我可以用信用卡付 I could put it on my credit card, I guess.
什麼 不行 What? No.
那400塊 我可以用信用卡付 The 400, I could put it on my credit card.
不 不 聽著 老兄 不能追溯到你這 No, no. See, man, it can't be traced back to you.
必須是匿名的 It has to be anonymous.
那怎麼付錢買這些東西 Well, then how do you pay for the stuff?
好吧 我們可以做的是 All right, what we could do is
我們可以去趟藥店什麼的 we could go to a pharmacy or something real quick
用那種禮品卡付 and put it on one of those gift cards
或者你有比特幣 加密貨幣之類的東西嗎 or maybe you got bitcoin, or crypto, or some shit like that?
不 我都沒有那些東西 No, I don't have any of that stuff,
我不能半夜上車 and I can't get in a car
把我女兒一個人丟下 and leave my daughter alone in the middle of the night.
你經常把你女兒一個人丟下 You leave your daughter alone all the time.
不 我沒有 那只是如果我去田野那邊 No, I don't. That's just if I go in the field.
哈 我親眼見過你把你女兒一個人丟下 Ha! I literally seen you leave your daughter alone myself
親眼所見 with my own two eyes.
這次又是什麼問題 你是什麼人 What's the problem this time? What are you?
你在跟蹤我嗎 You stalking me or something?
我是個關心的市民 我是說 需要全村之力 對吧 I'm a concerned citizen. I mean, takes a village, right?
什麼 What?
甜心 甜心 是媽媽 Sweetie! Sweetie! It's Mommy!
你把我鎖在外面了 甜心 You locked me out. Sweetie!
甜心 開門 Sweetie! Open the door!
小熊 開門 Little Bear, open the door!
媽媽… Mommy...
把機器推過來 開門 Just wheel the machine over and open the door!
小熊 Little Bear!
開門 Open the door!
我把自己鎖在外面了 I locked myself out!
是媽媽 是媽媽 It's Mom! It's Mommy!
媽媽 Mommy?
你在嗎 Are you there?
我不知道如果你甚至不看我眼睛 I'm not sure how we can talk about anything helpful
我們怎麼能進行任何有益的談話 if you won't even look me in the eye.
是你要求這次額外治療的 You asked me for this extra session.
我做不到 I can't.
你一定很生我的氣 You must be so mad at me.
生氣 哦 因為你打電話給我 Mad? Oh, because you called me?
不 不 不 我沒有生你的氣 No, no, no. I'm not mad at you.
我們繼續吧 拜託 Let's move on. Please?
你有個女兒 You have a daughter.
你為什麼從來沒告訴過我 Why didn't you ever tell me?
嗯 這不關我的事 Well, this isn't about me.
但現在我知道你知道了 But now I know that you know.
你知道 You know.
我不知道 你需要告訴我 I don't know. You need to tell me.
這不是你的錯 It's not your fault.
但這是我的錯 But it is mine.
好吧 你知道 卡羅琳 我認為可能是時候我們… Okay, you know, Caroline I think that it may be time that we...
呃… um...
…我們咨詢一下 ...that we consult with someone
關於給你用藥的事 about some medication for you.
嗯 我不能吃藥 我在哺乳期 Well, I can't take medication. I'm breastfeeding.
你想讓我殺了我的寶寶嗎 當然不是 Do you want me to kill my baby? Of course not.
我只是認為如果醫生覺得可能有益 I just think if a doctor thinks it could be beneficial,
那麼也許我們需要… then maybe we need to...
優先考慮你的… 你的… 健康 而不是哺乳 prioritize your... your... health over breastfeeding.
就現在 Just right now.
你知道 你需要照顧好自己 You know, you need to take care of yourself
這樣才能照顧萊利 so you can take care of Riley.
我得去洗手間 I have to go to the bathroom.
呃 我們只剩下15分鐘了 Um, well, we only have 15 minutes left.
我現在就得去 I have to go now.
好吧 你能等到治療結束後嗎 Okay, well, can you wait till after the session?
不行 No?
哦… 哦 Oh... Oh.
該死 Shit.
哦 好了 好了 好了 Oh. Okay, okay. Okay.
好的 Okay.
卡羅琳 打擾一下 Caroline? Excuse me.
卡羅琳 Caroline?
沒事的 It's okay.
卡羅琳 打擾一下 卡羅琳 Caroline? Excuse me. Caroline?
我需要你幫我一下 我… I need you to help me out here. I...
好的 我知道 我知道 Okay. I know. I know.
卡羅琳 Caroline?
好了 好了 Okay. Okay.
卡羅琳 Caroline!
是的 我知道 Yeah. I know.
這裏怎麼回事 我正在治療 What is going on here? I'm in a session.
所以 我的病人 她有個寶寶 So, my patient, she has this baby
她說要去洗手間 and she said she was going to the bathroom
然後她把寶寶留給我 我… and then she left the baby with me and I...
她走了 現在我找不到… 我正在接待病人 She's gone. And now I can't-I'm with a patient.
拜託 我需要你的幫助 我真的需要你的幫助 Please, I need your help. I really need your help.
我正在接待病人 I'm with a patient.
而且 我也不是你的督導 Plus, also, I'm not your supervisor.
這是專業問題 不是治療問題 This is a professional issue. This is not a treatment issue.
你在開玩笑嗎 這是緊急情況 Are you joking? This is an emergency!
這裏發生的任何事 Whatever's happening in here
都沒有我這邊的事重要 is not as important as what I'm going through here!
好吧 不行 我需要你的幫助 Okay, no. I need your help!
再見 我需要你的幫助 Goodbye. I need your help!
這是緊急情況 This is an emergency.
你可以晚點再來 絕對不行 You can come back later. Absolutely not.
不 No!
好的 Okay.
喂 喂 Hello? Hello?
喂 喂 是的 Hello. Hello. Yes.
喂 我是你妻子的心理治療師… Hello, I am your wife's psychotherapist...
停下 我聽不到… Stop, I can't...
她今天在治療中途離開了 and she left today in the middle of her appointment.
我聽不見你 我聽不見你 你是誰 I cannot hear you. I cannot hear you. Who is this?
好的 是的 我是你妻子的治療師 Okay. Yes. This is your wife's therapist.
她今天在治療中途離開了… She left in the middle of her appointment today...
好了 你得停下 而且… All right. You gotta stop. And...
你得停下 我根本不知道你在說什麼 You gotta stop. I have no idea what you're even talking about.
你是誰 Who is this?
你妻子是叫卡羅琳·普裏姆嗎 Is your wife named Caroline Primm?
你是 呃… And you are, um...
你的寶寶叫萊利 你是尼克·普裏姆 Your baby's name is Riley? And you are Nick Primm?
是的 好的 是的 嗯… Yes. Okay, yes, right. Well--
我妻子沒有治療師 My wife doesn't have a therapist.
