万物有灵且美
那么，马是非常漂亮，高端大气上档次的物种 so horses are really beautiful, you know, noble, graceful creatures
但是 but
作为一名兽医，我感觉吧 you know, as a veterinarian I've learned that
他们其实是种有点蠢萌的动物 they're really kind of dumb animals
他们总是把自己弄伤，总是不停地生病 like, they always hurt themselves, and they always getting sick
有些时候他们就像是不想活了一样 it's like they don't wanna live sometimes
我的名字是卡琳凯莉 my name is Carlin Kelly
我是在“蓝桥马类诊所”的实习医生 and I'm an intern doctor at Blue Ridge Equine clinic
我去年六月从俄亥俄州立大学的兽医学院毕业 I graduated from vet school at Ohio state, last June
然后我在这里接受一个为期一年的训练 and I'm here for one year training
我住在这个诊所 I live at the clinic
每个星期，我们轮流在医院工作或是做流动工作 and every week, we rotate between hospital duty and abulatory duty
也就是我们去各个农场会诊 which is where we go on farm calls
当我们在医院的时候 when we're on hospital
我们要监护所有我们手术帮助的病患，也要接管诊所里的一些预约 we're in charge of all the patients we help in surgeries, and in the appointments at clinic
我们也要在周末工作时间之后照顾我们的病患 we'also responsible for taking care of the patients after hours on the weekends
呃…当我们外出会诊的时候，我们一般就是跟着其他的医生去别人预约的地方 um, when we're on the ambulatory, we go around most of the time with the other doctors during the day on the appointments
周末的时候我们也要亲自去看急症 and then we see emergenc by ourselves at night on the weekends
我们这里有一份去年所有马的复印名单 so we have a copy of all the horses from last year
这样我们就可以跟踪观察这些马 so that we can keep track of the horse
我们有这些马的名字，年龄，品种，斑纹 cuz, we have to have the name, the age,the breed, their markings
所以我们就是顺着这张表上的名单，找到所有的马 so we're just going by the form, trying to find everybody
是啊，这份工作有的时候挺单调的 yeah, someties this job can be repetitive
就是那些像打疫苗之类的事情 you know there're certain things like vaccines or whatever
就是些比较平淡无奇无聊的事情，然后你总在做这些事 they're just sort of mundane and boring, and you do all the time
但是我觉得这些事情之中其实是有些令人的兴奋的事 but, I mean, there's enough excitement in between that, I think
让我坚持做下去 to keep it going
我每天去不同的农场，也不是每天去一样的地方 I go to different farms everyday, not like you're going to the same place everyday
我们在尝试从这匹马的颈静脉抽血 so we're trying to get blood from their jugular bin
把血运往它的大脑的动脉就在这个颈静脉的下方 the -- artery, which takes blood to the brain, is right below it
只是被几层肌肉隔开而已 just separated by a couple layers of muscles
呃…你最好还是避免碰到动脉 um, you want to try to avoid hitting that
呃…尤其是你在注射药物的时候 um, but especially when you're giving medications insted of needling
你一定要避免注射到动脉中去 you really want to avoid getting into the artery
因为这一定会使马出现癫痫 because it can definitely cause them to have seizures
有的时候马儿们会因此而亡，这真会发生 and sometimes they die, that happens
咋的了？ what?
我觉着吧，我压根儿就没有个人生活 I don't really have a personal life, i would say
我们从早上就开始工作 you know we start work in the morning
而且我们至少工作到晚上六点钟 and we're usually working until at least 6:00 at night
然后，我们晚上又要照顾它们 and then, we have to take care of them in the evening
电话邮箱是在晚上十点钟的时候 the bell mail is 10pm
然后在午夜的时候，会有一个2点钟的治疗阶段要一直持续到第二天上午 and in the midnight, a 2am treatment util the next morning
凌晨两点
平常的一天
我们一般会接到急诊，如果有病得很重的马我们就要工作更长时间 ahh, and then we always have an emergency or there's a really sick horse we have to do more
我在来之前大概就知道这是份什么样的工作 I kind of knew what I was getting myself into
我在家的时候也和兽医一起共事过 I have worked with veterinarian before at home
我和马儿们一起长大，所以我知道一年365天如何去照顾这些马 I grew up with horses,so I know to take care of them as pretty much as 365
在实习的时候，你基本上没什么时间休息 day of the year, you know going into an internship, that you don't really get time off
你大概也会意料到这点 you just sort of expect that
睡得怎么样？ how did you sleep hun?
我好累 I'm tired
没睡好 I didn't sleep very well
起床对你来说很困难吗？ was it hard for you to get up?
