請做好下船準備 Please prepare to exit the ferry.
甲板上的各位請注意 Attention on deck.
我們即將抵達火島松林 We are now arriving at Fire Island Pines.
歡迎各位光臨火島 Welcome to Fire Island, everybody.
下船時請小心 Please take care exiting the boat.
台階濕滑 Those steps can be wet.
另外請帶齊您的隨身行李 Also double-check you have all your luggage...
祝各位玩得愉快 Have a good day.
-威克斯 -親愛的 - Hey, Weeks. - Hey, honey.
你好嗎 How you doing?
我們好著呢 We're doing great.
到了 Here we are.
你們幹嘛呢 What are you guys doing?
現在不流行胸毛了 下個就是你 泰迪熊 Hairy is out. Your turn, Teddy Bear.
不要 我喜歡毛茸茸的 Oh, no, I love my Teddy.
卡爾文·克萊因可不喜歡呢 Calvin Klein would not approve.
棒球賽開始了 Baseball game is on
意味著我的夏天也正式開始了 and my summer has officially begun.
問題是 他真是這麼想的 The thing is, he actually means it.
-寶貝 -你好嗎 - Hey, baby. - How are you?
-要冰啤酒嗎 -不用了 我已經喝了兩罐了 - Cold beer? - No, I've already had a couple.
軍銜很高呀 中尉 厲害 Nice stripes, Lieutenant. Hot.
拜託 上尉 Oh, please -- Captain.
剛從預備部隊回來 Just got back from the Reserves.
我每個月能做一次真男人 You know what they say, once a month I get to play a real man.
最近沒怎麼健身嘛 Oh, haven't seen you at the gym lately.
布魯斯 Bruce?
-到你了 布魯斯 -到我幹嘛了 - Your turn, Bruce. - What? What?
布魯斯 拜託 別讓我們在沙灘上丟臉 親愛的 Brucey, please, don't embarrass our house at the beach, hon.
這下非去不可了 Uh-oh. Gotta do it.
奈德 你知道 俗語有云 You know what they say, Ned.
如果你無法戰勝他們 If you can't beat 'em...
那就加入他們 join 'em.
這就是我男人 That's my guy.
克雷格知道你沒興趣時難過死了 Craig was miserable when you weren't interested.
可他有羅伯特·雷福德呢 Now look. He's got Robert Redford.
果然老天有眼 Shows you there is a God.
-約翰怎麼樣 -約翰 - How's John? - John?
-約翰 -約翰 約翰啊 - John. - John? Oh, John.
不行 我現在跟格裏高利在一起呢 No, I'm with Gregory now.
慶祝在一起15個月整 We're celebrating our 15-month anniversary.
15個月 這對你來說可真是夠久的 米奇 15? That's a long time for you, Mickey.
拜託 雖說我們是戀人 而且還同居了 Oh, please, we're lovers and we live together.
但這不代表我們就要對彼此忠貞 It's not like we're faithful to each other, too.
他都不是猶太人 別告訴我的拉比 He's not even Jewish. Don't tell my rabbi.
天啊 My God.
威克斯 你遜爆了 Hey, Weeks, you suck.
你還跑這來幹嗎 Why do you even come here anymore?
我們不想見到你 We don't want you.
你在小說裏把我們寫得不堪入目 You made us look terrible in your novel.
你環顧一下四周 性是自由的 Look around you. Sex is liberating.
我只是說越是亂性就越難找到真愛 All I said was having so much sex makes finding love impossible.
你自己找不到對像 Do not put your failure to find someone
-別怪我們 -奈德 - on the rest of us. - Neddy!
天啊 Oh, jeez.
天啊 Oh, God.
夥計們 Guys!
發生什麼事了 Hey, what happened?
-你沒事吧 -我沒事 - You okay? - I'm okay.
只是有點頭暈眼花 Just got a little lightheaded.
我能站起來 沒事的 I got myself up. I'm fine.
只是有點頭暈 I just got a little dizzy.
他看起來沒事 He seemed okay.
祝你生日快樂 Happy birthday to you
祝你生日快樂 親愛的克雷格 Happy birthday, dear Craig
祝你生日快樂 Happy birthday to you.
-吹吧 -這可是他的拿手活 - Blow. - He's good at that.
我他媽的愛死這裏了 I fucking love this place!
當我們 When we're
在舞池裏翩翩起舞 On the dance floor
我能感覺到 And I feel
感覺到你的身體 And I feel your body
我知道 我的愛人 And I know my love,
讓我覺得 Make me feel
你令我覺得 You make me feel
奈德 奈德 Ned! Hey, Ned!
來吧 求你了 Come on. Please?
無比真實 Mighty real
你令我覺得 You make me feel
無比真實 Mighty real.
我以前在布利克街的法國公館 I sold you a ceramic pig once
賣過你一隻陶瓷豬 at Maison France on Bleecker Street.
我是桑福德 I'm Sanford.
對啊 我記得你 Yes, I remember.
你是我一個愛收藏豬的老朋友 Somebody I was friends with then collected pigs
你那裏的那只假豬 and you had the biggest pig I'd ever seen
是我見過最大的 outside a real pig.
這些玩意越長越大 They just keep getting bigger
永遠也好不了 and won't go away.
我是她的第二十例患者 I'm her 20th case.
其中有六名已經死了 And six of them are dead.
奈德 快到你了 Hey, Ned. Won't be a minute.
巴茲 沒想到你在這工作 Hey, Buzzy. I didn't know you worked here.
下一位是誰 Who are you?
我叫奈德·威克斯 Uh, Ned Weeks.
你在《時代》發表文章後我留過言 I spoke to you after the "Times" Article.
請進 把衣服脫掉 Come in. Take your clothes off.
我只是想來問幾個問題 I only came to ask some questions.
你是同志吧 You are gay, aren't you?
是 Yes.
把衣服脫了 不用緊張 Take your clothes off. Don't be nervous.
我見的男人比你多多了 I've seen more men than you have.
你的所有問題 我只能說不知道 To answer all of your questions, I don't know.
這種情況是我聞所未聞的 I've never seen or heard of anything like this.
你有過什麼癥狀嗎 Have you had any of the symptoms?
文章中提到的大部分破玩意吧 Most of the shit the "Times" said,
變形蟲 淋病 肝炎什麼的 amoebas, gonorrhea, hepatitis.
你是不知道性解放之後 You don't know what it's been like
人們都在做什麼 since the sexual revolution.
我怎麼不知道 What makes you think I don't?
有沒有發燒 盜汗 體重減輕 Any fever, night sweats, weight loss?
我倒想減重 都沒有 Don't I wish. No.
有沒有淤青 張嘴 And purple lesions? Open your mouth.
這是一種癌癥 It's a cancer.
是免疫系統一種奇怪的反應 There's a strange reaction in the immune system.
讓你的免疫系統崩潰 喪失抵抗能力 It's collapsed. Won't fight.
我的大部分患者出現的癥狀 So the diseases most of my patients are coming down with
都是由於細菌感染 are brought on by germs
可是病原菌弱得不能再弱 that wouldn't hurt a baby.
好難對付 Ticklish.
起碼這細菌在紐約很弱 At least not a baby in New York City anyway.
免疫系統是我們最不瞭解的系統 The immune system is the system we know the least about.
我聽說你是出名的大嘴巴 So where's this big mouth I hear you've got?
-大嘴巴也是癥狀嗎 -不 - Is big mouth a symptom? - No.
是治療手段 It's a cure.
這病好像只在同志圈裏有 This seems to only be happening to gay men.
巴茲說你在同志圈裏很有名氣 Buzzy says you are well-known in the gay community
暢所欲言 毫無畏懼 and not afraid to say what you think.
沒人來領導同志群體 I can't find any gay leaders
我也聯繫了同志組織 可是沒人回應 and I call gay organizations, no one ever calls me back.
布魯克納醫生 Dr. Brookner,
但凡有點腦子的人 no one with half a brain
都不會插手同志政治 gets involved with gay politics.
因為沒有批判的權利 There's no room for criticism.
你要批判什麼 What's your criticism?
我受夠了總是扮演受害者 I hate that we play victim
其實我們中的很多人 when many of us,
甚至大多數人 都不至如此 most of us, don't have to.
現在需要的就是你這樣的人 Then you're exactly what's needed now.
也許他們只是在等待 Maybe they're just waiting for
等待有人出來領導他們 someone to lead them.
我可不想當這個領導 I don't want to lead them.
你到底想讓我幹什麼 What exactly are you trying to get me to do?
告訴同志們別亂搞了 Tell gay men to stop having sex.
你覺得這種癌癥是通過性交傳染的嗎 Do you think that this cancer is sexually transmitted?
沒錯 我是這麼覺得 I think it is, yes.
我現在能不能證明 不能 Can I prove it yet? No.
你有沒有意識到 Do you realize that
你把矛頭指向了上百萬的人 you're talking about millions of men
他們都把亂交 who have singled out promiscuity
當成政治理想一般的存在 as their principal political agenda?
這你要怎麼處理 How do you deal with that?
告訴他們這樣有生命危險 Tell them they may die.
-在哪 -大廳 大廳 - Where? - Down the hall. Down the hall!
沒那麼簡單 複雜多了 It's not that simple. It's more complicated than that.
他們覺得性是自己的全部 They think sex is all they have.
威克斯先生 如果性交有生命危險 Mr. Weeks, if having sex can kill you,
是不是但凡有點腦子的人 doesn't anyone with half a brain
都不會亂搞了 stop fucking?
你可以走了 你沒有任何癥狀 You can go. I'm not finding what I'm looking for here.
-在哪裏 -開門 - Where? - Open up!
-在哪 在哪 -就在那屋 - Where? Where? - Right in that room.
把他抬到桌子上 Just put him up on the table.
就是這兒 測下脈搏 Up here. Let's find a pulse.
放輕鬆 寶貝 Baby, easy.
-平靜下來 -能告訴我發生了什麼嗎 - Be still. - Can you tell me what happened?
我們在外面等他 We were meeting him outside.
拐了個彎 他就倒了下來 We turned the corner and he just collapsed.
上帝啊 Jesus!
別他媽在街上瞎晃蕩 Hey, get the fuck out of the street!
親愛的 Baby!
-天啊 -來人 - Oh, my God! - Help!
-誰是他愛人 -我是 女士 - Who's the lover? - I am, ma'am.
-你叫什麼 -布魯斯·耐爾斯 - What's your name? - Bruce Niles.
我是布魯克納 馬上給我一間房 Brookner. I need a room immediately.
耐爾斯 你是萊因哈特的男朋友 Niles, you were Reinhardt's boyfriend.
是的 女士 你怎麼知道的 Yes, ma'am. How do you know that?
他三周前去世了 He died three weeks ago.
他們不讓我和他道別 Wouldn't even let me say goodbye.
都不讓我和他吻別 Not even let me kiss him goodbye.
他去世了 He's dead?
節哀 So sorry.
這病能這麼快致人死亡 It can happen this fast?
這不就是例子嗎 It just did.
我們得做點什麼 We have to do something.
別人不會關心的 No one else will.
我們該做什麼 What are we supposed to do?
你只考察了46個病例就做了猜想 You make these assumptions on the basis of 46 cases.
你們想知道我的想法 我就是這麼認為的 You wanted to know what I think. This is what I think.
你們會互相傳染 You are all going to infect each other.
現在只有少部分人染病 Now only a few of you have.
但不幸的是我們無法辨別是誰 Unfortunately, we can't tell yet which ones.
早在分離出肝炎病毒前 Long before we isolated the hepatitis viruses,
我們就知道了病癥 we knew about the diseases they caused
以及傳播途徑 and how they got around.
醫學期刊上的文章呢 紐約時報呢 Where are the medical journals? The "Times"?
我早在一年前就把報告寄給醫學雜誌了 I sent my first reports to the medical journals over a year ago.
不好意思 你怎麼知道你要找什麼 Excuse me, how do you know what you're looking for,
就一句 不知道找什麼的話從何找起呢 real quick, if you don't know what you're looking for?
不好意思 估計這問題有點蠢 I'm sorry, I guess that's a dumb question.
並非如此 這是最睿智的問題了 No, it isn't. It's the smartest question of all
也是最難回答的 and the hardest one to answer.
你們就不能稍微收斂一下嗎 Doesn't common sense tell you you should cool it for a while?
為什麼不呢 Why not?
那樣活著還有什麼勁 That doesn't leave much to look forward to.
要是最後你錯了怎麼辦 What if it turns out that you're wrong?
讓她說 Let her speak!
只是稍微收斂一下 The worst that could happen
有什麼大不了的 would be that you cooled it for a while.
不對 不好意思 No, excuse me. Excuse me.
不好意思 不是沒什麼大不了的 Excuse me. That is not the worst that will have happened.
大家會害怕做愛 Guys will become frightened of sex.
我們會失去我們為之 We will lose our self-respect
奮鬥許久的自尊 that we fought very, very hard for.
我們會成為最悲慘的替罪羊 We will be scapegoated worse than ever.
全世界都會認為我們是攜帶者 The world will think we're carriers
佔領道德高地的人更會大放厥詞 and the Moral Majority will have even more of a field day.
這坐輪椅的婊子不走我就不來了 I am not coming back until this bitch on wheels is gone.
等等 病人的數量越來越多 Wait! I see more cases each week than the week before.
一半的病人都死了 Half of all my patients die.
好了 趕緊總結一下 Okay, I hope she winds this up,
新羅謝爾還有幾個帥哥等著呢 'cause I've got a tiny little orgy in New Rochelle.
衛生部呢 市長呢 Where's the health department? Where's the mayor?
-閉嘴吧 約翰 -你閉嘴吧 親 - Shut the fuck up, John. - Oh, you shut the fuck up, hon.
人數有多少 What are the numbers?
每次同志聚會都這樣嗎 Is every gay meeting like this?
一半人來都是為了找人滾床單 Half these people just showed up to get laid.
安靜 安靜 Quiet! Quiet!
我們要成立一個小組 We're starting a group.
我們要成立一個健康危機處理小組 We're starting a health crisis group.
我們會再次在這裏開會 We're gonna meet here again.
下次 帶點吃的來 Next time, bring some fucking food.
這可不好 Hey, hey, hey. That's not nice.
這就是同志群體的政治 Welcome to gay politics.
我跟克雷格·克萊本 Yeah, I'm very late for
有個很重要的會 我遲到半天了 an important meeting with Craig Claiborne.
他正在等我 He's expecting me.
-你好 菲利克斯·特納 -你是 - Hi, Felix Turner. - And you are?
我叫奈德·威克斯 My name's Ned Weeks.
你好帥 You're very cute.
我現在很忙 明白嗎 You caught me at a rough moment, all right?
馬上就要交稿了 第一夫人來了 I have a deadline. The First Lady is coming to town.
我聽說你是同性戀 你也許可以 I've been told you're gay and you might be able
幫我在《紐約時報》上刊登些重要消息 to help me get some vital information in the "Times."
你聽說嗎 You've "been told"?
聽誰說的 And who was it that told you?
親愛的 誰不知道啊 Oh, honey, everybody's talking about it.
為什麼每個同志 Why does everyone gay
都以為《紐約時報》是我家的 think that I run "The New York Times"?
我幫不上忙 I can't help you with this.
深表同情 那我還能怎麼辦 Sorry to hear that. What would you suggest I do?
那是你的事 我還有23個黨派 Take your pick. I got 23 parties,
37家新餐館和12家新舞廳要寫 37 new restaurants, 12 new discos.