好吧 她一直是我的病人 Okay, well, she has been my patient
在蒙托克心理藝術中心 at The Center for Psychological Arts in Montauk
從她懷萊利大約六個月開始 since she was about six months pregnant
今天… with Riley, and today...
這對我來說是新聞 Well, this is news to me.
嗯 無論… Mm. Well, whether...
…你是否知道她是我的病人 ...you knew that she was my patient or not,
我想對你說的是 what I'm trying to say to you
這是緊急情況 我真的很… is that this is an emergency, and I really...
她把你的寶寶留在這裏給我了 She left your baby here with me,
我需要你來接他 and I need you to come and pick him up.
你什麼意思 你什麼意思 What do you mean? What do you mean?
你什麼意思 我什麼意思 What do you mean, what do I mean?
她把寶寶留下了 She left the baby?
她不接電話… She's not answering her phone...
她可能在洗手間 She's probably in the bathroom
或者在他媽的自動售貨機旁邊 or by a fucking vending machine.
好吧 Okay.
我建議你給她打電話 I suggest that you call her.
也許如果是你打 她會接 Maybe she would pick up if it was you.
我會把地址發給你 你來接寶寶 I'm gonna text you my address to come and get the baby.
哦 天啊 Oh, Jesus Christ!
我肯定她沒事 我肯定她沒事 I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure she's okay.
我簡直不敢相信 I cannot even believe this.
我肯定她沒事 我肯定… I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure--
你知道嗎 這他媽太像她的作風了 You know what? This is so fucking typical of her.
好吧 嗯 她可能只是需要一些空間 Okay. Well, she probably just needed some space.
我會把地址發給你 在那裏… I'm gonna text you my address where...
這樣你就能來接她 好吧 聽著 so you can come and get her. Okay, look. Listen to me.
他 聽我說 Him. Listen to me.
我現在在工作 我現在在工作 I'm at work right now. I am at work right now.
這就是為什麼她應該 That's why she's supposed to be
照顧他媽的寶寶 taking care of the fucking baby,
這樣我才能工作 好嗎 so I can work, okay?
我要做的是 我會把我的地址發給你 Here's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna text you my address.
我在阿馬甘塞特 I'm in Amagansett.
你可以把寶寶送到這個地址 好嗎 You can drop the baby off at this address, okay?
好吧 嗯 我做不到 Okay, well, I can't do that,
我實際上非常擔心你的妻子 and I am actually very concerned about your wife.
這是緊急情況 而且她… This is an emergency, and she--
你知道 你已經用了兩次這個詞了 You know, you've used that term twice now.
這不是我的緊急情況 This isn't my emergency.
我不是那個丟了我他媽妻子的人 I'm not the one who lost my fucking wife!
我需要你立刻下來接你的寶寶 I need you to come down here and get your baby immediately,
如果你半小時內不到 and if you're not here within a half an hour,
我會報警 我會把地址發給你 I'm going to call the police. I will text you the address.
非常感謝 哦 天啊… Thank you very much. Oh, Jesus--
什麼事 嗨 我是斯蒂芬 Yes? Hi, it's Stephen.
我可以進來嗎 May I come in?
我在等一個病人 他剛按了門鈴進來 I'm expecting a patient. He just buzzed in.
你介意在我辦公室等一會兒嗎 Would you mind waiting in my office
就在走廊那頭 幾分鐘就好 down the hall just a few moments?
你的辦公室 你是誰 老闆嗎 Your office? Who are you, the boss?
不 只是另一個治療師 No. Just another therapist.
我有一間辦公室 在走廊那頭 I have an office. It's down the hall.
門開著 你會看到的 Door is open. You'll see it.
這是我的時間 她現在屬於我 This is my time. She's mine right now.
你不能讓我等 好嗎 You can't make me wait, okay?
這是緊急情況 This is an emergency situation.
你要麼在我辦公室等 You can either wait in my office
要麼你需要完全離開這棟樓 or you need to leave the building entirely.
那是個寶寶嗎 Is that a baby?
那是你的寶寶嗎 你有個寶寶 Is that your baby? You have a baby?
我是說 你們倆有個寶寶 I mean, do you guys have a baby together?
好吧 這情況與你無關 好嗎 Okay, this situation does not concern you, okay?
做個選擇 Make a choice.
好吧 我去你辦公室 Okay, I'll be in your office.
但我不會等太久 But I won't wait that long.
好的 Okay.
哇 Wow.
你能相信我被說服買了 Can you believe that I got talked into getting
這他媽倉鼠嗎 經歷了所有那些事 天啊 我… this fucking hamster after all of that? My God, I...
她說得對 我確實很有彈性 She's right. I really am so stretchable.
真噁心 你知道… It's disgusting. You know...
我上醫學院的時候 when I was in medical school,
我必須在醫學實驗實驗室實習一段時間 I had to do a stint in a medical experiments lab.
我們在測試一種藥物對老鼠的功效 And we were testing the efficacy of a drug on rats.
哦 我… 真酷 Oh, I... So cool.
操作方式是我們抓住老鼠 And the way it worked is we'd take the rats,
把它們丟進這種斷頭台一樣的東西裏 and we'd drop them in this guillotine thingy,
一個個砍掉它們的頭 chop their heads off individually,
剝開皮 peel the skin back
然後在顯微鏡下觀察它們的大腦 and then look at their brains under a microscope.
我只是很好奇 I'm just so curious
那個過程 我想知道… about the process with that. I wonder--
老鼠會抓你咬你… The rats would claw and bite you...
…當你把手伸進籠子抓它們的時候 ...when you put your hand in the cage to pick them up.
所以他們給了我們這些鋼鏈郵件手套 So they gave us these steel chain mail gloves.
是德國產的 很漂亮 They're German. They're beautiful.
所以你戴上手套 把手伸進籠子 So you put on the glove and you put your hand in the cage,
老鼠就會直接咬住手套 and the rats would just attach themselves to the glove,
緊緊抓住 你知道 為了活命 clinging for dear life, you know?
然後當你拿到斷頭台盒子時 And then when you got to the guillotine box,
你得把它們甩掉 you had to shake them off.
真的得用力甩 Really shake them.
我總是擔心老鼠會受傷 I was always worried that the rat would get hurt
當它的頭撞到斷頭台時 你知道 when it hit its head on the guillotine, you know?
但它們的大腦總是沒事 But their brains were always fine
當我們在顯微鏡下觀察時 when we looked under the microscope.
哦 Oh.
齧齒動物是恢復力很強的生物 Rodents are resilient creatures.
嗯 是的 Mm-hm. Yeah.
我會告訴斯蒂芬你的治療取消了 I'll tell Stephen your session's cancelled.
你得處理這個 好嗎 You have to take care of this, okay?
我愛你 I love you.
告訴我 她有自殺傾向嗎 有殺人傾向嗎 Just tell me, was she suicidal? Homicidal?
不 沒有 不 No. Mm-mm. No.
不 她執著於保護寶寶… No, she was obsessed with protecting the baby...
而且 呃 是的 And, uh, yeah.
她不會傷害寶寶的 She wouldn't hurt the baby.
她也沒談過自殺 And she didn't talk about suicide.
她不會拋棄萊利的 She wouldn't abandon Riley.
她剛剛拋棄了他 She just did abandon him.
對 嗯 你知道 我是說 呃… Right, well, you know, I mean, um...
你知道 永久地 永遠地 you know, permanently. Forever.
就這樣嗎 我還有另一個病人在等 Is that it? I have another patient waiting
真的需要我的幫助 who really needs my help.
沒事 這比你想像的要常見 It's fine. It's more common than you think.
一個女人試圖逃離所有責任 A woman tries to run away from all the responsibilities.
是的 大家都心煩意亂 Yeah. Everybody gets all upset,
然後她們就夾著尾巴回來了 then they come back with their tails between their legs.
好吧 好吧 Okay. Okay.
謝謝你 警官 Thank you, Officer.
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嗨 嗨 Hi. Hi,
是我 呃… 又是我 it's, uh... it's me again,
你的房客 來自阿爾岡昆22號 1單元 your tenant from 22 Algonquin, unit one.
你知道 就是天花板上有個他媽大洞的那間 You know, the one with the giant fucking hole in the ceiling!
你的維修工跑了 情況越來越糟 Your repairs guy ran off, and it's getting worse
我想知道你為什麼什麼都不做 and I want to know why you're doing nothing,
為什麼你高興讓我女兒和我住在 and why you're happy for my daughter and I to be staying
一個滿是怪人的低級旅館 at a flophouse full of freaks
而我繼續付你房租 while I continue to pay you rent!
我有一個非常 非常 非常重要的病人 And I have a very, very, very important patient
是位著名律師 我不怕… that is a prominent lawyer, and I am not afraid to--
該死 Fuck!
我想買些Visa禮品卡 I was after some Visa gift cards.
你們有什麼面值的 Uh, what denominations do you have?
孩子們出來前你有時間談談嗎 Do you have a minute to talk before the children come out?
嗯 當然 好的 過來 Mm-hm. Sure. Okay, come.
我注意到你還沒有像那天早上討論的那樣 So, I've noticed that you still haven't made the appointment
預約家庭治療 for family therapy like we discussed the other morning.
我知道 只是工作太忙了 I know. It's just been so crazy at work.
對 我無法再向你強調這有多重要了 Right. So I can't stress to you enough how important this is.
我站在你這邊 I'm on your side here.
是 是 是 我明白 Yes. Yes. Yes, I understand.
我們需要她擺脫機器 We need her off the machine.
是的 我也需要 Yeah, so do I.
好吧 我要直說了 Okay. I'm gonna be frank.
我們需要盡快讓她擺脫機器 她才能留在這裏 We need her off of it as soon as possible for her to remain here.
要做到這一點 她需要更快地增重 And to do that, she needs to gain faster.
好吧 但我們還有時間直到下周 對吧 Okay. Well, but we have until next week, right?
50磅的目標 不 The 50 pound goal. No.
照這樣下去 呃 她達不到那個目標 The way things are going, uh, she's not gonna make that goal.
你在說什麼 What are you saying?
我們每天早上都稱重 她達不到目標 We do weigh-ins every morning. She's not gonna make the goal.
因為你設定的目標是不可能的 Because the goal you set was impossible.
我們被設定為失敗 We were set up to fail.
不切實際 不 It's unrealistic. No.
我們將不得不重新評估護理級別 We're gonna have to reassess the level of care.
那是什麼意思 What does that mean?
我們可以在會議上討論 Well, we can discuss it in our meeting.
你知道我想要什麼 並且認為會很好的 You know what I would love, and think would be so good,
就是我們能確定一個手術日期 is if we could get a date on the calendar for the surgery.
一個我們都能努力的具體目標 A concrete goal that we can all work towards.
這不是… 這不是手術 It's not... it's not a surgery.
拔管 嗯… 程序 隨你怎麼叫 The tube removal? Well, uh... procedure, whatever you call it.
也不是程序 It's not a procedure either.
當需要拔掉的時候 醫生直接拉出來就行 Uh, when it's time to remove it, the doctor just pulls it out.
拉出來 Pull it out?
是的 直接就滑出來了 Yeah, it just slides out.
他們真的可以… 直接拉出來 They could just... really just pull it out?
是的 就這麼簡單 Yeah, it's that simple.
哦 但那個洞怎麼辦 Oh. But what happens to the hole?
它會自己閉合 It closes up on its own.
哦 Oh.
有點像你舌頭上有個傷口 It's kinda like when you get a cut on your tongue.
它想要閉合 It wants to close up.
哦 Oh.
嗯 Yeah?
哦 嗨 呃 詹姆斯在嗎 Oh, hi. Uh, is James here?
你是誰 Who are you?
我是他鄰居 我住那裏 那個房間 I'm his neighbor. I'm there, in that room there.
他不在 He is not here.
哦 呃 你知道他什麼時候回來嗎 Oh, uh, do you know when he'll be back?
我有點東西要給他 I just have something to give him.
給我吧 Give it to me.
我會轉交給他 不 不 I'll see he gets it. No, no.
我必須親自交給他 這是 呃… I have to give it to him myself. It's, uh...
很貴重 It's of value.
貴重 Of value?
呃 是的 貴重 Uh, yeah. Of value.
放鬆你的身體 Relax your body.
專注於自己 Center in with yourself.
現在 你唯一的工作就是呼吸 Right now, your only job is to breathe.
我們正處於這個工作的階段… We're in the work phase of this...
你現在身體越放鬆… The more you relax your body right now...
…對你來說就越容易 ...the easier it gets for you.
認識到我們正在進入身體的智慧區 Recognize we're accessing the body's wisdom zone.
放空你的思緒 Let your mind go.
看看你是否能找到 See if you can find your attention
你注意力在呼吸流動中的位置 within the movement of your breath.
開始注意 Start noticing
你身體的任何感覺… any sensation in your body...
…看看什麼能引起你的興趣 ...and see what catches your interest
或好奇心 or your curiosity,
並以你想要被擁抱的方式保持這個空間 and hold the space in a way you want to be held.
你可能會注意到 You'll probably notice
任何強度在你體內積聚 any intensity builds up in your body.
沒關係 That's okay.
與其試圖控制任何事情 Rather than trying to control anything,
看看你是否能允許… see if you can just allow...
強度… the intensity to...
你沒幫上忙 You're not helping!
那樣按住她的腿 按住她的腿 Hold her legs that way. Hold her legs down.
我們可能得約束她 We might have to restrain her.
媽 按住她 Mom! Hold her down!
你是來幫我們的 來吧 You're here to help us, come on!
那根本沒幫上忙 That's not helping at all.
媽媽 Mommy!
試著幫忙 試著幫忙 Try to help. Try to help.
媽媽 Mommy!