聽著 我跟好幾個記者談過了 Listen, I can't get anyone here to write another article.
沒人肯幫我寫 I've talked to half a dozen reporters
哪怕是之前寫過同志題材的 and the guy who worked on the first piece.
蘭德先生嗎 當然不會 Mr. Leather? Yeah, no.
這裏的每一個人都不會寫 包括我 No one here will write about it and I can't.
我們這裏有很明確的分工 Look, we're very compartmentalized.
寫科學欄目的不會寫羊毛衫 You wouldn't want science to write about sweaters, would you?
在這個異性戀主導的世界裏 It's a very peculiar feeling having to go out
為同志群體尋求幫助是非常微妙的 and seek support from a straight world for something gay.
我怎麼可能知道 I wouldn't know about that.
我一直在寫同性戀設計師 舞廳 I just write about gay designers and gay discos
廚師 模特 搖滾歌手 and gay chefs and gay models and gay rock stars
以及同性戀名人 所有關於同性戀的事 and gay celebrities and gay everything.
我只是不用同性戀這個詞 I just don't call them gay.
那你是不是該用這個詞了 Isn't it time you start?
我真的要交稿了 Look, I really do have a deadline,
我丟飯碗對你也沒好處 and you wouldn't want me to get fired.
讓讓可以嗎 Would you?
真是受不了你這種人 Guys like you give me a pain in the ass.
-你是寫書的吧 -是的 - You in the book? - Yes.
大夥兒 幫幫同性戀癌癥患者吧 Hi, guys. Give to gay cancer?
捐點錢吧 可以嗎 Hi, give to gay cancer? No?
捐點錢吧 Hi. Give to gay cancer?
先生 Hi, sir.
捐點錢吧 同性戀團體需要您的幫忙 Hi, give to gay cancer? There's a cancer in the gay community.
捐點錢吧 Can you give to gay cancer?
我們的團體如今處於水深火熱中 There's a... there's a crisis in our community right now.
我們急需 We could really use...
我們急需幫助 一分錢也行 We could use a little help. Anything? No?
我覺得你可以溫和點 I think you could be a little less aggressive.
溫和點 我們之前就是太溫和了 Less aggressive? We've tried that.
能為我們的團體捐點錢嗎 Can you give to cancer in our community?
捐點錢吧 Hi, give to gay cancer?
願意捐個款嗎 Hi, give to gay cancer?
有趣的是 我媽媽還送了花 It's funny. My mother sent flowers.
我沒跟她說過我是同性戀 And I had never told her I was gay.
我只說克雷格去世了 I just told her that Craig had died.
我覺得她知道 I think she knew.
媽媽們總是知道 I think somehow mothers always know.
花五百萬買棟房子 嚇死你了吧 Doesn't spending $5 million on a house frighten you?
讓你為我理財才嚇死我了 Scared the shit out of me even having you handling my finances.
你什麼時候想要房子都可以 You can have a house anytime you want.
這倒提醒了我 你需要更多的錢 Which reminds me, your account needs more money.
你幹得還不錯 You're not doing too badly.
很懷念你干電影這一行 I miss you being in the movie business.
-我喜歡電影 -老是諷刺我的大哥 - I like movies. - Do I detect a note of approval
終於肯表揚我了嗎 from the big brother that called me "Lemon"?
我不想要房子 I don't want a house.
那你為什麼在鄉下找了那麼久房子 Then why have you been searching in the country for so long for?
-我不想一個人住 -布魯斯 - No fun living in it alone. - This Bruce...
是你男朋友嗎 is he someone you're seeing?
我對他有意思 他對我無感 I see him, he doesn't see me.
本 Ben...
你們公司能無償幫忙嗎 could your law firm take this on for free?
為公益出一份力 What's it called? Pro bono?
我們為一種新疾病成立了一個組織 We started an organization, I told you there's this new disease.
是不是你不想寫書 找的新借口啊 Now this sounds like just another excuse to keep from writing.
你就不能答應我嗎 Why can't you just say "Yes"?
我告訴過你 這些事 I told you, because we have a committee
要由委員會來決定 that decides that kind of thing.
但你是資深合夥人 But you're the senior partner
而我是你弟弟 and I'm your brother.
你好 馬裏奧 荷馬還好嗎 Hey, Mario. How's Homer?
如果你不幫忙 我得找別人了 If you're not gonna help, I'm gonna have to find somebody else.
你大可去找別人幫忙 Well, you're more than free to do that.
我不想弄到這種地步 I don't want to do that.
我希望我出色的哥哥 I want my big brother's fancy, famous,
一流的大牌律師事務所 big-time, major law firm
成為第一家為同性戀 to be the first straight New York law firm
提供無償服務的紐約律師事務所 to do pro bono work for a gay cause.
我會為你驕傲的 I'd be real proud of that and you.
下次開會我去徵求合夥人的意見 I'll ask my partners' approval at the next meeting.
我來遊說 你好像沒什麼把握 I'll lobby them. You don't sound like a very sure vote.
好吧 Okay.
你的表現越來越好了 You're getting better at it.
我每周會有三到四名新患者 I'm seeing three to four new patients a week.
重癥病房裏有七名 I've got seven in ICU.
整個醫院只能容納三十名患者 The whole hospital only has room for 30.
我不得不以其他病因收治病人 I've had to admit some of them under other illnesses.
已經違反原則了 That's a no-no.
有二十個人住在私人病房 付不起錢 I've got 20 in private rooms they can't afford.
好吧 那些沒有醫療保險的人怎麼辦... Okay, what about the guys who don't have health insurance...
-藝術家 演員 -我讓他們住在了 - Artists, actors? - I've got eight of them in another ward
他們不該住的另一間病房 where I shouldn't put them.
你為什麼不戴手套和面罩 Why don't you wear gloves and a face mask?
我從沒戴過 以後也不會戴 I never have and I never will.
但我還活著 And I'm still here.
為什麼食物都像這樣放在房間外面 Why is all the food sitting outside their rooms like this?
-都要涼了 -每次都是涼的 - It's getting cold. - It's always cold
因為工作人員不肯送進去 because the appropriate staff won't bring it into the rooms,
沒人肯送 就只好爛在這裏 so it sits and rots until one of my staff can.
就從那穿過去 Right through there.
就是那 對 在水邊 Right there. Yeah, by the water.
隧道就在那 The tunnel is there.
對 穿過隧道 Yeah, right through the tunnel.
從隧道走 我們要把書拿回去 Take the tunnel. We'll take the book back.
我認識他 我能跟你進去嗎 I know him. Can I go inside with you?
你得戴上護具 Only if you wear all the protective shit.
你不戴我也不戴 If you don't, I don't.
就在那 走另一條路 Over there. Go the other way.
不 你在聽我說嗎 No, are you listening to me?
你在聽我說嗎 倒回去 Are you listening to me? Go back.
-桑福德 -你看到了嗎 從隧道走 - Hi, Sanford. - You see that? Take the tunnel.
往前走 直接開過去 Go ahead, drive straight through.
你怎麼樣 小勇士 How we doing, soldier?
我想要我的狗 你能把它帶來嗎 I want my dog. Can you please bring me my dog?
它離了我可活不下去 He won't be able to live without me.
我要我的狗 我要我的狗 I want my dog. I want my dog.
往前走 這就對了 Go ahead. That's right.
很好 很好 不 把書拿回來 Oh, good. Good. No. Take the book back.
就在那 使勁拉 Right there. Pull hard.
就在那 Right there.
你能把我的狗帶來嗎 Can you please bring me my dog?
它離了我可活不了 He won't know how to live without me.
別費勁了 Don't bother.
誰能把我的狗帶來 Who's going to bring me my dog?
它叫跳跳 你叫它它就會過來 His name is Skip. He'll come when you call him.
拜託了 Please.
我很想它 I miss him.
才十九歲 卻變成這樣 Can you imagine this at 19?
剛遇到愛人 打算共度一生 Your first boyfriend you were gonna spend your whole life with.
-不好意思 -怎麼了 - Excuse me. - Yeah.
你是修電視的人嗎 You're the TV guy?
請去修一下407病房的電視 Please go to room 407 and fix it.
-我不會去的 -去修 那他媽是你的工作 - No, I'm not gonna do that. - Fix the TV. It's your fucking job.
工會說 不能為了有傳染病的基佬 My union says I don't gotta risk my life
把自己的命搭上 for some contagious fairy.
我必須進去嗎 那我辭職 If I have to go in there, then I fucking quit.
你們的組織出力了嗎 So what exactly has your side been doing?
謝謝 Thanks.
想來點這個嗎 還是啤酒 Want some of this? A beer?
啤酒吧 多謝 Oh, beer's fine. Thanks.
狗狗你好呀 Oh, hey, pooch.
-它叫薩姆 -你好 薩姆 - Her name's Sam. - Hi, Sam.
我以前真的很喜歡高科技 You know, I really used to like high-tech,
但我現在已經厭倦了 but I'm tired of it now.
我真希望印花棉布能夠回歸 I think I want chintz back again.
無意冒犯 Don't be insulted.
沒事 I'm not.
我也希望現在還有印花棉布 I want chintz back again, too.
就是這樣了 So, here we are.
兩個希望印花棉布重新回歸的傢伙 Two fellows who want chintz back again.
我猜這真的是個約會 I guess this really is a date.
我餓死了 I'm starving.
我來了你高興嗎 You glad I'm here?
高興瘋了 I'm pleased as punch you're here.
你長那麼好看 何苦來這呢 You're very good-looking. What are you doing here?
你覺得自己長得不好看嗎 You think you're bad-looking or something?
你是哪裏人 Where you from?
俄克拉荷馬 I'm from Oklahoma.
我十八歲離家 供自己... I left home at 18, put myself through--
怎麼 你想跳舞嗎 What, you wanna dance?
供自己讀完大學 Put myself through college.
我爸爸在西塔爾薩的精煉廠工作 My dad worked at the refinery in West Tulsa
媽媽是服務員 and my mom was a waitress.
在沃爾格林裏開過小吃店 Had a luncheonette in Walgreens.
多了不起啊 一個小孩走出鄉下 It's amazing, isn't it? How a kid comes out of all that
在《紐約時報》揚名立萬 and wind up on the "Times",
左右著世界的品味和風格 dictating taste and style to the entire world.
你又不會好好說話了 And we were just starting to talk so nicely.
我說的話沒有問題 Talking's not my problem.
只是不知道何時閉嘴 Shutting up's my problem.
你為什麼總是寫華而不實的舞會禮服 Why do you write all that fancy ball gown bullshit?
我打賭你每天還是會看 I bet you gobble it up every day.
死去的人裏 我認識十個 I know 10 people who have died.
我找你的時候 才一個 When I came to you, it was only one.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
所以你才答應這次約會的嗎 Is that why you agreed to this date?
左手拿叉 Fork on the left.
右手拿刀 Knife on the right.
你知道希特勒除掉波蘭猶太人的 Did you know that Hitler's Final Solution
屠殺方案是最先在 to eliminate the Polish Jews
《紐約時報》第二十八版披露的嗎 was first mentioned in the "Times"? It was on page 28.
還有《華盛頓郵報》的第六版 On page 6 of the "Washington Post."
都是猶太人經營的報紙 他們自己的族人 They are both owned by Jews. Their very own people.
學者們終於寫出了 Scholars are finally writing
真實情況 卻不受待見 honestly about it and it's damning to everyone.
基督教會 教皇 丘吉爾和羅斯福去哪了 Where is the Christian churches? The Pope? Churchill? Roosevelt?
他們隨便說句話都能讓大家警惕希特勒 A few words from any of them would have put Hitler on notice.
達豪集中營1933年建成 大家都他媽在哪 Dachau was open in 1933. Where the fuck was everybody?
今晚的氣氛真是浪漫 This is turning out to be a very romantic evening.
你從來沒有過愛人 是嗎 You've never had a lover, have you?
我猜你愛人不少 I suppose you've had quite a few.
我有過一個非常好的 I had a very good one.
交往了很多年 謝謝誇獎 For a number of years, thank you.
他年紀比我大 又找了更年輕的 He was older than I was and he found someone younger.
你想找父親型的嗎 You looking for a father?
不 我不想找父親型的 天吶 No, I'm not looking for a father. God.
你嘴真毒 You're relentless.
好吧 Okay.
那是你的 That's yours.
大家都有無數的理由置身事外 Everybody had a million reasons for not getting involved.
美國猶太人分明知道在發生什麼 The American Jews knew exactly what was going on.
想一想 所有猶太人 Could you imagine if every
一起向華盛頓進發是什麼樣 Jew had marched on Washington proudly, huh?
奈德 Ned.
你不記得我了 是嗎 You don't remember me, do you?
是幾年前在一間浴室 It was at the baths a few years ago.
探尋"男人國度" 發現我們的實力 Come to Man's Country, see what we're all about
和呈現給您的一切 and what we have to offer.
"男人國度"是設施齊全 功能多樣 Man's Country is a full facility, multileveled complex
為滿足各色需求而設的場所 that was designed to feature something for everyone.
來"男人國度"健美塑身 Come to Man's Country to develop your body...
或塑造與他人的友誼 or a friendship with somebody else's.
踏進我們 您便會欲罷不能 Visit us once and you'll come again and again.
你看我的樣子 讓我覺得 You would've thought I was applying for the CIA
是中情局在考察我 the way you looked at me.
然後怎麼了 And then what happened?
我跟著你進了隔間 I followed you into your room.
你連眼睛都不睜開 You couldn't even open your eyes.
跟我說你的真名是亞歷山大 You told me your real name was Alexander.
我問你是做什麼的 你說自己 I asked what you did and you said something like
"試過不少事情" 然後... you "tried a number of things" and...
我問你試過愛別人嗎 I asked if that had included love.
你回我說 That's when you said,
"我明早還要早起" "I have to get up early in the morning."
人心裏都是有愛的 Men do not naturally not love.
除非後天磨滅掉 They learn not to.
你覺得你是虛張聲勢 I think you're a bluffer.
我怎麼會不記得你 How could I not remember you?
不知道 I don't know.
當時挺暗的 It was very dark.
你覺著我們能重新來過嗎 Do you think we could start over?
我上耶魯時 以為我是裏面唯一的同志 When I was going to Yale, I thought I was the only gay guy there.
不騙你 Swear to God.
去看心理醫生 他還試圖改變我 Went to the shrink who tried to change me.
現在學校裏都有"同志周"了 Now they have "Gay Weeks" there
辦的舞會是全校最棒的 and they throw the best dances of anyone.
試想一下 你能和你男朋友 Imagine being able to dance cheek to cheek
在美好的大學時光裏相擁共舞 with your boyfriend during your bright college days.
你和女人睡過嗎 Did you ever sleep with a woman?
怎麼 What?
她叫黛利拉 Her name was... Delilah.
黛利拉 Delilah?
她是 She was...
是我寫的一部電影裏的替身演員 a stand-in on this movie I wrote.
她人很好也很漂亮 She was very nice and pretty.
總是衝我笑 Always smiling at me.
我就去問我的一個直男朋友這是什麼意思 So I-- I asked a straight friend to explain it to me.
其實我知道 就是想確認下 I thought I knew, but I just wanted to make sure.
我就帶她去吃晚餐 And I had her to dinner and...