讓自己感到安全 Make yourself feel safe.
如果情況變得緊張 If things are getting intense,
認識到你可以保持這個空間 recognize you can hold the space.
你現在可以愛自己 You can love yourself right now.
不要迴避內心的任何東西 不要拋棄自己 Don't avoid anything within. Don't abandon yourself.
保持與自己的連接 Stay connected to yourself.
看看你是否能尊重自己 See if you can honor yourself
在這個重新連接自己的時刻 in this moment of reconnecting to yourself.
用你的聲音 想像你的情緒 Use your voice and imagine your emotion.
允許它… Allow it to be...
也許你甚至今晚就可以做 Maybe you can even do it tonight.
下面這裏 這邊 Down here. This way.
在這裏面 這裏 It's in here. Here.
好的 我們得快點兒 因為我得回去 但是… Okay, we gotta be quick because I have to get back, but...
我只是… 我只是得找個人看看這裏發生了什麼 I just... I just had to show someone what's going on in here.
好的 Okay.
一個房間 到處都蓋著塑料布 So, a room filled with plastic tarp everywhere.
不錯 Nice.
所以 這是你的殺人房間嗎 So, is this your kill room?
不 拜託 我告訴過你了 No. Come on, I told you.
他媽的天花板塌了 The fucking ceiling fell down.
那他媽是什麼 What the fuck is that?
就是它 就是那個洞 That's it. That's the hole.
這就是我住酒店的原因 That's why I'm at the hotel.
這就是你住在那個他媽酒店的原因 That's why you're staying at the fucking hotel?
天啊 拜託 Oh, my God. Come on.
你完全可以在沙發上睡幾周 You could've slept on your couch for a couple of weeks.
什麼 你看看 What? Look at it.
已經兩個月了 他們拒絕修理 It's been two months, and they refuse to fix it.
到處都是灰塵和… 和黴菌 There's dust and... and mold everywhere.
嗯 Mm.
喲 那上面是什麼 Yo, what is up there?
他們一直在翻修 沒完沒了 They've been renovating forever.
他們說水管爆了 哦 該死 They said a pipe burst. Oh, shit.
就在那裏 給你看 It's right there. There you go.
我做了… 那個… 你知道 那個東西 呼吸那個東西 I did the... that... you know, the thing, the breath thing.
什麼 What?
我覺得它把我帶到了這裏 And I think it took me here.
我覺得也許我… 哦 老兄… I think maybe I... Oh, man...
這就是為什麼我想來看看 That's why I wanted to come to see it.
老兄 你做那玩意兒需要指導 Man, you need guidance with that shit.
你不能就那樣自己做 You can't just be doing that.
你在幹什麼 老兄 他們騙了你 姐妹 What are you doing? Man, they lied to you, sis.
這裏根本沒有水管 It ain't even no pipes in here.
也許你不該靠那麼近 Maybe you shouldn't get so close to it.
噓 看 過來看 Shh. Look. Come see.
是整齊的斷裂 我告訴你 It's a clean break. I'm telling you.
天啊 Oh, my God.
天啊 他媽的怎麼回事 Oh, my God. What the fuck?
老兄 我表哥克雷格是總承包商 Man, my cousin Craig is a general contractor.
他認識人 可以 He knows somebody that knows somebody that can
馬上搞定這玩意兒 喲 天啊 fix this shit in a jiffy, yo. Oh, my God.
看起來你有些 It look like you got some
他媽的家具有碎片 motherfucking debris on your furniture.
你知道 我可以重新裝飾 You know, I can reupholster it.
不過要花錢 It's gonna cost you.
放開我 Let me go!
別碰我 Don't touch me!
媽媽 媽媽 我不要 Mommy! Mommy! I don't want it!
你做得非常好 不 You are doing such a good job. No!
不 媽媽 No! Mommy!
你得抱得再用力點 You gotta hold her a lot harder than that.
不 不 No! No!
他媽的怎麼回事 哦 該死 What the fuck?! Oh, shit!
哦 該死 該死 該死 Oh, fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
該死 哦 該死 Fuck! Oh, fuck!
詹姆斯 James?
啊 該死 該死 Ah! Fuck! Fuck!
該死 Fuck!
哦 該死 Oh, fuck!
大家安靜 好嗎 Everybody settle. All right?
開始吧 請把這些發下去 Get started. Hand out these, please.
謝謝 Thank you.
好的 All right.
所以今天的話題是某種非常基本的東西 So the topic today is something that's so fundamental
以至於談論它其實有點傻 that it's actually a little silly to talk about.
但它對你孩子的康復至關重要 But it is so important to your child's recovery,
更重要的是 and more than that,
對你幫助孩子康復的能力至關重要 to your ability to help your child recover.
有人能猜到是什麼嗎 Can anybody guess what it is?
責備… Blame...
…還有 有人嗎 羞恥 ...and, anybody? Shame.
是的 謝謝你 Yeah, thank you.
所以 作為父母 很多時候 So, as parents, a lot of times
我們過於審視自己 對吧 we look too closely at ourselves, right?
然後我們開始問自己 這是我的錯嗎 And we start to ask ourselves, is this my fault?
我本可以做得不同嗎 Could I have done anything differently?
如果這樣 如果那樣 What if this? What if that?
但這只會製造一個思維陷阱 But all it does is create a thinking trap.
這對你的孩子沒有幫助 And that does not help your child.
所以我想做的 如果我們看看… So what I'd like to do, if we look...
梅蘭妮… Melanie...
你想用語言表達你的感受嗎 do you want to put some words to your feelings?
是的 Yeah.
我… I...
有時候 我就是覺得這都是我的錯 Sometimes, I just think that it is all my fault.
你有什麼想對梅蘭妮說的嗎 Do you have something to say to Melanie?
不 哇哦 不 No. Whoa, no.
算了 別管我 Never mind. Don't mind me.
不 不 不 我想聽聽你要說什麼 No, no, no. I want to hear what you have to say.
呃… Uh...
我只是… 你一直告訴我們這不是我們的錯 I just-You keep telling us that it isn't our fault.
是的 嗯 但是… 但是這是 Yeah. Mm. But... but it is.
你說什麼 Excuse me?
我的意思是 如果這不是我們的錯 那我們就真的超級完蛋了 I mean, if it isn't our fault, then we're really super fucked.
我們只是四處走動 假裝 We're just walking around pretending
我們有能力改變一些事情 we have power to change something
我們甚至不理解的事情 因為這不是我們的錯 that we don't even understand because it's not our fault,
但我們知道如何改變它 即使這不是我們的錯 but we know how to change it, even though it's not our fault.
不 這其實很好 No, this is actually good.
這其實很好 因為現在我們有很多需要梳理 This is actually good because now we have a lot to unpack.
不 不 不 我知道 No, no, no. I know.
我做不到 我得走了 I can't do this. I have to go.
請坐下 不 不 不 這是我們的錯 Please sit down. No, no, no. It's our fault.
這不公平 但這是我們的錯 It isn't fair, but it is our fault.
我就是這麼看的 就這樣 That's how I see it. That's it.
這整件事 就是我們的錯 That's what this whole thing is, is our faults.
停下 坐下 不 不 不 Stop and sit down. No, no, no.
不 我不想談這個 No, I don't want to talk about it.
我已經知道了 我不需要見你 I already know it, and I don't have to meet you
因為我知道你要說什麼 because I know what you're going to say,
就是說她失敗了… 我需要你坐下 which is that she's failed... I need you to sit down!
…我失敗了 因為你設定了讓我們失敗的目標 ...and that I failed because you set us up to fail.
如果有了安全網 沒人會努力嘗試 No one tries hard if they have a safety net.
坐下 沒有人會 好嗎 Sit down. Nobody, okay?
你應該知道這一點 斯普林醫生 And you should know that, Dr. Spring.
我的餘生都會在這裏 I'm gonna be here for the rest of my life
往那個管子裏灌屎 pouring shit down that tube.
每晚 直到我死 不准離開那扇門 Every night until I die. Do not leave that door!
這些對我們任何人都沒有幫助 一點都沒有 And none of this is helping any of us. None of it.
回來 Come back!
嘿 嘿 你為什麼打電話 Hey! Hey, why are you calling?
現在不是有家長小組在進行嗎 Isn't a parent group going on right now?
我坐不住 我在車裏 I couldn't sit there. I'm in the car.
我晚點去接她 但我不能待在那裏 I'll pick her up later, but I can't stay there.
你什麼意思 你坐不住 What do you mean you couldn't sit there?
我做不到 我做不到 I can't do it. I can't do it.
她必須好起來 但她達不到目標 She's gotta get better, but she's not gonna make the goal,
我… 我不知道現在會發生什麼 and I-I don't know what's gonna happen now.
你需要回到那裏去 You need to get back in there.
洞越來越大了 The hole is getting bigger.
什麼洞 她的管口洞嗎 What hole? Her tube hole?
不 不 是公寓的洞 你告訴我… No! No, the apartment hole! You told me--
那個該死的洞 The goddamn hole!
你為什麼就不能盯著那些工人 Why can't you just keep tabs on those guys?
因為那個人走了一周 Because the guy's gone for a week.
沒人在幹活 There's no one working on it.
什麼 一周 你打算什麼時候告訴我 What?! A week?! When were you gonna mention that?
我現在告訴你 I'm telling you now.
電話裏解釋起來很複雜 It's very complicated to explain over the phone.
聽著 聽著 不 不 不 Look, look, look. No, no, no.
就… 就 Just-just
發照片給我… 不 send me pictures... No!
…我會找人處理 ...and I'll have somebody take care of it.
不 不 不 不要再發照片了 我不會再回那裏了 No, no, no. No more pictures. I'm not going back there.
我永遠不會再回那裏了 我和羅斯科談過了… I'm never going back there. And I talked to Roscoe...
你在說什麼 …他滿嘴胡扯 What are you talking about? ...and he's so full of shit.
他什麼都沒做 順便說一句 He's not doing anything. And by the way,
我覺得他和汽車旅館有協議 因為還有另一個… I think he has a deal with the motel because there's another--
好了 停下 停下 停下 好嗎 讓我把這事搞清楚 Okay. Stop, stop, stop, okay? Let me just get this straight.
你不再參加項目了 You aren't going into the program anymore,
也不再去我們的公寓了 and you aren't going into our apartment anymore?
對 為什麼 That's right. Why?
那你指望一切怎麼恢復正常 How do you expect anything to get back to normal then?
不會恢復正常了 It won't.
你在說什麼 What are you talking about?!
不會了 It won't!
好吧 你… All right. Are you...
你現在清醒嗎 你發完瘋了嗎 are you in your right mind now? Are you done?
還有 有個女人失蹤了 Also, there's a woman missing.
什麼 誰 你在… 誰失蹤了 What? Who? What are you... Who's missing?
我的病人 她失蹤了 My patient. She's missing.
她走了 不接電話 而且她… She left and she's not picking up her phone, and she's--
哦 好吧 好吧 是的 我們深呼吸一下 Oh, okay. Okay. Yeah, let's take a deep breath.
從頭開始說 不 不 不 Start from the beginning. No, no, no.
我不能跟你談這個 I can't talk to you about this.
你為什麼不回小組 Why aren't you going back into the group?
我晚點再跟我的治療師談 我… 這個… I'll just talk to my therapist later. I-This--
這很好 一切都很好 This is fine. Everything's fine.
嘿 嘿 慢下來 慢下來 Hey, hey. Slow down. Slow down.
一切都很好 Everything's fine.
你一周見那傢伙幾次 How many times a week do you see that guy?
我剛查了銀行賬戶 多久… I just looked in the bank accounts. How often--
每天 每天 每天 拜託 Every day. Every day. Every day?! Come on!
等等 等等 等等 那要花我們一大筆錢 Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. That's costing us a fortune!
請勿在車內閒置 請移動車輛或您本人 No sitting idle in vehicles. Please move the car or yourself.
我有權坐在我的車裏 不用你騷擾我 I have a right to sit in my car without you harassing me!
什麼 是的 What Yeah.
你在跟別人說話嗎 Are you talking to somebody?
是的 有個討厭的混蛋 Yeah, there's this creepy asshole
每天他媽騷擾我 who's harassing me every fucking day!
他騷擾我 他迷戀我 He harasses me. He's obsessed with me.
他又到我車窗前想要東西 He's back at my window wanting something!
你在說什麼 What are you talking about?
你是要離開停車場 Are you going to leave the parking lot
還是下車 or get out of your car!
天啊 你是認真的嗎 Oh, my God! Are you serious?
我會報警 天啊 是的 是的 是的 I will call the police! Oh, my God! Yeah, yeah, yeah.
報警啊 挪開 Call the police. Move!
報警啊 是的 我要報警抓你 Call the police. Yeah, I'm gonna call the police on you!
我再也不想在這裏看到你 I never want to see you here again!
天啊 Oh, my God!
你在騷擾… 這是騷擾 You're harass-This is harassment!
有什麼特別的原因讓你現在保持沉默嗎 Anything in particular keeping you silent right now?
我想保持沉默這個事實讓我保持沉默 The fact that I want to be silent is keeping me silent.
我認為… 這不關你的事 I think-This isn't about you.
我的意思是我… What I mean is I--
我是說 我付錢買你的時間 I mean, I pay for your time.
對吧 所以我可以隨心所欲地利用那段時間 Right? So I can do anything I want with that time,
而現在… and right now...
我只想躺在這裏 不想你說話 I just want to lay here without you talking.
你不需要來這裏做那個 Well, you did not have to come here for that.
躺在你自己的沙發上 Go lie on your own couch.
你希望我躺在自己的沙發上而不是來這裏嗎 Do you wish I lied on my own couch instead of coming here?