之後 我就在我認為合適的時間 afterwards, what I deemed to be a suitable moment
因為我一直在跟"下面"溝通 because I had been communicating with it down there--
"你準備好了嗎 你真的真的準備好了嗎" "Are you ready? Are you absolutely certain you're ready?"
等到下面的小哥準備好了 And when it appeared "Abercrombie" was ready.
我抱起她 像白瑞德抱斯嘉麗[亂世佳人]一樣 I picked her up, very Rhett Butler,
輕輕放到床上 and carried her to my bed,
但我卻硬不起來了 where I couldn't get it up.
-但是 -這點我感同身受 - But-- - I can certainly relate to that.
大半夜裏 In the middle of the night,
我醒來 下面硬的生猛 I woke up with this gigantic erection,
天知道怎麼搞的 God-- God knows how.
所以我把她搖醒了 大喊 So I shake her, shouting,
快幫我插進去 黛利拉 "Please stick it in for me, Delilah."
我當時特別擔心 I was afraid of it going away before I could-- -
看到關鍵部位會軟 while I was hunting for the right place to put it.
她高潮了 我也高潮了 小哥也是 She did and I did, and Abercrombie did.
第二天早上我醒來 The next morning I woke up
想起那個神神叨叨 and I, who had been under the spell of this shrink
一心改變我的心理醫生 who was determined to change me,
我就衝到他辦公室 rushed into his office.
我這個從七年級 And I, who had been fucking with fellows
就跟小夥伴亂搞的人 since the 7th grade,
在三十二歲時歇斯底里地宣佈 hysterically, at the age of 32 proclaimed,
"吉萊斯醫生 我破處了" "Dr. Gillespie, I'm no longer a virgin!"
他在這 我們能碰上他 He's in here. I think we'll catch him.
好吧 All right.
我就直接走上前打招呼嗎 So, I just go over and say hello?
我說是我邀請你來的 耶魯的同學 I told him I invited you and we went to Yale together.
這是我的告別派對 他能怎麼做 It's my farewell party. What's he gonna do?
走吧 Let's go.
市長先生想叫你們滾蛋 His Honor would like you to get lost.
這是我朋友 奈德·威克斯 This is my friend, Ned Weeks.
我們知道他是誰 Yeah, we know who he is.
市長先生 我們需要你的幫助 Mr. Mayor! We need your help!
現在有一種新型疾病 你一定有所耳聞 There's this new disease. You must have heard about it.
我們迫切需要你的幫助 放手 蠢豬 We need your help badly! Get off me, you pigs!
這裏是美國 This is America!
市長先生 我們在垂死掙扎 Mr. Mayor! We're dying!
這是奈德寫給我們要寄出去的 Okay, this is what Ned wrote for us to send out.
"我受夠了整天絮叨我們不要放縱 "I am sick of guys moaning that giving up careless sex..."
小心丟了性命的人 "...until this blows over is worse than death.
我受夠了只關心自己下半身的人 I am sick of guys that can only think with their cocks.
我受夠了不肯出櫃的同志 I am sick of closeted gays.
都1982年了 同志們 It's 1982 now, guys,
你什麼時候出櫃 你能活到1983年嗎" when are you gonna come out? By 1983 you could be dead."
你瘋了 You're crazy.
是嗎 布魯斯 你真這麼覺得 Am I, Bruce? Do you really think so?
-我們今晚不是要選出主席嗎 -是的 - Aren't we supposed to elect a president tonight? - Yes.
別人的生活我們無權干預 奈德 We can't tell people how to live their lives, Ned.
同志的政治就是做愛 The entire gay political movement is fucking.
其實呢 我想給病人們 You know, I'm very interested in
提供一些特殊服務 starting up some sort of services for the patients.
我們一定得談談這個 We've gotta start talking about them.
外面還有很多人驚慌失措 Also, there are a lot of very scared people out there
急切地想要更多信息 and they're desperate for information.
我想建立熱線電話 I'd like to start a hotline.
他是誰 Who's he?
他還不知道我是誰 He does not know who I am yet.
他叫湯米·博特萊特 His name is Tommy Boatwright.
日常生活中 他是醫院院務主任 In real life, he is a hospital administrator.
他是來幫忙的 還是個南方的浪蕩帥哥 Uh... he's here to help and he's a Southern bitch.
博特萊特先生 布魯斯·耐爾斯 Mr. Boatwright, Bruce Niles.
-很高興認識你 -我的榮幸 - Nice to meet you. - My pleasure.
你可真帥 You're very handsome.
-他清楚得很 -確實很帥 - He knows. - Yes, well he is.
這是什麼鬼 The fuck is this?
這是你的主意嗎 奈德 Was this your idea, Ned?
我在看 哪裏有問題嗎 I'm looking. What am I not seeing?
-仔細看 -寄信人地址是怎麼寫的 - Keep looking. - What we put for our return address.
你是指信封上有"同志"這個詞嗎 Do you mean because the word "Gay" is on the envelope?
完全正確 不寫名字只寫同志 Fucking A, yes. Instead of just our initials.
-不能寄出去 -拜託 - We can't send these out. - Excuse me.
要是還想有人來參加舞會 If we want anybody to show up for this dance,
今晚必須把這些信寄出去 we have to get these out tonight.
我們得全部檢查一邊 We need to go through and
用馬克筆把"同志"這個詞劃去 scratch out the word "Gay" With a Magic Marker.
親愛的 要劃上一萬次嗎 Oh, honey, 10,000 times?
布魯斯 如果是寄給跟父母一起 Bruce, I have sympathy for kids living at home
住在長島的人是有些麻煩 on Long Island with their parents, but--
但我們的收信人 比如你 but the guys who are getting these... look at you.
你獨居在家 有自己的公寓 You live at home-- you live alone, you own your own apartment,
你媽媽住在另一個州 your mother lives in another state.
那我的郵遞員呢 Okay, what about my mailman?
你不是認真的吧 You don't expect me to take you seriously.
-我很認真 奈德 -姑娘們注意言辭 - Yes, I do, Ned. - Okay, ladies, behave.
已經很晚了 我們還沒選出主席 Look, it's getting late and we still haven't elected a president.
奈德 Neddy...
我覺得應該選布魯斯 I think that it should be Bruce.
大家都認識他 喜歡他 所有人... Everybody knows him everybody likes him - and everybody--
因為他更受歡迎 而大家都怕我嗎 'Cause he's popular and everybody's afraid of me?
沒錯 Yes!
瞧瞧他 他光彩照人 I mean, look at him. He's-- he's gorgeous
住在克裏斯多福街和法爾島的同志們 and all the kids in Christopher Street and Fire Island,
他們會更心甘情願地 they'll just-- they'll feel a little bit more comfortable
追隨他 following him.
-就像高中時那樣 -沒錯 - Just like high school. - Yes!
贊成布魯斯·耐爾斯 All right, all those in favor of Bruce Niles
擔任首屆主席的人請舉手 as our first president, raise their hands.
我還沒想好當不當 I don't think I want this.
得了吧 你那麼帥 誰不願意跟你呢 Oh, come on. You're gorgeous and we're all gonna follow you.
-操你 我干了 -操你 恭喜 - Fuck you, I accept. - Well, fuck you, congratulations.
菲利克斯 我們搬去遠方吧 Felix... let's move somewhere far away,
只有你我 一起待在荒島上 just the two of us, together on a desert island.
你正在做的事情可一分一秒都不能停 Don't you dare stop for one single second what you're doing.
《紐約時報》不作為 I appreciate you not yelling at me
我也沒有更積極地參與 about what the "Times" isn't doing
很感謝你沒對我發脾氣 and my not being more political.
你怎麼不生氣呢 Why don't you?
能有個人只講雪月 不談政治 也是種放鬆 It's a relief not having to have to talk politics with someone,
但不是因為這個 but that's not the reason.
不是嗎 No?
因為你太美好了 It's because you're too good to be true,
我等你等了這麼久 because I've been waiting for a lover like you my whole life,
才能跟你在一起 you haven't showed up until now,
我害怕得不得了 and I'm scared shitless
生怕自己搞砸了 that I'm gonna do something to fuck it up.
-我瘋了嗎 -當然 - Am I crazy? - Of course.
我就喜歡這樣 That's why I'm here.
終於暖和起來了 Now we gettin' warm.
我看起來還好嗎 Did I look okay?
能看出來我是用化妝品在遮嗎 Could you tell I was wearing all this makeup?
你看起來很好 You looked great.
你得去見見艾瑪 You have got to go see Emma.
能別提這檔子事嗎 Can we just forget about this?
我很好 I'm all right.
就算不好我也寧可自欺欺人 否則沒人會雇我 And if I'm not, I don't wanna know because no one will hire me,
如果我丟掉了工作 就只能等死了 and if I can't work, I'd just as soon be dead.
我的體重沒有降低 I haven't lost any weight.
我還能遮住 I can still cover it up.
-我說了別告訴他 -對不起 - I told you not to tell him. - Sorry.
已經害怕親吻我了嗎 Already afraid to kiss me?
不是這樣的 That's not true.
沒關係 我也不敢讓你吻我 It's okay. I'm afraid to let you.
我愛你 I love you.
我送他下樓 I'll walk him down.
他是我的第三個伴侶 Okay, he's the third guy I've been with.
萊因哈特 克雷格 如果艾伯特得病 Reinhardt, Craig, and I don't know what I'll do
我真不知道怎麼辦 if Albert has this.
你得去戰鬥 You're gonna fight.
我們要一起戰鬥 We'll fight together.
你是我最好的朋友 奈德·威克斯 You're my best friend, Ned Weeks.
你是我最好的朋友 我從未遇見過你這樣的人 You're my best friend and I've never met anyone like you before.
什麼叫我這樣的人 What do you mean, like me?
你這樣 就是說... Like you, meaning...
我出生長大的地方 where I'm from, I-- I mean--
我參軍前 都沒見過猶太人 I didn't even see a Jew until I was in the Army,
更別說這樣一個 let alone a man that was
機智 風趣 smart, funny...
外表出眾的男人 decently good-looking.
我的朋友都不跟我出去玩 My friends stopped hanging out with me
因為他們說我讓他們感到壓抑 because they say I depress them.
壓抑就壓抑吧 So be it.
而你... And you...
你看起來不像那種猶太人 you don't look that Jewish.
你看起來也不像同性戀 Well, you don't look gay,
不過我們總歸還都是白人 so I guess we can both pass for white people.
我愛艾伯特 I love Albert.
布魯斯 看著我 Bruce, look at me.
我愛他 I love him.
艾伯特會挺過去的 Albert's gonna make it.
如果不能呢 What if he doesn't?
我送你回家吧 Let's get you home.
-我真是一團糟 -是啊 - I'm a mess. - Yeah.
真是優雅 Classy moment.
-我沒事 -好 - I'm all right. - Okay.
我一直想在浴房抱著你 When I finally get you where I want you,
現在得償所願了 I don't want you anymore.
布魯斯 我也陷入愛河了 Hey, Bruce, I'm in love too.
我操 Holy shit!
全是同志啊 Queen control.
希望夢想成真時 就真的實現了 Really works when it wants to.
菲利克斯 這是迪克·隆巴 Oh, hey, Felix. This is Dick Lombardo.
-你好 -終於來了一位 - Hi. - Finally got us someone on our board
會跳迪斯科的董事了 who isn't a disco dummy.
就今晚會跳 Well... maybe tonight.
-一會見 -很高興見到你 - I'll see ya. - Nice to meet ya.
走吧 Come on.
很高興今晚各位的加入 We are all so happy you joined us tonight!
我們證明了我們不止有外表 We are proving that we are more than just looks,
頭腦 天賦和內心情感 brains, talent and heart.
我們比城裏任何男同組織 Together we raised more than
籌集的資金都要多 any gay group ever in this city.
我想為大家介紹奈德·威克斯先生 And I wanna call over Mr. Ned Weeks.
別害羞 Don't be shy.
我們做到了 We did it!
現在來揭曉 我們一共籌集了多少錢 We will now reveal just how much we raised together.
倒數 三 二 一 In three, two, one...
53,000美元 $53,000!
男同健康危機組織的成員 快上台 Gay Men's Health Crisis, come on up.
菲利克斯 親愛的 上台來 快上來 Felix, honey, come on up, please. Come up.
我愛你 I love you.
舞動起來 Let's dance!
某天他將到來 Someday he'll come along
那個我愛的男人 The man I love
他強壯又高大 And he'll be big and strong
那個我愛的男人 The man I love
當他向我走來 And when he comes my way
我會盡我所能 I'll do my best
讓他留下 To make him stay
他注視著我 朝我微笑 He'll look at me and smile
我就心領神會 I'll understand
不久之後 And in a little while
他會牽起我的手 He'll take my hand
儘管看似荒誕 And though it seems absurd
彼此相視無語 I know we both won't say a word
或許我會在週日遇見他 Maybe I shall meet him in Sunday
或許是週一 Maybe Monday
又或許無法遇見 Maybe not
我仍然相信我會遇見他 Still I'm sure to meet him one day
或許週二 Maybe Tuesday
是我的幸運日 Will be my good news day
想像一下如果我們年輕時 擁有此刻的場景 Imagine if we had this when we were young.
無畏無懼 無所遺憾 No fear, no shame.
這些年我的夢裏都是你 All I was imagining all those years was you.
他會建起一個小家 He'll build a little home
只為兩人存在 Just meant for two
從此我不再流浪 From which I'd never roam
他會是誰 是你嗎 Who would, would you
以上的一切 And so all else above
I'm waiting for the man I love
菲利克斯·特納 跟我一起生活好嗎 Felix Turner, would you like to move in with me?
好 Yes.
好 Yes?
-好嗎 -好 - Yes? - Yes!
太好了 Yes! Yes!
無論何時 And so all else above...
我都在等著我愛的 I'm waiting for the man
男人 I love
"這就像身上的定時炸彈 "We are all walking time bombs
不知道什麼時候會爆炸" waiting for whatever it is to set us off."
撐住 我們快到了 C'mon, we're almost there.
"若這篇文章不能使你們警覺 "If this article doesn't scare the shit out of you,
地球以後將不會再有同志的身影 gay men may have no future here on Earth.
我們能否繼續生存就看你們有多憤怒" Our continued existence depends on just how angry you can get."
-四個急診室都不肯收我們 -進來 - They turned us away from four emergency rooms. - Come in!
我覺得他失去意識了 I think he's lost his mind.
奈德 我能帶他去哪 Ned, where can I take him?
把他放在沙發上 我找艾瑪 Put him on the couch there. I'll call Emma.
-該死的 -我弄點水 - God damn it! - I'll get some water.
他這樣多久了 How long has he been like this?
幾個小時了 A couple hours.
我很高興你問我這個問題 Well, I'm glad you asked me that question.
我怎麼看 我知道政府 What do I think? I know that the government
有意忽視這個傳染病 is intentionally ignoring this epidemic.
你在指責美國政府 You're accusing the government of the United States
蓄意謀殺所有同志嗎 of a conspiracy to murder all gay men?
是的 就是這麼回事 Yes. Yes, you can say that.
是 薩拉伯斯 我是 Yes, Sarabeth, I am. Yes.
這是很嚴重的指責 That is a powerful accusation.
這是傳染病 而美國政府 This is an epidemic and it's being ignored
卻忽視了它 by the United States government.
-有意的嗎 -有意忽視 - Intentionally? - Intentionally being ignored.
這是全國範圍的危機 This is a national emergency.
這是傳染病 是瘟疫 This is an epidemic. It's a plague.