我只是說 你選擇了不獨自一人 All I'm saying is you chose not to be alone.
哦 我是獨自一人 Oh, I'm alone.
不 你不是獨自一人 我在這裏 No, you're not alone. I'm here.
但不 你不是 不完全是 But no, you aren't. Not really.
我們可以… 我們能別這樣嗎 What we can do-Can we just not?
說真的 Seriously.
好吧 Okay.
你知道嗎 Do you know what?
我有沒有告訴過你我以前懷過孕 Did I ever tell you that I was pregnant before?
就像 我懷過兩次孕 Like, I've been pregnant twice.
我從不告訴任何人這個 I never tell anyone this.
那是查爾斯和我剛開始約會的時候 呃… It was when Charles and I were first dating and, um...
我馬上做了流產 就像… I got an abortion right away, like...
我做了驗孕 I took a pregnancy test
然後第二天就去了一家隨機診所 and then just went to a random clinic the next day.
我做的是那種手術流產 用真空吸的那種 I got the surgical kind with the vacuum thing.
它… And it...
非常疼 就像… hurt really badly, like...
一個護士握著我的手 A nurse held my hand.
出於某種原因 And for some reason,
我沒有意識到會有多疼 但是… I didn't realize how badly it would hurt but...
…確實很疼 ...it really did.
是的 那幾乎是20年前了 Yeah, it was almost 20 years ago.
如果我沒那麼做 現在孩子都該上大學了 I'd have a kid in college by now if I hadn't done that.
也許我處理錯了那個 Maybe I got rid of the wrong one.
你為什麼什麼都不說 Why won't you say anything?
我無法呼吸 I can't breathe.
你不明白 你看不到 You don't get it. You don't see.
你… 你愛說我不明白 You... you love to tell me I don't get it.
你認為我不明白什麼 What is it you think I don't get?
你如此確信… What is it you're so sure...
我無法幫助你的是什麼 I can't help you with?
我是那種不應該當媽媽的人 I'm one of those people that's not supposed to be a mom.
我不是媽媽 我不是 I'm not a mom. I'm not.
這不應該是這樣的 This isn't supposed to be what it's like.
不是這樣的 不可能是這樣的 This isn't it. This can't be it.
你說點什麼啊 Will you say something?!
不是每個人都能做到 我做不到… Not everyone can do it. I can't...
你有孩子嗎 Do you have any kids?
你有孩子嗎 Do you have a kid!?
喂 Hello!
你為什麼不跟我說話 你為什麼不幫我 Why won't you talk to me?! Why won't you help me?!
我知道你在做什麼… I know what you're doing...
…我無法接受 ...and I can't have it.
我在做什麼 What am I doing?
這沒有效果 This isn't working.
你什麼意思 What do you mean?
我們不能再見面了 We can't see each other anymore.
我早到了 I got here early.
你得在外面等 You'll have to wait outside.
呃 聽著 Uh, look,
我不知道你為什麼不接手機 I don't know why you aren't answering your cell,
但斯普林醫生打電話來說… but Dr. Spring called and--
是斯普林醫生 It's Dr. Spring.
你不能帶你女兒來這裏接受進一步治療 You cannot bring your daughter here for further treatment
直到我們… until we have--
你太過分了 你知道嗎 You are too much, you know?
你… 我要… You are... I'm gonna--
嘿 謝謝你來關心 Hey, thanks for checking in.
免得你忘了 In case you forgot,
我妻子他媽還失蹤著呢 my wife still happens to be fucking missing.
你知道 我不知道你玩什麼把戲… You know, I don't know what kind of number--
他媽的怎麼回事 What the fuck?
你… You...
你提到了聖經裏 You mentioned an aphorism from the Bible
關於磨石的箴言 你能說說那是什麼嗎 about a millstone. Would you say what that is?
就是把一塊石頭綁在脖子上 That it's better to tie a stone around your neck
把自己扔進海裏 and throw yourself into the sea
也比讓任何人跌倒… 跌倒要好 than to cause anyone to stumble-stumble.
好的 讓我確認一下我記對了 All right, let me make sure I'm getting that.
把磨石綁在脖子上 It's better to tie a millstone around your neck
把自己扔進海裏 而不是做什麼 and throw yourself in the sea rather than to do what?
讓人跌倒 跌倒 Cause someone to stumble. Stumble.
讓人跌倒 好的 To cause someone to stumble? Okay.
當你奪走你孩子們的性命時 What were you trying to accomplish there
你想達到什麼目的 when you did take your children's lives?
…所有女人 所有Z世代的群體思維 ...all women, all Gen Z group think.
你的想法是什麼 Like, what are your thoughts?
然後呢 And?
喂 Hello?
是的 嗯 嗯 Yeah. Mm-hm. Mm-hm.
嗯 Mm-hm.
那完全不可信 對吧 That is totally unbelievable, right?
那完全不可信 所有的一切 That's completely unbelievable. All of it.
但斯普林醫生說… 我不在乎她說什麼 But Dr. Spring said-I don't care what she said.
我告訴你 I'm telling you,
我有個工作緊急情況 不能待在那裏 I had a work emergency and I couldn't stay.
我必須離開 不是我的錯 I had to leave. It isn't my fault.
我按時回來接你了 I came right back to pick you up when I was supposed to
就像我一直做的那樣 我只是… 我只是… like I always do. I just-I just--
我只是不能參加小組活動 但是 你知道… I just couldn't stay for the group, but, you know...
我和很多病得很重的人一起工作 I work with a lot of very sick people,
寶貝 有時候他們… 比我病得更重嗎 honey, and sometimes they are-Sick than me?
和你病的方式不同 Sick in a different way than you.
但斯普林醫生說… 我告訴過你 But Dr. Spring said-I told you,
我不在乎她說什麼 I don't care what she said.
我是你媽媽 I'm your mother.
但她愛我 她這麼說的 She loves me though. She said so.
她說了 She said that?
她愛我們所有人 孩子們 She loves all of us. The kids.
她沒權利告訴你那個 她是醫生 She has no right to tell you that. She's a doctor.
她沒權利… 但那是真的 She doesn't have a right-It's true, though!
你知道 我認為我們不再需要這個項目了 You know, I don't think we need the program anymore.
我好了 是的 我想也許 是的 I'm better? Yeah. I think maybe, yeah.
也許我們… Maybe we...
就我們倆來做 你和我 we just do it, you and me.
會發生什麼 What would happen?
呃… 很多美好的事情 你會… Uh... So many wonderful things. You would...
你能拔掉管子 You'd be able to get the tube out,
你可以回學校 and you could go back to school
你會吃遍全世界所有美味的東西 and you'd be eating everything delicious in the whole word.
那不是很棒嗎 Wouldn't that be great?
你能做到嗎 You can do that?
做到什麼 Do what?
讓我好起來 我不需要機器了 Make me better? I won't need the machine?
嗯… Well...