你不能在國家電視台 You can't go on national TV
指責政府謀殺 奈德 and accuse the government of murder, Ned.
為什麼不能 Why not?
因為要靠他們撥款 批准科研項目 Because one day we're gonna get money, research grants.
國會尚未撥出一分錢 Congress still hasn't appropriated a dime.
市長還在說啊說 The mayor's still... on and on!
奈德 對外 Ned, when you go public,
你沒有權利代表組織說話 you have no right to speak for this organization
除非事先得到我們的同意 unless we have approved what you have to say in advance.
說到這 其實呢 You know, in point of fact,
你都不屬於這個組織 you aren't even an officer of this organization
你根本不該代表我們說話 and you shouldn't be speaking for us at all.
感謝你告訴我這個 迪克 Well, thank you for sharing that with me, Dick.
你為什麼覺得面對這次危機 Why do you think the city has been so slow
紐約遲遲不肯接受和應對 to acknowledge and deal with this emergency?
你這麼說 好像紐約已經意識到了 Well, you're implying that the city has recognized
可是馬爾科姆 不是這樣 and acknowledged this emergency, Malcolm. It has not.
你為什麼認為沒有 Why not, do you think?
因為市長是同志 他已經 Because the mayor's gay and he's scared shitless
嚇得屁滾尿流 怕自己暴露 out of his panties it'll blow his cover.
-怎麼了 -關掉 關掉 - What? - Take it off, get it off.
我們還錄嗎 Are we still rolling?
我在表達自己的看法 你別插嘴 You can't tell me what to say when I'm speaking for myself.
扯淡 他們都知道你是我們的一員 Bullshit. They all know you're one of us.
把自認為不是同志的人 It is totally and politically incorrect
稱作同志 是政治不正確的 to call someone gay who does not self-identify as being gay.
我當然明白這點 I know it's been that way forever,
可是現在情況不一樣 我們快死了 but something different is going on here now. We're dying.
市長是你的私人朋友 The mayor, he's a personal friend of yours.
你要他委派給你法官 You want him to appoint you a judge.
跟這裏的事有利益衝突嗎 Do you have a little conflict of interest going on here?
-我說了 我給他留了便條 -什麼時候 - I told you I sent him a memo. - When?
-通過某些渠道 -什麼時候 - Through channels. - When?
-他會回復我的 -什麼時候 - He'll answer me. - When?!
這個月發生了110宗病例 There's 110 new cases this month!
還是沒見到我們的同志市長 Still no meeting with our gay mayor.
沒見到他的同志助手 No meeting with his gay assistant.
怎麼了 布魯斯 我讓你尷尬了嗎 What? Do I embarrass you, Bruce?
是的 沒錯 Yes. You do.
寶貝 以善待人結果總會好一點 You get more with honey than with vinegar, babe.
湯米 還真沒人跟我說過呢 God, no one's told me that one, Tommy.
可不是嗎 No, obviously, they haven't.
反正我不信 I never believed that bullshit, anyway.
我們一直在想辦法幫助病患 We are in over our heads with the patients we're trying to help.
湯米 你能不能大聲念出這份報告給奈德聽 Tommy, will you please read this report out loud for Ned?
我們已經訓練了25位危機顧問 We have trained 25 crisis counselors
去幫助最新確診的患者 to help the newly diagnosed
滿足他們的所有需求 in whatever needs that they might have.
我們有12個組長每周至少與顧問見面一次 We have 12 group leaders who meet with these counselors
來查看他們所照顧的病人的情況 at least once a week to go over their clients.
有17個心理學家和/或精神病學家 There are now 17 volunteer social workers,
作為志願社工 psychologists and/or psychiatrists.
我們幫助起草了75份遺囑... We helped draw up 75 wills last--
75份 布魯斯 75, Bruce!
你以前可是鬥士 You used to be a fighter once.
-你喜歡待在特種部隊裏面嗎 -我喜歡 - Did you like being in the Green Berets? - Yes. I loved it.
你已經不會抗爭了嗎 Have you completely forgotten how to fight?
輪不到你教我 咱倆方式不同而已 Don't tell me how to fight. I just fight differently than you.
-你哪裏抗爭了 -沒有嗎 - I haven't seen your way yet. - No?
布魯斯 艾伯特可能要死了 Bruce... Albert may be dying.
你個王八蛋 不許拿他說事兒 You son of a bitch! You say another word about him!
放輕鬆 Relax.
還有你 And you.
你沒資格在這裏 You have no right being on this board
除非你給你的市長朋友施壓 unless you put pressure on your friend the mayor.
我們一開始讓你來 That's why I asked you to
就是為了這個 你心裏清楚 join us in the first place and you know it.
-不 我不做 -為什麼 - No, no, I'm not gonna do that. - Why not?
不行 我的律師所免費給你提供法律支持 No, you got your free legal work from my firm.
我不要加入你們 I'm not gonna be on your board of directors.
只是為了面上好看 你什麼都不用做 It's only for the stationery. You don't have to do a thing.
你在找托詞 That is just an evasion.
如果你把它想成是直男的病 If you thought this was a straight disease-- -
不 這跟你是同性戀沒關係 Nah, it's got nothing to do with you being gay.
那跟什麼有關係 What else does it have to do with?
總有一天 我會讓你同意 One of these days, I'm gonna get you to agree
這個國家裏超過兩千萬的男女 that over 20 million men and women in this country
不需要接受心理治療 don't require the services of a psychiatrist.
我在試著理解 Look, try to understand.
我會看文章 看電視 You know, I read stuff, I see TV.
緊身衣 鏈條 Guys in leather and chains.
裙子 高跟鞋 Dresses, high heels.
我對自己說"這不是奈德" I say to myself, "This isn't Ned."
媒體就愛這麼誇張 You know the media always dramatizes the most extreme.
你們的形象太糟了 You guys have a dreadful image problem.
所以我們需要你 That's why it's so important
來支持我們 to have people like you supporting us.
你多體面啊 You already have your dignity.
我們得趕快去吃午飯了 還有個重要的會 We better get to lunch. I've got an important meeting.
是嗎 有多重要 Do you? How important?
我在請求你的支持 I'm asking for your support.
所有我認為重要的方面 我都支持你 In every area I consider important, you have my support.
我只覺得一件事重要 The only area that I consider important
你卻沒支持我 I don't have your support at all.
在你的內心深處 In some place deep down inside you,
你還是覺得我病了 對吧 you still think I'm sick, don't you?
我覺得你過得還不錯 I think you've adjusted to life pretty well.
-整體來看而已 -我以前看到了你有多不幸福 - All things considered. - I saw how unhappy you were.
你也一樣 So were you!
你也去看心理醫生了 我們從小一起長大 You wound up going to shrinks, too. We grew up side by side.
我們對爸爸媽媽一樣有意見 We both felt the same about Mom and Pop.
我同意 I'll agree to the fact that
我是有很多性格缺陷 I have any number of awful character traits,
但我絕不同意是他們倆的所作所為 but not to the fact that whatever awful things they did to us
把我變成了病態的同志 卻把你變成了健康的直男 made me sick and gay while you stayed straight and healthy.
我們對事情的反應不盡相同 We don't all react the same way to the thing.
所以你當了律師 我成了作家 So you became a lawyer and I became a writer.
這只是看世界的方式不同 Well, we have a difference of opinion over theory.
但在你的眼裏我是個異類 But your theory turns me into a man from Mars.
我可沒這樣看你 My theory doesn't do that to you.
你是想說 那麼早送你去看心理醫生 Are you suggesting I did something wrong
是我的錯嗎 in sending you into therapy so young?
我又不知道你要看多久的醫生 I didn't know you were gonna stay there forever.
在你把我送去之前 我沒覺得 I didn't think that I'd had done anything wrong
自己做錯了什麼 until you sent me there.
本 在這世上你在我心裏份量最重 Ben... you mean more to me than anyone in the whole world.
-一直如此 本 你必須得說出來 -說什麼 - You always have. Ben, you gotta say it. - Say what?
我跟你一樣 說出來 說出來啊 I'm the same as you. Just say it. Say it!
不 No.
你不是 You're not.
我說不出來 I'm not gonna say it.
每次跟你在這個話題上吵輸 我都更受傷 Every time I lose this fight, it hurts more.
-我要回家了 -別這樣 - I'm going home. - Oh, come on, Lemon.
我還是愛你的 I still love you.
薩拉還是愛你的 Sarah still loves you.
-貓也還是愛你的 -這不是玩笑 - The cat still loves you. - This is not a joke.
我愛你 給你提供法律咨詢 You have my love, my legal advice,
還讓你幫我理財 my financial supervision.
我不能給你反抗我的勇氣 I can't give you the courage to stand up to me
讓你覺得可以對我的想法不屑一顧 and say you don't give a flying fuck about what I think.
每個人都多少受到別人的壓制 Everybody's oppressed by somebody else in some form or another.
大部分人都知道要奮起反抗 Most of us learn to fight against it
不要在乎別人的眼光 不尋求幫助 despite people's opinions without the help of others.
別再想利用愧疚獲得我贊同 And stop trying to wring some kind of admission of guilt out of me.
接受你我生來相同的事實 Agreeing that you were born just the same as I was born
是不會拯救你垂死的夥伴的 isn't gonna save your dying friends.
正是這一點 能救我垂死的夥伴們 That is exactly what is going to save my dying friends.
你說得好像我是敵人一般 You make it sound like I'm the enemy.
我不由得覺得 I am beginning to think
你和你的異性戀世界是我們的敵人 that you and your straight world are our enemy.
我對你非常氣憤 I am furious with you!
以及每一個讓我覺得愛上同性 And every goddamn doctor who made me feel it
是噁心的事的醫生 was sick to love a man.
我試著去理解 I am trying to understand
為什麼我們要死了卻沒人在乎 why nobody gives a shit that we're dying!
五百萬買棟房子嗎 政府連幾分錢都不給 $5 million for a house? We can't even get 27 cents from the city.
已經有四十三個我認識的人死了 I know 43 guys who have died
你卻告訴我是我的原因 不是你的嗎 and you say it's my cause not yours?
你還是覺得我病態 You still think I'm sick!
我只是一秒鐘都忍受不下去了 I simply cannot allow it for one single second longer.
除非你當我和你平等 否則我不會找你 I will not speak to you again until you accept me as your equal!
我們的健康同樣重要 Your healthy equal!
我是你的弟弟 Your brother!
對 小心點 小伙子們 Yeah, be careful with that, boys.
-那可是件珍貴古董 -慢慢來 - That is a precious antique. - Easy.
我覺得 我們該把它放到大型沙龍去 I'm thinking we should put that in the grand salon.
我們有地下室嗎 應該放那兒去才對 Do we have a basement? That's where it should go.
貝拉 真該把你的臭嘴好好治治 Bella, I think it's time we moved your filthy mouth above ground.
我明天再安排 I'll decorate tomorrow.
都隨便扔進去就是了 Just shove it all in there the best you can.
你倆都夠了 Okay, knock it off, both of you.
打擾了 Excuse me.
-你好 -你好 - Yes, hi. - Hi.
我叫艾斯特爾 My name is Estelle
我最好的朋友哈維昨晚死了 and my best friend Harvey died last night.
我們形影不離 知道嗎 We went everywhere together, you know?
看百老匯的劇 火箭女郎的舞 還一起滑冰 Like Broadway and the Rockettes and ice skating.
他滑起來十分優雅 我卻笨手笨腳 He was a beautiful skater. I'm a klutz.
但他不在乎 But he didn't care.
我們曾有過那麼多歡樂 We had so much fun.
該死 我想做點什麼 Damn it, I wanna do something!
儘管所有我的女同朋友都說 Even though all my lesbian friends say,
"你們男人為我們又做過什麼" "What have you guys ever done for us?"
但我不在乎 But I don't care.
我是為了哈維 This is for Harvey.
拜託了 告訴我 我能有點用處 Please... tell me you can use me for something.
我需要熱線電話接線員 你能勝任嗎 I need a hotline director. You think you can do that?
-我不知道怎麼做 -我也不知道 - I don't know how. - I don't either.
我請你喝杯咖啡吧 Let me buy you a cup of coffee
-然後慢慢聊 好嗎 -好 - and we'll figure this out, okay? - Okay.
你想設在這裏嗎 So, you want to set up here?
對 很好 開始吧 Yeah, this is good. Let's do it.
-你在幹什麼 -我們是NBC下屬的 - What are you doing? - We're from the NBC affiliate.
-怎樣 -這裏是新成立的男同健康危機組織嗎 - So? - This is the new Gay Men's Health Crisis office.
你是誰 Who are you?
我是布魯斯·奈爾斯 是組織的主席 I'm Bruce Niles. I'm the president.
我可從沒同意過 I didn't sign any consent form
你們拍攝我 或是拍攝這裏 for you to film me or this establishment.
請關機離開 Please turn it off and leave.
別碰我的攝像機 Hey, now, don't touch my camera.
-誰派你們來的 -一個叫奈德的人 - Who sent you here? - Somebody named Ned.
-威克斯 -太好了 你來了 - Weeks. - Oh, great. You're here.
-有人是同性戀嗎 -操蛋的 - Anybody homo? - Son of a bitch.
你好 這東西在錄嗎 Hello, is this thing rolling?
瞧瞧這個 我們一周內同時登上了這兩份雜誌 Look at this! We're in both of them the same week.
以及所有的主流電視網 Every major network
現在終於輪到我們的第一間辦公室了 and now finally our very first office.
來認識下我們還沒出櫃的同志主席 I wanna introduce you to our gay president who's in the closet.
他可真帥 你們不覺得嗎 And he's so handsome. Don't ya think?
白白浪費了這麼帥的封面人物 Such a very handsome cover boy going to waste.
很好 你終於會抗爭了 很好 來啊 布魯斯 Oh, great. Now you fight. Great! Fight, Bruce.
你說得我像個懦夫 但我不是 You made me sound like a coward and I'm not a coward.
知道嗎 你沒什麼可失去的 You know what? You have nothing to lose.
你哥哥為你投資 你有穩定收入 Your brother invests for you so you have income.
你可以隨便做同性戀 奈德 但我不行 You can be gay 24/7, Ned, but I can't!
我不行 所以去你的 I can't! So fuck you!
不 去你的 布魯斯 No, fuck you, Bruce!
上帝啊 Oh, oh, oh. Jesus.
一看到你 我就充滿了絕望 When I look at you, I am filled with despair.
一看到你 我就擔心我們沒辦法贏 When I look at you, I worry we're not gonna win.
你覺得這個國家是怎麼建成的 How do you think this country was founded?
我還以為我是和保羅·裏維爾[愛國志士]一起共事 I thought I was getting started with Paul Revere,
而不是個懦夫 not some coward.
奈德 看著我 看著我 Ned, look at me. Look at me!
看著我 Look at me!
按你的方法來 我們都得死 We are doomed if we do it your way.
-都得死 -他們如果不知道我們是誰 - Doomed! - How are they going to help us
怎麼會幫助我們 if they don't know who we are?
要是知道了就不會幫我們了 奈德 They won't help us, Ned, if they do.
你們這群王八 You walking son of b..
別這樣 Hey, hey, hey! Hey! Come on.
住手 住手 Come on. Come on.
-真要命 -該死 - Holy shit. - Shit!
好吧 我來接 當然了 Okay, I'll get it, sure.
你好 您是第一個來電的 Hello? Yeah, you are our very first call.