我好了 他們這麼說嗎 I'm better? They said that?
我想 也許吧 I think, maybe.
你知道 而且… You know, and...
如果不行 那我們就直接做 你知道 And if not, then we'll just do it, you know?
你比以前好多了 You're better than you were,
而且斯普林醫生不是我們的老闆 and Dr. Spring's not the boss of us.
媽媽 Mommy?
怎麼了 Yeah?
真的很抱歉 但我沒有好起來 I'm really sorry, but I'm not better.
請不要因為我說了這個生氣或傷心 Please don't be mad or sad that I said that.
喂 Hello?
有人在這裏 There's someone here
想在大廳見你 who wants to see you in the lobby.
什麼 誰 What? Who?
不肯說 下來或不下來隨你 Won't say. Come down or don't.
謝謝你來查看我的情況 Thanks for checking on me.
哦 你絕對不敢相信我今天經歷了什麼 老實說 Oh, you would not believe the day I had, honestly.
在你把我一個人丟下之後 After you just left me all alone,
拋棄在你那陰森森的公寓裏 abandoned in your spooky-ass apartment,
我的腿骨都戳出來了 with my bone sticking out my leg.
我給你叫了救護車 I called you an ambulance.
沒什麼大不了的 No big deal.
你還指望我怎麼做 What else did you expect me to do?
真的很痛 It's really painful.
我必須回到這裏 回到我孩子身邊 好嗎 I had to get back here to my kid, okay?
年度最佳母親 我差點忘了 Mother of the fucking year. I almost forgot.
我不在乎 I don't care.
那我到底該拿你那塊可卡因怎麼辦 And what exactly am I supposed to do with your brick of cocaine?
沖掉 Flush it.
好的 沖掉 Okay. Flush it.
真好啊 It must be nice.
他們為什麼沒給你枴杖 Why didn't they give you any crutches?
去他媽的枴杖 Fuck them crutches.
是… 真的是你 It's... It is you!
你… 你在這裏 You-you're here.
我希望這沒關係 I hope that's okay.
我有一次不小心跟蹤了你 然後… I accidentally followed you this one time, and...
你住在這裏 You live here?
你… 你還好嗎 Are... are you okay?
我很好 好的 好的 I'm okay. Okay. Okay.
你去哪了 Where did you go?
我只是… 我… 我必須離開那裏 I just... I-I had to get out of there.
好的 我理解 所以 我們… 你真的理解嗎 Okay, I understand. So, let's-Do you?
你真的 真的理解嗎 Do you really, really understand?
我想是的 I think so.
哦 該死 不 這是… Oh, shit. No. This is...
這是個錯誤 This is a mistake.
這是個錯誤 因為我認為… This is a mistake because I thought...
我認為你理解 I thought that you understood,
那樣我甚至不必說… and that I wouldn't even have to say--
我們冷靜下來 Let's calm down.
我認為我們現在應該做的是馬上上車 I think what we should do is get in a car right now
直接去急診室 and go straight to the emergency room.
醫院 A hospital?
是的 為什麼 為什麼 Yes. Why? Why?
因為 Because
那只是個安全的地方可以去… 為什麼 為什麼 不 我很好 it's just a safe place to go... Why? Why? No, I'm fine.
…如果你覺得還沒準備好回家 ...if you don't feel ready to go home.
那你女兒呢 Well, what about your daughter?
我女兒 你女兒在哪 My daughter? Where is your daughter?
她在樓上 她在睡覺 She's upstairs. She's sleeping.
我不想去醫院 I don't want to go to a hospital.
好的 Okay.
我想要你幫我 I want you to help me.
我正在嘗試 I'm trying to.
我正在嘗試幫你 請幫幫我 I am trying to help you. Please help me.
不 不 因為你不理解 No, no, because you don't understand.
你看不到 他們所有人的臉 You don't see it. All of their faces.
他們的小臉 他們看著我們 Their little faces. They look at us,
那裏什麼都沒有 好的 你需要冷靜下來 and there is nothing there. Okay, you need to calm down.
不 不 你需要冷靜下來 No! No! You need to calm down.
不 我很好 好嗎 No, I am fine! Okay?
但我只需要你… 我們深呼吸 But I just need you... Let's just breathe.
不 但你不知道… 深呼吸 No, but you don't know... Just breathe.
吸氣和呼氣 卡羅琳 In and out, Caroline.
深呼吸 Just take a breath.
跟我一起呼吸 停下 Just breathe with me. Stop.
從呼吸開始 Just start with a breath.
卡羅琳 等等 Caroline, wait!
停下 Stop!
卡羅琳 Caroline!
治療師 如果是緊急情況 THERAPIST If this is an emergency,
請掛斷並撥打911 hang up and call 911.
否則 請在正常工作時間回電 Otherwise, call back during normal business hours.
好的 給我回電 Okay, call me back.
今晚給我回電 好嗎 Call me back tonight, okay?
求你了 求你了 你說過你能幫我的 Please? Please, you said that you could help me.
求你了 求你了 給我回電 好嗎 Please. Please, just call me back, okay?
我需要你 再見 I need you. Bye.
媽媽 Mommy?
回去睡覺 一切都好 Go back to sleep. Everything's okay.
我的肚子濕了 My tummy is wet.
噓 沒事的 我把它弄好了 好嗎 Sh-sh-sh. It's okay. I made it better, okay?
回去睡覺 Go back to sleep.
喂 Hello?
哦 Oh!
你為什麼在這裏 Why are you here?
你還好嗎 Are you okay?
哪裏… Where...
你什麼時候到的 你為什麼在這裏 When did you get here? Why are you here?
她在哪 Where is she?
她在睡覺 She's asleep.
和保姆在一起 是的 With the babysitter? Yes.
聽著 我只是… Look, I just...
我無法思考 我無法運作 I couldn't think. I couldn't function.
我什麼都做不了 I couldn't do anything.
我滿腦子想的都是你 All I was doing was thinking about you,
她 還有公寓 and her, and the apartment
所以我必須回來 我害怕 so I had to come back. I was scared.
我想幫忙 等等 等等 等等 我… I wanted to help. Wait, wait, wait. Wait, I--
什麼 你只需要知道怎麼跟這些人打交道 What? You just gotta know how to talk to these guys.
就這樣 That's all.
你看過了嗎 那個洞 你看到了嗎 Did you look at it, the hole? Did you see it?
你看到什麼了嗎 Did you see anything?
哦 是的 不 它 呃… 沒有修好 Oh, yeah. No, it, uh... It was not fixed.
現在修好了 Now it's fixed.
好吧 好吧 我想我們該… 我們現在就走 Okay. Okay, I think we should just... Let's just go now.
我只是不明白怎麼會變得這麼糟 I just don't see how it got so bad.
怎麼會變得這麼糟 How did it get so bad?
你想怪我嗎 Are you trying to blame me?
不 我不是在怪你 我只是… No, I'm not blaming you. I just...
我只是想離開這裏 I just want to get out of here.