有什麼需要幫忙的 How can I help you?
抱歉 你打錯電話了 I'm sorry, you have the wrong number.
你們倆都給我控制一點 成嗎 You each gotta pull your shit together now, okay?
你也別老鬧得小題大做 該死的 And you need to stop being such a fucking drama queen. God damn.
這位是埃斯特爾 This is Estelle.
你們還好嗎 Hey. How's it going?
歡迎 Welcome.
那時我能感覺到 I could feel at the time
一切都不得而知 There was no way of knowing
誰知夜晚的落葉 Fallen leaves in the night
將隨風飄往何處 Who can say where they're blowing?
如清風般自由 As free as the wind
希望得以真知 And hopefully learning
為何大海之潮 Why the sea on the tide
無路可轉 Has no way of turning
遠勝於此 More than this
一無所有 There is nothing
遠勝於此 More than this
我們兩人四手 兩份收入 Well, we have four hands and two incomes.
再過幾年就無福消受了 You're not getting any younger, you know.
別拿我的年齡說事 All right, let's leave my age out of this.
告訴我一事 Tell me one thing
遠勝於此 More than this
-鄉下真的很美 -鄉下真的很安靜 - Very beautiful, the country. - Very quiet, the country.
不不 你敢 No, no. Don't you dare!
我必須得接 I have to.
你又沒在你的機器那留這個號碼 You didn't leave this number on your machine.
-你答應過的 -你好 - You promised. - Hello?
我的確認為我們需要對市長進行抗議 I do think we should picket the mayor.
是的 我說過 我也堅持我的說法 謝謝 Yes, I said that and I stand by that. Thank you.
你答應過的 You promised.
不不不 等等 No, no, no, no, no. Wait.
"所有不主動站出來的同志 "And every gay man who is unable to come forward
不為自救而抗爭的同志 and fight to save his own life
都是在幫助殺害其他的同志" is truly helping to kill the rest of us."
在你嚇得屁滾尿流 並採取行動之前 How many of us have to die before you get scared off your ass
我們還要死多少人 謝謝 and into action? Thank you.
那是誰 Who was that?
好像是"奈德·威克斯教你發脾氣" I hear it's being called the "Ned Weeks School of Outrage."
我跟我們的一個科學記者提起過 I did speak to one of our science reporters.
他怎麼說的 What did he say?
結果他也是同志 他不願意... It turns out he's gay and he won't...
別對我喊 Don't yell at me.
那些精神病醫生 他們肯定做對了什麼 All those shrinks, they must have done something right.
瑞塔沃醫生 Dr. Ritvo,
-梅洛夫醫生 -梅洛夫 - Dr. Malev, - Malev.
吉萊斯皮醫生 Dr. Gillespie,
帕蒂醫生 Dr. Patty,
馬克辛醫生 拉維恩醫生 Dr. Maxene, Dr. LaVerne.
為什麼要用這麼長時間 Why does that have to take so long?
你一直在吃甜食 All you ever eat is desserts.
糖分是生命中最重要的東西 Sugar's the most important thing in life.
其他的只是維持生命而已 All the rest is just to stay alive.
該死 Shit.
-怎麼了 -該死的董事會 - What? - The fucking board.
他們說我在引起恐慌 They say I'm causing a panic,
我是在炒作自己 that I'm making myself a celebrity.
他們都不願意出現在鏡頭前 Not one of them will be interviewed or appear on TV,
於是我就自己上 so I do it all by default.
而你在逐漸成為領袖 And you're becoming a leader.
-你喜歡抗爭 -我喜歡抗爭 我嗎 - And you love to fight. - I like to fight? Moi?
你 對啊 Who, you? Yeah.
你也非常盡興 And you're havin' a great time.
的確 I am.
真可笑 我從沒想做領袖 It's funny, I never wanted to be a leader.
我做得不好 I'm not doing very well.
真可惜我們浪費了這麼多時間 It's sad how much time we lost.
我們當時還沒準備好而已 We just weren't ready then.
如果我得病了 If I had it...
你會離開我嗎 would you leave me?
我不知道 I don't know.
如果我得病了 你會嗎 Would you if I did?
不會 No.
你怎麼知道 How do you know?
因為我媽分管紅十字會地方分會 Because my mother ran the local chapter of the Red Cross.
我八歲時就被她抓去巡迴采血車上幹活 She put me to work in the Bloodmobile when I was eight.
我就會照顧別人 I'm not programmed for anything else.
奈德 我有事要跟你說 Ned, I have something to tell you.
你終於有寶寶了 You're finally pregnant.
我結過一次婚 I was married once.
你以前從沒說過 You never told me that.
是的 我... Yeah, I...
她說我對她不公平 she said I had been unfair to her,
事實也的確如此 which I had been.
-我有個兒子 -你有個兒子 - I have a son. - You have a son.
-她不讓我見他 -你不能見自己的兒子 - She won't let me see him. - You can't see your own son?
你沒抗爭嗎 But didn't you fight?
就是說你很羞愧 That means you're ashamed.
他將來也會的 So he will be, too.
所以我之前才沒告訴你 誰說我沒抗爭了 This is why I didn't tell you. Who says I didn't fight?
奈德 Ned?
那些不像你期望的 What happens to people who
那麼堅強的人怎麼辦 can't be as strong as you want them to be?
我很怕軟弱 Weakness scares the shit out of me!
我父親很軟弱 我怕我會跟他一樣 My father was weak, and I'm afraid I'll be like him.
他一輩子都沒有為什麼去抗爭過 就這麼去了 His life didn't stand for anything and then it was over.
所以我不斷抗爭 So I fight, constantly.
既然我能做到 我就不明白了 And if I can do it, I can't understand
為什麼其他人做不到呢 why everybody else can't do it, too, okay?
等等 你要去哪 Wait, where are you going?
菲利克斯 你上哪去 Felix! Where you going?
菲利克斯 那些話不是有心的 菲利克斯 Felix. I didn't mean anything by that, Felix.
我 很多事我都害怕 I... I... I'm scared of... lots of things.
真的 恐高 我從沒告訴過你我怕... Really. Heights. I never told you I'm terrified of...
怎麼了 What?
這東西越來越大 It keeps getting bigger and bigger.
就是不消失 It doesn't go away.
菲利克斯 Felix?
容我問一句 誰是菲利克斯 Who, may I ask, is Felix?
我這輩子還沒這麼愛過誰 I've never been so in love in my life.
我就沒愛過人 Never been in love in my life.
讓他明天一早七點半來找我 Tell him to come to see me first thing tomorrow 7:30.
奈德 真該死 Ned, God damn it.
我們該怎麼辦 從此孤獨終老嗎 What are we supposed to do? Not be with anybody ever?
可沒你想得那麼輕鬆 It's not as easy as you might think.
艾瑪 對不起 Oh, Em, I'm sorry.
不用 Don't be.
你怎麼會癱瘓的 How'd you get it?
我當年五歲 I was five years old.
一個巴哈馬的女人來了我們鎮上 A woman from the Bahamas came to our town
她有脊髓灰質炎病毒 carrying the polio virus.
她 跟朋友們住一起 She... stayed with friends.
他們的孩子跟我一起上幼兒園 Their kid was in my kindergarten class.
有四個孩子得了小兒麻痹癥 Four of us in that class got polio.
我都穿好萬聖節服裝 I was all dressed up in my Halloween costume
準備去不給糖就搗蛋了 to go trick-or-treating
我媽媽摸了摸我的額頭 讓我去睡覺 and my mother felt my forehead, put me to bed.
那晚半夜 我感到整個身體都麻痹了 In the middle of the night, I realized my whole body
除了雙臂還能動 except my arms and my hands were paralyzed.
我哭喊著叫媽媽 I was crying out for my mother.
"我動不了了 我動不了" "I can't move, I can't move."
他們連忙送我就醫 They rushed me to the hospital,
醫生說我撐不過一天 were told I'd be dead in 24 hours.
我抗爭了 活了下來 I fought. I lived.
你上人工呼吸機了嗎 Were you in an iron lung?
上了 I was.
然後回家休養 Then I was in bed at home.
我用一個小小的喇叭 I was connected to my class with this little...
跟班裏的同學說話 little loudspeaker.
老師要求大家都來看我 All the children were required to visit me.
我們互相問好 We would say, "Hello,"
接著就不知該說什麼了 and then not know what to say next.
他們都怕我 They were all terrified of me.
現在也是 Still are.
我嚇壞別人了 I scare the shit out of people.
輪椅上的可怕姑娘 The "holy terror" in a wheelchair.
別人也怕我 I'm scaring people, too.
要學會利用 Learn how to use it.
你不需要別人的愛和認可 Don't need everybody's love and approval.
奈德 你的組織是 無價的 Ned, your organization is... worthless.
有份量的人都不肯加入 I can't get anyone important on the board.
我看過300多病人了 就我一個人 I've seen over 300 patients. Me. One doctor.
那些從我們身上賺得盆滿缽滿的 All these guys who made millions off of us...
時尚 搖滾 電影 房地產界的 都不能指望 fashion, rock, movies, real estate, forget it.
布魯斯和我一有意見不合 And any time Bruce doesn't agree with me,
-就找董事會投票 -然後你輸了 - he puts it to a board vote. - And you lose.
如果沒有絕對把握 我不會接受任何信息 I can't pass along sex recommendations
或是接受任何性夥伴 or any information that isn't 100% certain.
科學沒有絕對把握 Nothing is 100% certain in science.
反正你也決定不了 It wouldn't matter what you say anyway.
又不怪我 衝我吼什麼 Don't yell at me for what I'm not doing.
-你們又幹什麼了 -不知道 - What the fuck is your side doing? - I don't know!
美國醫學協會幹什麼了 Where's your A.M.A.?
猶太人就愛餓肚子嗎 Does being Jewish always make you hungry?
不知道 我不是猶太人 I don't know. I'm not Jewish.
我是德裔的 I'm German.
-大家都以為你是猶太人 -我知道 - Everybody thinks you're Jewish. - I know.
在醫學界可以利用這點 In medicine it helps.
你上學的時候一直躺著嗎 You stayed in bed the whole way through school?
大學的時候我有了副支架 By college I had my first braces
能走一段距離 and I could walk... a little.
後面就再沒有過了 I don't walk so good anymore.
也許是太忙沒時間練 Probably because I'm too busy to practice.
你一定要練 You must practice.
就現在 真的 Right now. I mean it.
就現在 來吧 Right now. C'mon.
別刮壞了唱片 Don't scratch my Mathis.
能共舞一曲嗎 May I have this dance?
好吧 隨你便吧 Okay. You asked for it.
枴杖 My crutches.
我沒事 I got it.
沒事的 Okay.
我怕他孤單終老 I'm afraid to leave him alone now.
我怕來不及治好他 I'm afraid a cure won't come in time.
我怕自己的怒火 I'm afraid of my anger.
-我不是個好領導 -也不會跳舞 放我回去 - I'm a terrible leader and... - A lousy dancer. Put me back.
脊髓灰質炎也是病毒 Polio is a virus, too.
現在不也有解藥了 Nobody gets polio anymore.
他人呢 我們都等了一個半小時了 Where is he? We've been here for an hour and a half.
這群人是誰啊 讓我們待地下室裏 Who are these people? We're in a fucking dungeon here.
他不能這樣 He can't do this to us.
這麼對我們我一定要追究他 He cannot do this to us and get away with it.
-開始了嗎 -沒有 - Did you start? - No.
-好吧 你們好 -好啊 - Okay, God, hi. - Hi.
我的天 墳墓一樣 Jesus Christ, what a tomb.
不想讓我們拋頭露面嗎 Do they not want us to be seen above ground?
他人呢 我都晚了一個小時了 And where is he? I'm an hour late.
-一個半 -別對我撒氣 小可愛 - Hour and a half. - Don't start on me, lamb chop.
-湯米 你去哪了 -貝爾維 - Tommy, where were you? - I was up at Bellevue.
安排一個垂死的孩子跟母親見面 Had to put a sweet dying child together with his mama.
他們15年沒見了 They hadn't seen each other for 15 years.
孩子沒對母親說過自己是同志 He never told her he was gay.
他不想見她 接連幾周都不想 He didn't want to see her. He refused to see her for weeks.
我陪母親進去時他生氣極了 Oh, he was angry when I waltzed in with her.
看母親抱著孩子真是催人淚下 It was a real weeper. Mama holding her son.
他已經去了 He's dead now.
不好意思來晚了 我是海拉姆·基博勒 I'm truly sorry I'm late. I'm Hiram Keebler.
你好 你們家是做餅乾的嗎[同名]Hello. Are you related to the folks who make the crackers?
開玩笑的 我是湯米·博特萊特 I'm kidding. I'm Tommy Boatwright.
奈德·威克斯 Ned Weeks.
布魯斯·耐爾斯 我是主席 Bruce Niles. I'm the president.
市長要我轉達 他十分關心 The mayor wants you to know how much he cares
看到你們肩負的重任 and how impressed he is with how you've been shouldering
他也深表讚賞 your own responsibilities.
-謝謝 -還謝謝 - Thank you. - Thank you?
肩負的責任 我們這麼辦 Responsibilities? Everything we're doing
就是因為你們 我們現在需要幫助 is the stuff you guys should be doing and we need help.
威克斯先生的意思是 What Mr. Weeks is trying to say, sir,
我們應付不過來 is that we're swamped.
每天都接到超過500個緊急求助熱線 We're fielding over 500 calls a day on our emergency hotline.
坦白說 我們現在所提供的咨詢 And we're providing information that, quite frankly,
本該由政府來提供 the city should be providing, and isn't.
我們需要辦公的地方 這裏太小了 Sir, we need office space. We have one small room.
每天的人流量超過100人 We have over 100 people calling or walking in and out every day,
而且沒人願意出租 and plus it's real hard
就因為我們是... when people don't want to rent to us because we're...
那是非法歧視 That's illegal discrimination.
是的 我們都知道 Yeah, we know that to be true, sir.
基博勒先生 Mr. Keebler,
歧視同性戀卻不算違法 it is not illegal to discriminate against homosexuals.
為了見市長 我們足足等了14個月 We've been waiting for 14 months to see the mayor.
光是約你在這會面就花了一年時間 It's taken us a year to get this meeting with you.
而且你還晚了一個半小時 You're an hour and a half late.
你有告訴市長傳染病的事嗎 Have you told the mayor there's an epidemic going on?
-誰說的傳染病 -政府 - Says who? - The government.
哪個政府 咱們政府嗎 Which government? What? Our government?
-傳染病? -疾控中心已發出聲明 - An epidemic? - The Centers for Disease Control declared it.
-在17個月前 -你不可能不知道 - 17 months ago. - You can't not know this!
能別那麼歇斯底里嗎 Could you please reduce your level of hysteria?
當然可以 Certainly.
紐約 舊金山 洛杉磯 New York City, San Francisco, Los Angeles,
芝加哥 波士頓 丹佛 Chicago, Boston, Denver.
美國的大城市都發現了病例 Every single major American city is now showing cases.
還包括至少25個國家 At least 25 foreign countries.
紐約作為我們的家 But New York City,
作為你們承諾過要保護的城市 our home, the city that you have pledged to protect
這裏什麼都佔大多數 has more than half of everything.
大多數的病例 大多數的死者 Half the cases, half the dead.
死去的人裏我認識57個 不想再有了 I know 57 of the dead ones. I don't wanna know any more.
我們什麼時候可以見市長 Now, when do we get to see the mayor?
花14個月吃午餐未免也太久了 14 months is a long time to be out to lunch.
-你先等一下 -不 我們不能等了 - You wait a minute. - No, you wait a minute. We can't.
時間可不等人 Time is not on our side.
如果你不帶話給市長 我們怎麼辦 Now, if you won't take word to the mayor, what are we gonna do?
把請願紋在應召男的雞巴上 Hire a hunky hustler and send him up to Gracie Mansion
再送到市長府邸嗎 with a plea tattooed to his cock?
-科奇市長不是同性戀 -少來了 小姐妹 - Mayor Koch is not gay! - Oh, come on, "Blanche."
聽著 Listen.
你們以為我不想幫忙嗎 Don't you think I want to help you?
我有個朋友就是因為這鬼東西 I have a friend who is dying of this shit,
正在退役軍人醫院裏垂死掙扎 right now in the V.A. Hospital.
可是你們也知道 這很難辦 But it's very tricky. You can see that. It is very tricky.
難辦個屁 紐約有100萬同志 Tricky, shit! There are a million gay people in New York.
他們跟我都指望著你 A million and one counting you!
告訴你 You know what?
西區有所學校的火爐失火了 A fire goes out in a school furnace on the West Side.
那一天我就接到了3000個電話 I get 3,000 calls in one day.
懂我的意思沒 You know what I mean?
要是你們有那麼不滿 If so many of you are so upset,
為什麼就只聽到這大嘴巴在講 why do I only hear from this loudmouth?
問得真好 That's a very good question.
我們這有著50萬的同性戀 Okay, so there are half a million gay men in our area.
315例也不算太高 315 cases doesn't seem too high,
還要考慮到這麼大的人口基數 considering how many of us... of you there are.
-真是扯淡 -奈德 別 - This is bullshit! - Ned, please.
長官 我知道這很難辦 Look, I understand this is tricky, sir.
可是我們需要你的幫助 But we need your help.
我覺得 同時市長也是這麼想的 I think, that is, that the mayor thinks
你們反應過度了 you guys are overreacting.
你去告訴那個混蛋 You tell that cocksucker,
他就是個自私冷血的雜種 he is a selfish, heartless son of a bitch!
你是邁克爾·R·馬庫斯 You are Michael R. Marcus.
衛生署的保密工作可做得不到位 You hold an unsecure job with the city's Department of Health.
換作是我就會提防一下你的朋友 I'd watch out for your friends if I were you.
我真不敢相信 I don't believe that just happened.
米奇 明天我要上"今日秀" Mickey, I am going on "The Today Show" Tomorrow,
我要告訴他們 and I am telling them,
市長通過威脅你的工作來讓我們閉嘴 that the mayor just threatened your job to shut us up.
"今日秀" 你要幹什麼 "The Today Show"? You're gonna what?
他們不把我們當人看 我們居然容忍他 They are treating us like shit and we're allowing them.
不 政客就這樣 No, politicians,
不施加壓力就沒有回應 the only thing they really respond to is pressure.
他不是說著火就有3000個電話嗎 You heard him with his "3,000 West Side calls."
是因為我們的呼聲不夠壯大 We're not yelling loud enough!
拿好東西 Get your stuff.
-我是湯米 -湯米 我是奈德 - This is Tommy. - Tommy, it's Ned.
尼剋死了 Nick died.
操 Shit.
該死的 God damn.
追悼會的安排我晚點再告訴你 I'll call later when I know more about the memorial.
我有個慣例 I have this tradition.
當有朋友離世 我就會這樣做 It's something I do now when a friend dies.
把他的名片留存下來 I save his Rolodex card.
我還能做什麼 What am I supposed to do?
扔進垃圾堆嗎 Throw it away in the trash can?
我不會那麼做 I won't do that.
我不會 No, I won't.
那太絕情了 That's too final.
去年 我收藏了五張 Last year I had five cards.
現在我一共有五十張 Now I have 50.
名片做成的墓碑 A collection of cardboard tombstones,
用橡皮筋捆在一起 bound together with a rubber band.
我憎惡這些該死的葬禮 I hate these fuckin' funerals.
真的 I really do.
知道我還憎惡什麼嗎 And you know what else I hate?
我憎惡追悼會 I hate the memorials.
現在我們社交生活的主要內容 That's our social life now.
就是參加追悼會 Going to these things.
尼克是個舞蹈指導 Nick was a choreographer.
你們瞭解這個職業嗎 I don't know if any of you knew that.
他才剛剛起步 He was just starting out.
沒有告訴很多人 He didn't tell a lot of people.
他還想著邀請你們參加 He was waiting to invite you
他在卡內基音樂廳什麼的首演 to his big debut at Carnegie Hall or some shit
好讓我們都以他為豪 so we could all be proud of him.
他曾經如此優秀 But he was so good.
如此前途無量 He had such promise.
我們失去了整整一代人 We're losing an entire generation.
剛剛起步的年輕人 Young men at the beginning.
就這麼去世了 Just gone.
舞蹈指導 劇作家 Choreographers, playwrights,
舞者 演員 dancers, actors.
損失了那麼多無法投諸筆端的劇作 All those plays that won't get written now.
再也無緣得見那麼多姿態翩翩的舞蹈 All those dances never to be danced.
最後 我只想說我已經不再正常 In closing, I'm just gonna say I'm mad.
我真他媽已經瘋了 I'm fuckin' mad.
內心的聲音一直在喊 "他們為什麼看著我們死" I keep screaming inside, "Why are they letting us die?"
"為什麼沒人幫我們" "Why is no one helping us?"
真相是 And here's the truth.
答案是 Here's the answer.
他們就是不喜歡我們 They just don't like us.
我能戰勝它 I'm going to beat this.
我一直是個幸運兒 I've always been lucky.
很好 這才是正確的態度 Good. That's the right attitude.
我以前想在《時報》上班 我成功了 I wanted a job on the "Times," I got it.
我想要奈德 I wanted Ned.
我傳染給奈德了嗎 Have I given it to Ned?
我不知道 I don't know.
有人得了感冒 One person has a cold,
他的伴侶也許會得 也許不會 sometimes the partner catches it, sometimes not.
有醫生說 用安全套就沒事 Some doctors are saying it's okay if we use condoms.
我知道 I know they are.
-我們能接吻嗎 -菲力克斯 - Can we kiss? - Felix.
你對病菌完全沒有抵抗力 You have nothing to fight back with.
你的免疫系統幾乎不能叫免疫系統 You have no immune system to speak of.
任何東西都可能感染你的身體 Your body is now open to every conceivable type of infection.
你必須十分小心 You must be careful.
我會全力以赴 你也得這麼做 I'm going to do my damnedest, so must you.
我打賭你對所有小伙子們都這麼說 I bet you say that to all the boys.
其實呢 As a matter of fact,
是的 I do.
老天 Oh, God.
曾經有個棒小伙 Once upon a time there was a little boy
總想愛上另一個棒小伙 who always wanted to love another little boy.
有一天 他總算找到了這份愛 One day he finally found that love
簡直太美好了 and it was wonderful.
我本該戴手套 I'm supposed to use gloves.
本來應該做這 本來應該做那 I'm supposed to do this. I'm supposed to do that.
本來不該吻他 I'm supposed to not kiss him.
很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
我本不該只有四十五歲 I'm not supposed to be only 45 years old
還照顧著一個三十五歲的年輕人 and taking care of a 35-year-old young man
虛弱得像百歲老人 即將死去 who's 100 years old and dying.
艾瑪說這就叫起伏 Emma calls it a seesaw.
他好了 他病了 He's fine, he gets sick,
他好一點 he gets better...
又病重一點 he gets sicker.
老天 幫幫我 God help me.
他怕我離開他 He's afraid I'll leave him.
我告訴他 我不會離開的 I told him I wouldn't leave him.
我從沒有想過哪怕一秒 要離開他 That I never for one second would think of leaving him.
但他不相信我 But he doesn't believe me.
這樣的日子過久了 確實很難相信這樣的話 It's hard to believe in much these days.
但我們絕不能失去對彼此的信念 But we must never stop believing in each other.
我糟透了 毫不誇張 I'm a mess. That's what I am.
每天以淚洗面 直到覺得眼淚已經流乾 You cry and you cry until you think can't cry anymore
可淚水依舊滑落 and then you cry some more.
不僅是為自己或菲利克斯 也是為了 Not only for yourself or Felix, but for all the little boys
找到此生摯愛的小伙子們 who finally found their other little boys
經受這般歷練 終成男人 they've wanted all their lives now that we're men.
男同健康危機組織 G.M.H.C.
我是艾斯特爾 有什麼可以幫您的 Estelle speaking. How may I assist you?
有人要寫遺囑 Someone needs a will!
-奈德在哪 我要找他 -他在裏面 - Where's Ned? I want to speak to him. - He's in the back.
-給他這個號碼 -謝謝 - Here, give him this number. - Thank you.
-男同健康危機組織 -男同健康危機組織 - G.M.H.C. - G.M.H.C.
湯米 我可能找到了四個符合條件的 Tommy, I think I got us maybe four qualified
社工志願者 social workers to volunteer.
-她們都是女同志 -感謝上帝創造女同 - They're all lesbians. - Thank God for the lesbians.
您的肛門嗎 Your anus?
天王星啊[同音]Oh, Planet Uranus.
感謝來電 Thank you for sharing.
米奇 你怎麼不在裏約 Mickey, why aren't you in Rio?
我把電話轉留言了 你們該休息會 I put the phones on service. You guys should get some rest.
別再有人倒下了 We don't want any burnouts.
晚安 菲爾 謝謝 Good night, Phil. Thank you.
晚安 親愛的 Night, honey.
-再見 親愛的 -晚安 親愛的 - Bye, baby. - Good night, sweetheart.
今天表現很好 Good work today.
好的 All right.
菲爾今天確診了 Phil got diagnosed today.
米奇 你為什麼沒在裏約度假 Mickey, why aren't you on vacation in Rio?
我本來在裏約 格裏高利... I was in Rio. Gregory...
和我本來在裏約 and I were in Rio.
我接到了海勒姆辦公室的電話 I get a call from Hiram's office
說我今天一早 saying I should be in his
必須立馬去他辦公室 office right away first thing this morning.
從裏約嗎 什麼大事 From Rio? What kind of meeting?
我去了市政廳 等了海勒姆很長時間 I get to City Hall, Hiram keeps me waiting forever.
終於有專員出來 跟我說 And finally the commissioner comes out and he says
海勒姆不想再見到我了 that Hiram doesn't want to see me anymore.
我真想大叫 I wanted to scream,
"老子兩天沒睡覺了 你個傻逼" "I haven't slept in two days, you dumb fuck."
但我沒有 反而我說 But I didn't. Instead I said,
"那請問 先生 "Please, sir, then...
他為什麼還要讓我大老遠從裏約回來" why did he make me come all the way back from Rio?"
他說 And he says,
"他也沒跟我解釋過" "Oh, I'm afraid he didn't take me into his confidence."
然後就走了 And he walks off.
奈德抨擊海勒姆的文章剛剛發表了 Ned's article attacking Hiram just came out.
我不要因為奈德不自愛而丟了飯碗 I'm not going to lose my job because Ned doesn't like himself.
什麼意思 米奇 What's that, Mick?
你一直逼我們說我們自己不想說的話 You keep trying to get us to say things that we don't wanna say
我覺得沒有足夠的朋友 and I don't think we can afford
就不要樹立敵人了 to make so many enemies before we have enough friends.
泰瑞·斯伯汀喊來所有朋友 Terry Spaulding is calling all of his friends
從氧氣倉裏跟他們告別 from under his oxygen tank to say goodbye.
提比·莫勒吸毒自殺 Tibby Maurer took an overdose.
哈爾·沙克特裝了假肢 Hal Schechter has got stumps for feet.
弗蘭尼·山圖扎瘋了 Frannie Santuzza's lost his mind!
你能閉嘴嗎 別說了 Will you stop it? Just stop!
-米奇 你還好嗎 -不好 - Mickey, you all right? - I don't think so.
他們為什麼找不出這種病毒 Why can't they find the virus?
親愛的 這得花時間 Baby, it takes time.
我天天為這個城市寫那些... I work all day for the city writing stuff on...
母乳還是奶粉餵養好 breast-feeding versus formula
染上皰疹不用驚慌的文章 and how to stay calm when you have herpes.
在晚上 我還為 And at night I work on our
《紐約同志會》寫通訊和健康專欄 newsletter and our health column for the "Native."
我...我真的受不了了 I just... I can't take it anymore.
各種理論我都寫過 I have written about every single theory.
病毒反覆感染 Repeated infection by a virus.
休眠病毒的新病徵 New appearance by a dormant virus.
一種病毒 新型病毒 古老病毒 Single virus, new virus, old virus,
復合病毒 部分病毒 multi-virus, partial virus,
-潛伏病毒 突變病毒 -淡定 親愛的 - latent virus, mutant virus... - Take it easy, honey.
不行 還不能忘了性交 口交 No, we mustn't forget about fucking and sucking
接吻 血液 巫術 and kissing and blood and voodoo
毒品 同志吸劑 針頭 and drugs and poppers and needles
還有非洲 海地 古巴 黑人 and Africa, Haiti, Cuba, blacks,
阿米巴原蟲 豬 還有狗日的天王星 amoebas, pigs, fucking Uranus!
-如果這些都不是傳染源呢 -我不知道 - What if it isn't any of them? - I don't know.
倫敦的鼠疫 The great plague of London
是一個水泵裏的水引起的 was caused by drinking water from a pump
沒人會注意那東西 that just nobody... nobody noticed it.
可能這種病毒就是這樣 Maybe it's predisposition or the theory of the herd...
只會感染同志 沒有同志就滅絕了 only so many of us are going to get it, then the pool's used up.
如果是單配偶傳染呢 布魯斯 你和我 What if it's monogamy? Bruce, you and I
可能更容易感染 could actually be worse off
因為長期只跟單一傳染源接觸 because of constant bombardment from a single source...
我們的愛人 our lovers.
或許那些總去浴室的人 So maybe the guys who go to the baths,
建立了最強大的免疫系統 maybe they've built up the best immunity.
我不知道該怎麼跟大家說 I don't know what to tell anybody anymore
但大家還在問我 and everybody asks me.
誰對 我不知道 Who's right? I don't know.
誰錯 我感覺 Who's wrong? I feel...
我感覺手足無措 I feel so fucking inadequate.
我們該怎麼告訴大家 "停下" How can we tell people, "Stop"?
只是 我不 有可能是因為 It's just... I don't... it might be caused by...
我不知道 我不知道 I don't know. I don't know.
我也是這種感覺 That's exactly how I feel.
也許他是對的 And maybe he's right.
這嚇到我了 And that scares me.
奈德 你嚇到我了 Neddy, you scare me.
你真的覺得總統 You really think the president...
他想讓這一切發生的嗎 that he wants this to happen?
你真的覺得中情局 You really think the CIA
發動細菌戰 has unleashed germ warfare
來殺掉所有傑瑞·法威爾[教會保守人士]不認可的基佬嗎 to kill off all the queers that Jerry Falwell doesn't want?
-米克 克制一點 -克制什麼 - Mick. Try to hold on. - To what?
我曾經那麼愛我的祖國 I used to love my country.