那是個大洞 我想離開這裏 It was a huge hole. I want to get out of here.
你愛我嗎 Do you love me?
愛 Yeah.
嘿 嘿 等等 等等 等等 什麼 Hey, hey. Wait, wait, wait. What?
急什麼 What's the rush?
是你急著要回來的 You were the one who was in a rush to get back here.
我不想再待在這裏了 I don't want to be here anymore.
我們就在這裏 好嗎 We are here, all right?
讓保姆下班吧 我累壞了 Let's relieve the babysitter. I'm exhausted.
我想睡覺了 I want to get to sleep,
即使她睡著了我也很想見她 and I'm excited to see her even if she's sleeping.
我知道 但你為什麼不下樓 I know, but why don't you go downstairs
給我們買點酒什麼的 and get us some wine or something
我可以讓保姆下班 and I can relieve the sitter
然後你可以上來 然後我們可以… and then you can come back up and then we can...
怎麼回事 怎麼回事 What's going on? What's going on?
沒什麼事 There's nothing going on.
開門 Open the door.
我 我沒有鑰匙 Me? I don't have a key.
對 是的 好吧 Right, yeah. Okay.
天啊 別告訴我你把她留在這裏 Oh, God. Don't tell me you left her here
自己卻沒鑰匙 拜託 不 不 不 without having a key. Come on. No, no, no. No.
我當然有鑰匙 你以為我是什麼人 Of course, I have a key. What do you think I am?
嘿 我是她爸爸 我是查爾斯 Hey. I'm her dad. I'm Charles.
很高興認識你 你一定是保姆吧 Nice to meet you. You must be the babysitter.
保姆 是的 詹姆斯 對吧 Babysitter? Yeah, James, right?
傑米 對 哦 謝謝你… Jamie, right. Oh, thank you for...
哦 才不是 Oh, hell no.
我才不跟你玩這套 喲 I'm not doing this shit with you, yo.
不玩什麼 你在說什麼 Not doing what? What are you talking about?
我不是他媽保姆 老兄 I'm not a fucking babysitter, dude.
你說什麼 Excuse me?
你女兒醒了 在哭 嚇得要死 Your daughter woke up and was crying, scared shitless.
所以我他媽一直敲門直到她終於開門 So I pounded on the fucking door till she finally opened it.
我只好告訴她我是你妻子的朋友 I had to tell her I was a friend of your wife.
兄弟我花了半天才把她哄睡 Bro, it took me forever to get her to go to sleep.
對了還得給她貼創可貼 And by the way, I had to give her a Band-Aid.
她肚子上有什麼東西在流膿 She has some shit oozing from her stomach or something.
嘿 好了好了 等等 等一下 Hey. Okay, okay, hold on. Hold on.
聽著 你他媽是誰 小心我的腿 Listen, who the fuck are you... Watch the leg, man.
你在我房間幹什麼 and what the hell are you doing in my room?
你的房間 對 這是我妻子 Your room? Yeah. This is my wife.
那是我孩子 That's my child.
媽媽 我的房間 Mommy? My room.
我剛告訴過你我是誰 I just fucking told you who I was,
你該問問你妻子我腿為什麼打著石膏 and you need to ask your wife why I got this cast on my leg.
這是 我不 這人是誰 It's-I don't... Who is this guy?
他是保姆 他不是保姆 He's the babysitter. He's not the babysitter!
他剛告訴我他不是保姆 He just told me he's not the babysitter.
我不知道他在說什麼 I don't know what he's talking about.
他到底是誰她醒了 Who the fuck is he? She's awake.
我們能不能進去說 Can we just go inside?
她說的話都能聽見 She can hear everything you're saying.
你能解釋為什麼她的機器關了 Can you even explain to me why her machine is off
管子還在她身體外面 and the tube is outside of her body?
爸爸 你在外面嗎 Daddy! Are you out there?
我不摻和這事了 來看我 I ain't in this shit, man. Come see me!
我們進去吧 爸爸 爸爸 Let's go inside. Daddy! Daddy!
嘿嘿 看吶 是的 嗨 Hey. Hey. Lookit. Yes, hi.
爸爸回家了 Daddy's home!
媽媽說我們不需要治療了 Mom said we didn't need the program anymore.
天吶 看看你 你真漂亮 Oh, my gosh. Look at you! You're beautiful.
但我不相信因為斯普林醫生說需要 But I didn't believe her because Dr. Spring said I do.
但看她說對了 你說什麼 But look, she was right! What? What are you saying?
看沒有管子了 什麼 Look! No tube! What?
管子現在沒用了 The tube is garbage now.
我可以回學校了 I can go back to school!
天吶 Oh, my God.
天吶 但是爸爸 Oh, my God. But Daddy...
我還是不想吃東西 I still don't want to eat food...
什麼 What...
因為太軟了 怎麼回事 ...because it's too squishy. What's going on?
明天帶我去遊樂場好嗎 Will you take me to the playground tomorrow?
你做了什麼 What did you do?
你做了什麼 What did you do?!
媽媽 Mommy!
別碰我 Don't touch me!
媽媽 Mommy!
媽媽 我在這裏 Mommy, I'm here.
媽媽 求你了 Mommy, please!
媽媽 Mommy!
求你了 Please!
坐在病床前 Sit beside The breakfast table
想著你的痛苦 Think about your troubles
端起那杯藥水 Pour yourself a cup of tea
看著氣泡浮動 Then think about The bubbles
媽媽？ Mommy?
我會好起來的 我保證 I'll be better. I promise.
我會好起來的 I'll be better.
守在病床前 Sit beside The breakfast table
想著你的病痛 Think about your troubles
端起那杯藥水 Pour yourself a cup of tea
看著氣泡浮動 Then think About the bubbles
你可以收起淚水 You can take your teardrops
滴進藥杯裏 Drop them in a teacup
帶到醫院後花園 Take them down To the riverside
把它們全部拋棄 And throw them Over the side
讓時光帶走 To be swept up by a current
飄向遠方 Then taken to the ocean
被微風吹散 To be eaten by some fishes
被陽光蒸發 Who were eaten by Some fishes
被雲朵承載 Swallowed by a whale
它漸漸飄遠 Who grew so old
最終消散 He decomposed
滴答 Doo-doo
它消失不見 He died and left his body
在遙遠天際 To the bottom of the ocean
現在人人都知道 Now everybody knows
當痛苦消散時 That when a body decomposes
希望的元素 The basic elements
回歸心間 Are given back to the ocean
心靈做它該做的事 And the sea does What it oughta
很快涌出力量 And soon There's salty water
不再苦澀 Not too good for drinking
因為嘗起來就像希望 'Cause it tastes Just like a teardrop
於是經過治癒 So they run it Through a filter
從眼中流出 It comes out from a faucet
匯入生命之河 And it pours into a teapot
即將重新開始 Which is just about To bubble
現在 Now
想想你的新生 Think about your troubles