"同志會"收到了封匿名來信 The "Native" received an anonymous letter describing
講的是國防部的高度機密實驗 top-secret Defense Department
在迪特裏克港 馬里蘭州 experiments at Fort Detrick, Maryland...
研製了一種可以摧毀免疫系統的病毒 that have produced a virus that can destroy the immune system.
代號"強硬之手" Its codename was "Firm Hand."
1978年開始在一批同志身上測試 They started testing it in 1978 on a group of gays.
我之前從來不信這種鬼話 I never used to believe shit like that...
他們要迫害我們 they're gonna persecute us!
他們要撤銷我們的醫療保險 They're gonna cancel our health insurance,
他們要把我們送到集中營 隔離我們 they're gonna put us into camps, they're gonna quarantine us.
你覺得我在殺人嗎 And you think that I'm killing people?
我說的不是這個意思 That is not what I said.
就是這個意思 你知道你自己說了什麼 It is, you know you said it.
我花了十五年時間 I've spent 15 years of my life
來為我們自由的權利作鬥爭 fighting for our right to be free
還為了能隨時隨地的做愛 and to make love wherever, whenever.
你卻告訴我這麼多年來 And you're telling me all those years
為同志爭取權利是錯的 of what being gay stood for is wrong!
還認為我是兇手 And that I'm a murderer.
我們一直在壓抑自己 你都不記得了嗎 We have been so oppressed. Don't you remember?
你不知道我們不用躲 沒有愧疚 大膽去愛 Can't you see how important it is for us to love openly,
有多重要嗎 without hiding, without guilt?
你怎麼就不明白 Why can't you see that?
我上到了帝國大廈最頂樓 I went to the top of the Empire State Building.
我送你回家 Okay, I'm taking you home.
可以趁人不注意從上面跳下去 You can jump off from there when nobody's looking.
好了 米奇 我們回家吧 就現在 All right, Mickey, let's go home. Right now.
奈德 我不是兇手 我不是 Ned, I'm not a murderer. I'm not.
我這輩子一直恨自己是同志 All my life I've been hated for being gay,
個子矮 for being short...
還是猶太人 Jewish.
所以你繼續 告訴大家 So go ahead, you tell everybody.
告訴大家我們錯了 我很抱歉 Tell everybody that we were wrong and I'm sorry.
總有一天 有人會站出來 Someday, somebody's gonna come along
會一刀捅向你 告訴你 and they're gonna stick the knife in you
你抗爭的事 你這輩子都是扯淡 and tell you everything you fought for your whole life is shit!
米奇 Mickey!
米奇 起來 Mickey! Get up!
-起來 過來 -沒事 - Get up. Come here. - It's okay.
來吧 Come on.
我送你回家 好嗎 I'm gonna take you home now, okay?
我不想回家 帶我去聖文森特 I don't wanna go home. Take me to St.Vincent's.
好 沒事 來吧 走 Okay. That's fine. Come. Let's go.
我們都很累了 聽到了嗎 Look, we're all real tired, you hear me?
大家走了不少朋友 都很悲傷 We got ourselves here a lot of bereavement overload.
我們是鬥士 不是嗎 We're the fighters. Aren't we?
-我們是斗 -沒錯 親愛的 - We're the fi... - You bet, sweetness.
你還是位英雄 And you're a hero
聽到沒 You hear me?
不管你知道與否 你都是個英雄 You're a hero whether you know that or not.
你是我們的第一位英雄 You're our first hero.
走吧 Let's go.
你想當主席 You wanna be president?
我只想讓菲利克斯活下去 I just want Felix to live.
男同健康危機組織 Gay Men's Health Crisis.
海勒姆 老夥計 現在怎麼樣 Hiram, old buddy. How's it hanging?
-準備好了嗎 -是的 - You ready? - Yeah.
市長找到了個秘密小型基金會 The Mayor's found a secret little fund
能私底下把錢捐給我們 for giving away money secretly.
但我們不能說出錢的來源 We are not allowed to tell anyone where we got it,
要是說出去了 以後一個子都沒了 and if we do, we'll never get any more.
-多少錢 -九千美金 - How much? - $9,000.
奈德 Ned.
艾伯特死了 Albert's dead.
他媽媽想在他死前在菲尼克斯見他一面 His mother wanted to see him in Phoenix before he died.
這是上周的事 當時已經很明顯了 And this was the last week, when it was obvious.
艾瑪同意了 我就帶他去了機場 So I got permission from Emma and took him to the airport.
當我們到機場的時候 And when we got to the airport,
飛行員不肯飛 the pilot refused to fly the plane.
我也拒絕下飛機 So I refused to get off of it.
你肯定會為我驕傲 奈德 You would have been very proud of me, Ned.
我們最後換了一個飛行員 So finally we get another pilot
飛機起飛時 and when we take off,
艾伯特失去了理智 Albert just loses his mind.
我不想把事情搞成這樣 I don't wanna be in this thing.
-沒事的 -我不想把事情搞成這樣 - It's okay. - I don't wanna be in this...
-我想離開這裏 -不行 艾伯特 - I'm just gonna go. - No, Albert.
我不想... I don't wanna...
-艾伯特 -叫他坐下 - Albert. - Tell him to sit down.
-對不起 -先生 先生你必須待在位置上 - I'm sorry. - Sir, sir, you have to keep seated.
-坐在這上面 -先生 坐下 你得… - Sit down up there. - Sir, have a seat. You have to...
不 No!
-先生… -住手 - Sir... - Stop!
先生 Sir!
我們坐下 好嗎 We gotta sit down, okay?
他不認得我 He doesn't recognize me.
是我啊 是我 It's me. It's me.
不知道我們要去哪裏 Doesn't know where we're going.
-我們快到家了 -我們要去鳳凰城 - We're almost home. - That we're going to see his mother
-看他媽媽 -沒事的 - in Phoenix... - Nothing.
他變得… He just becomes...
媽的 能給我塊毛巾嗎 Oh, shit. Can I get a goddamn towel, please?
當我們到達鳳凰城的醫院時 When we land in Phoenix and when we get to the hospital
他媽媽準備了一間非常漂亮的房間 where his mother had fixed up the room real nice...
艾伯特卻死了 Albert is dead.
醫院醫生拒絕給他做檢查 The hospital doctors refused to examine him
也拒絕在死亡證明上給出死因 and give him a cause of death on his death certificate.
沒有死亡證 喪事承辦員不能帶走遺體 Without the death certificate, the undertakers will not take him.
-警察也不能帶走遺體 -夥計 放下來 - And neither would the police. - Come on, man. Pull it down.
最終 某個護理員進來把艾伯特 Finally some orderly comes in and stuffs my Albert
裝進了一個超大號垃圾袋 in an oversized glad garbage bag
把他跟其他垃圾扔到了巷子裏 and puts him in the alley with the rest of the garbage.
夥計 我幫了你 我把他弄出來了 I did you a favor, man. I got him out.
給我五十塊 I want 50 bucks.
-這就是他的骨灰 -對 - Is that all of him? - Yep.
你想要骨灰 三千塊 You want him? $3,000.
他走了 他走了 He's gone. He's gone.
走了 Gone.
上帝啊 Oh, God.
"我告訴你們 他們要殺死我們 "I am telling you they are murdering us
"我們要讓他們知道 and we are letting them.
"我們快死了" We're gonna die."
"我們很快就會死了 "We're gonna die very soon,
"除非你們奮起反抗" unless you get off your fucking asses and fight back."
艾瑪等著呢 Emma's in there waiting.
張嘴 就兩口 吃點東西 Come on, two bites. Come on, now.
-不吃 -別逼我倒了這碗酸奶 - No. - Don't make me break out the yogurt.
-再吃一口 -跟你哥哥說了嗎 - One more. - Have you talked to your brother yet?
我就知道你是這樣 I remember that about you.
你不會跟最愛的人說 You don't talk to the people you love most in the world.
你想讓我好受點 我不覺得好受 You want me to get better and I'm not getting better
我充滿了罪惡感 and I feel so fucking guilty.
你週五約了比爾·布拉斯吃午飯 You have a lunch meeting with Bill Blass on Friday.
挺好的 Fancy.
我要打電話立遺囑 I'm call with my regrets.
你在做什麼 What are you doing?
兩個月後我要和你約會 Making a date with you two months from now.
我受邀去耶魯大學的同性戀周做個演講 I've been invited to speak at Yale's Gay Week.
我們都要去 And we're going.
還記得我說的舞會嗎 Remember how I told you they have those dances there now?
你是我的舞伴 You're my date.
我想要你活下去 I want you to live so much.
我不該那麼說的 I'm not supposed to say that.
上帝 再給我們一年時間吧 Oh, please, God. Give us one more year.
我用吃菠菜發誓 I promise I'll eat my spinach.
我比世界上任何人都要 I am taking care of more victims of this disease
更關心生這種病的人 than anyone in the world.
我們有冰凍的血液樣本 We have more frozen blood samples,
每種都有更多地數據 more data of every kind,
更豐富的經驗 and much more experience.
布魯克納醫生 政府的立場是這樣 Dr. Brookner, the government's position is this.
我們可以幫助病人的資金只有五百萬 There are $5 million in the pipeline for which we have received
接到的申請卻有五千多萬 over $55 million worth of requests.
五百萬還不夠兩千個病人吧 5 million doesn't seem quite right for some 2,000 cases.
政府花了三百萬 The government spent 3 million
來調查泰勒諾的七起死亡案 investigating seven deaths from Tylenol.
我們已經做了三年 We're entering the third year.
我們投票決定拒絕你的資金申請 We voted to reject your application for funding.
我想聽一下理由 I'd like to hear your reasons.
你所提出的研究方向 The direction of the research you're suggesting
不夠精確也沒有重點 is imprecise and unfocused.
是嗎 是嗎 Oh, it is, is it?
你壓根就不知道我做了哪些事 You don't know what's going on any more than I do.
你能準確地告訴我 你阻止我的原因嗎 Could you tell me precisely why you're blocking my efforts?
布魯克納醫生 這不是我一個調查員的決定 Dr. Brookner. There are now other investigators.
這不再是你一個人的研究 This is no longer only your disease,
哪怕你以為是 though you seem to think it is.
我以為是嗎 Oh, I do, do I?
你要把它帶走 是這樣嗎 And you're here to take it away from me, is that it?
我跟你分享個小秘密 醫生 Well, I'll let you in on a little secret, Doctor.
你拿去吧 我根本就不想要 You can have it. I didn't want it in the first place.
看著年輕小伙子死去是好事嗎 You think it's a privilege to watch young men die?
我跟你爭執什麼 What am I arguing with you for?
你連開水都不瞭解 You do not know enough to study boiled water.
怎麼敢跑來評判我 How dare you come down here and judge me?!
我們是穆雷醫生 We only serve on this peer
指導的審查小組的一員 review panel at the behest of Dr. Murray.
又一個白癡 還是個未出櫃的男同 Another idiot... and, by the way, a closeted homosexual
盡他一切所能掩埋此事 doing everything in his power to sweep this under the rug.
我發誓我從未對外透露任何信息 And I vowed I'd never say anything like that in public.
為什麼你的隊伍 How does it always happen
都是白癡在充數 that all of the idiots are always on your team?
你怎麼能拒絕資助我的研究 How can you refuse to fund my research
或者邀請我加入你們 or not invite me to participate in yours?
國家衛生研究院 Your National Institutes of Health
兩年前就收到了我請求撥款的申請 received my first request for money two years ago.
你花了一年打印出申請表 It took you one year just to print up application forms.
距我第一次通報案例三年後 It's taken you three years from my first reported case
你來這看了一眼 我們請求的資助 just to show up here for a look, and the paltry amount of money
跟你們每年得到的40億相比 you are forcing us to beg for out of the $4 billion
是微不足道的 you now receive each and every year
你們撥款保護的 to protect the health of American people
是屁事都沒有的健康人民 won't come to anyone before only God knows when.
法國已經找到可能的病毒了 A promising virus has been discovered in France.
你為什麼拒絕跟法國合作 Why do you refuse to cooperate with the French?
為什麼不讓我們跟法國合作 Why are we told not to cooperate with the French?
好在疾病氾濫 死傷無數時 Just so you can steal a Nobel Prize
你趁機拿個諾貝爾獎嗎 while something is being passed around that causes death!
在非洲已經出現女性病例 Women have been discovered to have it in Africa
這顯然是會通過異性傳染的 where it is clearly transmitted heterosexually.
只是時間的問題 It is only a question of time.
在你有所行動前我們可能都死了 We could all be dead before you do anything.
你要我的數據 我的觀點 You want my data? You want my ideas?
我的病人 拿去 You want my patients? Take them!
只要你能為他們做點什麼 Just do something with them!
你他媽的說得對 我... You're fucking right! I am...
不嚴密 沒有目標 而你們都是白癡 imprecise and unfocused and you are all idiots!
針對市長的抗議是你組織的嗎 Did you organize that picketing of the mayor?
是 Yes.
-簽字呢 -是 - And the signs? - Yes.
你下出戲扮演第一夫人 And your next play is about a First Lady
-好萊塢最出色的口交演員 -是 - who gave the best blow jobs in Hollywood. - Yes.
-這裏是我們的完美新辦公室 -是 - This place is perfect for our new office. - Yes.
很整齊 So tidy.
來 Here.
我來就行 我來就行 I got him. I got him.
來 扶你到床上去 Come on. Let's get you back to bed.
好 Okay.
來吧 Here you go.
艾斯特爾給你做了菜卷 Estelle made you some stuffed cabbage for later.
這是巴黎的新藥 There's this new drug in Paris.
凱斯勒的愛人急著想試 Kessler's lover is flying out to get it.
在這 HPA-23 Here it is. HPA-23.
奈德 Ned.
-他看著很糟糕 -這藥 - He looks awful - You this is anything
跟其他藥一樣沒效果嗎 or is it just another shit drug like all the rest?
我認為你要做好放手的準備 I think you need to prepare yourself for letting go.
為自己愛的人要抗爭到底 You can't stop fighting for the ones you love.
你試過為愛人戰鬥嗎 Haven't you ever had to fight for somebody you love?
湯米 你要開始站出來 Tommy. You gotta start putting yourself out there
讓大家見到我所見到的 in a way that everyone else could see what I see.
還真是一齣苦情戲 What kind of a fucked-up love scene is this?
是 Yes?
是 女士 Yes, ma'am?
明天四點半 4.30 tomorrow?
是 女士 Yes, ma'am.
是他媽的白宮 The fucking White House.
他媽的市長 我被邀請去白宮了 Fuck the mayor. I've just been invited to the White House.
他們準備做點什麼了 They're gonna do something!
我只想問 Oh, just so I understand,
我們被瘟疫侵蝕 what exactly does your title mean
你這個顧問能幹嘛 in terms of our plague?
我們傾向用正面的措詞 否則人民會害怕 We prefer not to use negative terms. It only scares people.
目前已有3339人患病 Well, there's 3,339 cases so far.
1122人死亡 1,122 dead.
我看就是瘟疫 我害怕 Sounds like a plague to me. I'm scared.
你不害怕嗎 Aren't you?
你這顧問能幹什麼來著 What does your title mean again?
我為總統出主意 I come up with ideas for the president
告訴他該做什麼不該做什麼 about what he ought to be doing and not doing.
好的 瞭解 Okay, good. Got it.
錢款還沒花出 So, the money's there, right? It just hasn't been spent.
法國有了新藥 So there's this new drug in France.
為什麼衛生研究院沒研究看看 Why doesn't the N.I.H. study it?
我想要 我們想要 迫切需要的是 I mean, what I want, what we want, what we desperately need
有個人幫我們省掉這繁文縟節 is for somebody to help us cut through all this red tape.
我可以明確地告訴你 一周之內 I can asure you that not a week goes by
我是不會向總統上報任何事情的 that I don't bring new information and reports to the President.
我們已取得了前所未有的進展 The progress that's been made on this disease is unprecedented.
但這個病會傳染啊 But it's contagious.
你不明白嗎 這是傳染病 Can't you see that because it's contagious,
所以你們得...你們得加快動作嗎 you... you have to work faster?
你真的覺得面對這事 Do you really believe that anybody
研究公共政策的學者不管是對民眾 in a serious public policy position in their heart of hearts
還是在私底下的會議裏 or even in their most closeted meetings
能坦然地說出 says to each other, "Hey, guys,
"這件事大伙別太難過"嗎 let's not get too upset about this"?
是的 你的上司 Yes, your boss
就沒敢大聲地說出"艾滋"這個詞 hasn't said the word "AIDS" out loud.
回答我一個問題 Answer me this one question.
這種病 妓女...妓女會染上嗎 This shit, can... can hookers get it?
或者說 有過一夜情的人 Or, you know, someone who had a one-night stand?
-當然會 -你沒辦法證明這一點 - Of course. - You can't prove that.
就我的理解和我讀的報告而言 I mean, from what I understand, what I've read,
男女之間普通的陰道性交 female-to-male transmissions through normal vaginal intercourse
好像不太能傳染這種病 does not seem to be very efficient.
這種想法顯然是錯的啊 That simply isn't true.
這是種病毒 又不懂歧視 It's a virus, it doesn't discriminate.
是的 但是... Yes, but...
這樣傳染是很難的 不是嗎 it's very difficult. Isn't it?
對於直男而言 It's almost impossible for a straight,
就是指那些普通的異性戀 you know, regular heterosexual guy
是很難染上的 我說的對嗎 to get it, am I right?
-什麼意思 -沒有被證實的案例 是嗎 - I'm sorry? - There's no documented cases, am I right?
沒有一份被證實的案例 There's not a single documented case
顯示異性戀男人染上了這種病吧 of a heterosexual man getting it?
無論是通過陰道性交或者是口交 Not from fucking or a blow job?
我沒聽過這方面的消息 I don't have that information.
太好了 我正是這麼想的 Great, that's what I thought.
蘇珊 打電話給會場 Susan, call my meeting.
說我大概會遲到15分鐘 謝了 I'll be about 15 minutes late. Thanks.
-非常感謝您 -麻煩等等 - Thank you so much. - Wait, please.
-隨時和我聯繫 -先生 等等 - Call me anytime. - Sir. Wait.
大約一億人有危險 100 million predicted
卻沒人在乎這件事 and nobody is paying any attention!
二樓需要保安 Hi, I need security on the second floor.
你為什麼要坐在地上 Why you sitting on the floor?
我想走過來 結果摔倒了 I fell down trying to get from there to here.
別碰我 天吶 Oh, don't touch me! God.
我討厭你看著我 I hate it when you look at me.
你餓了嗎 You hungry?
我餓了 你呢 I'm hungry, how about you?
我想遍了和我約會的人 I looked in all my datebooks.
睡過的人沒有得病的 No one else I slept with is sick.
說不定你才是攜帶者 Maybe you're the carrier.
沒必要這樣對對方吧 We don't have to do this to each other.
你會好起來的 菲利克斯 You're gonna get better, Felix.
你已經在好轉了 You are.
艾瑪說衛生研究院終於開始研究這個了 Emma says the N.I.H. is finally starting research.
-我們得心懷希望 -是嗎 - We have to hope. - Oh, do we?
-是的 -真的嗎 - Yes, we do. - Do we?
那我怎麼才能做到這一點呢 And how am I supposed to do that?
別吃那個鬼東西了 Stop eating that shit!
-給我 -不 - Give it to me. - No!
你得注意均衡補充營養 You know how important it is to watch your nutrition.
我也就能再活個十來分鐘了 I have a life expectancy of 10 more minutes.
我想吃什麼就吃什麼 I'll eat what I wanna eat.
奈德 Ned.
情況越來越糟糕了 知道嗎 It's getting messier. Okay?
我不想讓你看見 I don't wanna make you see it.
沒人能指揮我幹什麼事 Nobody can make me do anything.
你應該比別人更清楚這一點 You should know that better than anybody.
現在 你是打算坐一輩子嗎 Now you gonna sit there on the floor for the rest of your life?
-你沒聽見我說話嗎 -你沒聽見我說話嗎 - Do you hear me? - Do you hear me?
-沒聽見 -沒聽見嗎 - No! - No?
我試過超過40種療法了 沒聽見嗎 I've had over 40 treatments. No?
我做過三種... I've had three...
不對 是四種不同的化療 沒聽見嗎 no, four different kinds of chemo. No!
我試過三種實驗性療法了 I've had three different experimentals.
艾瑪在我身上花費了最多的時間 Emma has spent more time on me than anyone else.
但仍然沒有任何效果 And it hasn't done a thing!
你不能強迫這一切好起來 You cannot force the goddamn sun to come out!
我已經厭倦這些爭鬥了 I am so sick of fighting
厭倦每個人的愚蠢 and everybody's stupidity
盲目 還有愧疚感 and blindness and guilt trips.
你不能吃東西嗎 那就別吃 You can't eat the food? Don't eat the food.
我不在乎 你隨便吃 我不在乎 I don't care. Take your poison, I don't care.
吃魚對你有好處 Fish is good for you.
但你可不想吃這個 是吧 Don't want any of that, do we?
也不吃什麼綠色沙拉 No green salad!
不吃西蘭花 不吃蔬菜 No broccoli! No vegetables!
不吃雜糧麵包 No bread with seven grain!
怎麼會有人想要喝牛奶呢 Why would anyone ever want any milk?
反正你骨頭裏有鈣了 You might get some calcium in your bones!
你想死嗎 菲利克斯 Do you wanna die, Felix?
去死吧 Die!
求你別離開我 菲利克斯 Please don't leave me, Felix.
滾出去 滾出去 Keep out! Keep out!
-滾出去 滾出去 -混蛋 - Keep out! Keep out! - Assholes.
男同健康危機組織 Gay Men's Health Crisis.
沒錯 鵝口瘡是真菌感染 Thrush is a fungus, yes.
請告訴他我們會去那裏示威 Can you tell him that we'll be picketing there
不怕拘捕或者防暴警察 and not afraid of arrest or police brutality.
-男同健康危機組織 -沒錯 - Gay Men's Health Crisis. - That's right.
如果市長不見我們 The mayor has four more hours
那在我們進行非暴力抵抗之前 before we carry out our threats of civil disobedience
他還有四個小時 if he doesn't meet with us.
湯米昨天就接到電話了 奈德 Tommy got the call yesterday, Ned.
你為什麼沒告訴我 Why didn't you tell me?!
你看 我們成功了 You see, it works!
什麼時候 什麼時候 When? When?
只有兩個人能參加會議 奈德 Only two can go to the meeting, Ned.
-什麼時候 -湯米是執行理事 - When? - Tommy's executive director.
我要去 I'm going.
理事會已經投票過了 奈德 I polled the fucking board, Ned.
是我寫信給市長的 我一定要參會 I wrote that letter to the mayor. That meeting is mine.
我要代表這個組織參會 I am going to go and represent this organization
我生命中的每一分鐘都在為之奮鬥 that I have spent every minute of my life fighting for
而且這還是在我的客廳裏成立的 and that was started in my living room
否則我就退出 or I quit.
你們想讓我退出嗎 You'd let me quit?
大家讓我向你宣讀這個 The board asked me to read this out loud to you.
-讀什麼 -一封信 - Read what? - A letter.
開始讀吧 Go on, read it.
我們與理智而有判斷力的人們 "We are circulating this letter widely among people
分享這封信 of judgment and good sense.
我們必須扼止你極度膨脹的自負 You are on a colossal ego trip we must curtail.
你反覆將恐懼強加於我們 To manipulate fear as you have done repeatedly
對我們來說是野蠻的 is to us, sheer barbarism.
你利用男同志的死 To exploit the deaths of gay men as you have done
在全美國的電視和出版物上大做文章 on television and in publications all over America
對我們來說是殘忍的 is to us, an act of vandalism.
在解放多年之後 And after years of liberation,
是你再次將性變得骯髒 you helped make sex dirty again for us...
可怕 還被禁止 terrible and forbidden.
你比任何人 We are more angry at you
都更讓我們憤怒 than ever in our lives toward anyone.
我們認為你想領導我們 We think you want to lead us all.
但是 Well...
我們不願意被你領導 we do not want you to lead us.
根據由威克斯 弗蘭克以及萊文斯坦 In accordance with our bylaws as drawn up by Weeks, Frankel,
起草的規章制度 Levinstein,
奈德·威克斯先生將不再擔任 Mr. Ned Weeks is hereby removed
男同健康危機組織負責人 as a director of Gay Men's Health Crisis.
我們請求你安靜地離開 We beg that you leave us quietly
不要破壞我們 and not destroy us
以及我們無視你反對完成的工作 and what good work we manage despite your disapproval.
即刻生效 Effective immediately."
奈德 Ned.
執行理事不在理事會裏 你知道的 The executive director isn't on the board, you know that.
我無權投票 I don't have a vote.
我還能怎麼做 What could... what could I have done?
-你沒有支持我 -你說錯了 - You didn't support me. - That's not true.
你們就是一群送葬者 You're all nothing but undertakers.
這個組織就是個殯儀館 This whole organization is a funeral parlor.
-奈德 -你們只會關心死人 - Ned... - All you do is take care of the dying.
誰來為生者爭取生存的權利 Who's fighting so the living can go on living?
誰來管我的菲利克斯 Who's fighting for my Felix?
湯米 請到樓上來一下 Tommy. We need you upstairs.
我與馬塞爾·普魯斯特 沃爾特·惠特曼 I belong to a culture that includes Marcel Proust, Walt Whitman,
田納西·威廉斯 亞歷山大大帝 Tennessee Williams, Alexander the Great,
以及不計其數的教皇和紅衣主教一脈相承 so many popes and cardinals you wouldn't believe.
格林·貝雷特先生 你知道嗎 Mr. Green Beret, did you know
促成二戰勝利的 that it was an openly gay Englishman
是一位公開出櫃的英國人 who's responsible for winning World War II?
他叫阿蘭·圖靈 His name's Alan Turing
是他攔截了德國人的密碼 and he cracked the Germans' Enigma code.
戰爭結束後他自殺了 After the war was over, he committed suicide
因為身為同志 他受到了無盡的歧視 because he was so hounded for being gay.
他們怎麼不在學校裏教教這些 Why didn't they teach any of that in schools?
能贏得二戰 多虧了一名同性戀 A gay man is responsible for winning World War II!
要是他們這麼做了 或許他就不會自殺 If they did, maybe he wouldn't have killed himself
你們也不會如此懼怕自己是個怎樣的人 and you wouldn't be so terrified of who you are.
我想這樣被大家記住 That's how I want to be remembered.
帶領大家贏得戰爭的人 As one of the men who won the war.
布魯斯 我知道我是個混蛋 Bruce, I know that I am an asshole.
但請別趕我走 But please don't shut me out.
去吧 Go.
我是你弟弟的戀人 Your brother and I are lovers.
我快死了 想立份遺囑 I'm dying and I need to make a will.
-請坐 -謝謝 - Please. - Thank you.
我想把所有東西都留給奈德 I want to leave everything to Ned.
我弟弟好嗎 How's my brother?
從我一個人的病 到全世界的危機 Well, he blames himself for everything
他都覺得是自己的錯 from my dying to the state of the entire world.
還有你倆仍然互不搭理對方 All that plus you two still not talking.
你一定和他一樣固執 You must be as stubborn as he is.
我這就給他打電話 I'll call him right away.
好的 他在家收拾行李 Do. He's at home packing.
我們過幾天要去耶魯大學 We're going to Yale in a few days.
參加同志周 For Gay Week.
他說他自己都不敢相信這一切 He says he can't believe it.
他剛進校的時候差點想自殺 He tried to kill himself there when he was a freshman.
我沒有太多... I haven't much...
除了在韋爾弗利特海角上的 except for a beautiful piece of land
有一塊美麗的土地 on the Cape in Wellfleet.
奈德不知道這事 Ned doesn't know about it.
這本來是個驚喜 It was to have been a surprise
我們一起遠離喧囂 for when we lived there together
從此在那裏幸福快樂地生活下去 or riding away happily ever after.
我還有份保單 I also have an insurance policy,
跟《時報》簽的 我是《紐約時報》的 uh... with the "Times." I'm a reporter...
一名記者 for "The New York Times."
這本來是要給我的親屬的 It's meant to come to my next of kin.
我怕他們不會把錢給他 I'm afraid they might not give it to him.
要是把他列為受益人 就必須這麼辦 Well, if he's listed as a beneficiary, they must.
你聰明得很 別想得那麼天真 You're smarter than that. Don't be so naive.
我保證 我會努力確保他們照做的 I assure you, I will fight to make sure that they do.
就等你這句話呢 I was hoping you'd say that.
菲利克斯... Felix...
真希望我們能早點見面 I wish we'd met sooner.
我該穿白色的衣服 I should be wearing something white.
你穿著呢 親愛的 You are, honey.
應該...應該是派瑞·艾力斯 It should... it should be something
為我量身定做的 Perry Ellis ran up for me personally.
奈德 Ned?
你想辦法再去爭取 You find a way to fight again.
我會的 I will.
艾瑪 艾瑪... Emma. Emma...?
我們能...我們能開始了嗎 Could we... could we start now, please?
"我們在上帝的注視下聚集於此 "We are gathered here in the sight of God
來見證這兩位男人的結合 to join together these two men.
他們深愛對方... They love each other very much and...
想在親友面前 want to be married in the presence of their family
永結同心 and friends.
沒人反對 I see no objection.
菲利克斯·特納 你願意 Do you, Felix Turner,
-接受奈德·威克斯... -是亞歷山大 - take Ned Weeks... - Alexander. Yeah.
作為你的... To be your...
我的真愛 My great true love.
我願意 I do.
我願意 我願意 I do. I do.
我願意 I do.
我願意 我願意 I do. I do.
我是湯米 This is Tommy.
謝謝你告訴我 Thanks for letting me know.
生日快樂
41位同性戀者突患罕見癌癥
平常心
同性癌癥
這群人有了
奇怪的毛病
就是這個樣子
痘痘一樣的瘀傷 不痛不癢
疹斑一樣的瘀傷
全身各處皆有
《紐約時報》
男同健康危機組織
同性傳播免疫缺陷疾病
男同健康危機組織 聯合創始人
同性權益活動家
總統顧問
雞姦
是
犯罪
基佬 都是 怪物
耶魯同志周
1985年9月17日 羅納德·裏根總統首次在公開場合提及艾滋病 在一次記者招待會上 他稱艾滋病研究是"重中之重"
裏根提議政府撥款資助研究 1986年 在艾滋病方面的開銷減少了11% 截止1986年底 共有24559人死亡
1981年至今 全球共有超過3600萬人死於艾滋病及其並發癥
每天 全球有超過6000人感染艾滋病毒