不，我已经习惯了 no, I'm used to it
上个星期的时候娜塔莎过来了 so last week Natasha came in
她大概30岁左右的样子 she was approximatelly 30 years old
阿拉伯马，母的，她来这是因为疝气 Arabian horse, mare, she came in for colic
当她过来的时候，她情况很糟 when she got here, she was in pretty bad shape
她腹部中积聚了好多液体 she had a lot of fliud building up on her stomache
这让她相当难受 and that was making her uncomfortable
她的小肠似乎哪里出现了堵塞 there was some sort of obstruction in her small intestines
不让液体通过 just not allowing fluid to go through
马不能呕吐 horses can't vomit
所以当他们肠胃堵塞并且液体堆积在腹部的时候 so when they have an obstruction and build fluid up in the stomache
我们唯一能够在这个堵住的地方破裂之前解决这个问题的办法 the only way we have to get that ail before they rupture
就是往她的鼻子里插一根管子并且一直通到腹部 is to pass a tube through the nostril and into their stomache
我们一般需要往里面灌点水进去 we usually have to pump a littl bit of water
在里面形成一个虹吸状态 and to create a siph in
再让液体排出 and then it usually comes out
大概好多人认为我们做的这些事情都很恶心 probably a lot of people think a lot of things we do are pretty gross
我觉得尤其是马类兽医，可能比狗或者猫的兽医要做更多这种比较恶心的事情 I think it's especially equine veterinarians, maybe even more than just dog and cat veternerian
我已经习惯这些粗活，在这些尘土和毛发之中 you know I'm used to all the manure work, the dirt and the hair and..
我也不知道 I don't know
这些东西就是不让我反感，如果它们真让我反感的话 it just doesn't bother me,if it did bother me
我估计我也不会从事这一职业 I probably wouldn't be in this profession
总而言之，这些令人不太愉快的事情 un, anyway, some of the more unpleasant things
你大概会明白这些事情必须要去做 you just sort of realize, it just has to be done
必须有人去做 someone has to do it
我把我的马从俄亥俄州带来 so i brought my horse with me here from Ohio
我大概是在我念兽医学院的时候领养了这匹马 I sort of acquired him while i was in the vet school
马的原主人不要这匹马的原因是 the reason they're giving him away
这匹马得了一种叫做眼色素层炎的眼疾 because he had a disease in his eye called Uveitis
他又得了青光眼，眼压不断升高 and he developed a glaucoma and increased pressure in his eye
事实上我需要把他这只眼球摘除掉 I actually needed his eye removed
所以我领养了这匹马 so i took him
我们在俄亥俄州立大学做了这个手术 and we did the surgery at Ohio state
所以他只有一只眼睛 so he only has one eye
然后在去年五月我正要毕业之前 and then last May right before I graduated from the vet school
我们给他确诊出了淋巴癌 we actually diagnosed him with lymphoma
所以他现在有癌症了 so now he has cancer
我基本上就是在拖延癌症的发展速度 so basically i've just slowed the cancer down for a while
不能把他治好 it doesn't cure it
但是可以让他舒服一点 but you know, keeping him comfortable
至少现在他可以过一个正常马的生活 and live a pretty normal horse life, for now
嘿，伙计，今天过得怎样？ hey buddy, how're you doing？
他今天看起来有点脏 kind of dirty today
感觉好像在泥巴里打过滚 feels like to have rolled in mud
我不太确定我是什么时候我想成为一名兽医 I'm not sure exactly when i decided i want to be a veternerian
我大概8岁的时候就开始骑马 I started riding horses when I was about eight years old and
我知道我以后想为马做点什么 I knew I want to do something for horses
我从小就对马着迷 I was addicted to horses when i was a kid
我还是跳着芭蕾舞长大的 and I've also grown up during ballet
我跳得蛮认真地 I did it pretty seriuosly
我最后还是拿着舞蹈奖学金去上大学的 and I ended up getting a dance scholarship to go to college
所以我上大学修的是舞蹈专业 so I went to college as a dance major
当时的计划是我应该会学跳舞然后成为一名舞蹈演员 the sort of the plan was i would do dance and be a dancer
然后什么时候我会去上兽医学院 at some point i go to vet school
因为，你也不可能一辈子跳舞 cuz, you don't dance forever, anyway
然后在我上大三的时候我的脚受伤了 and then in my junior year incollege I had an injury to my foot
我做了一个足部手术 and I had a foot surgery
然后我就突然不想再追寻舞蹈事业了 and i just sort of, I decided i don't wann pursue that career anymore
我就想去上兽医学院 and I just wanted to go ahead and go to vet school
这就是我的马，叫Nate so, this is my horse Nate,
他全身通红 he's thorough red
他年轻的时候曾经是一匹赛马 he was a race horse,you know, when he was a younger horse
然后他又做了一段时间表演用马 and he was a show horse for a while
现在他跟着我就不做什么事情了 and now he doesn't really do a whole lot with me
我偶尔还骑骑他 I ride him occasionally
我觉得吧，当过舞者，又受过伤 I think, you know being a dancer, and having an injury
这点绝对帮助我去深刻体会我的病马的感受 definitly helps me to relate to my patients
它们当中好多都是运动员 you know, a lot of them are athletes
也都经受过和我类似的伤，同样的痛苦 you know they experience similar injuries, and similar pain
我觉得我能够理解他们的感受是什么样的 you know, I guess I can sort of have an understanding of what they might be feeling
感觉好吧？嗯？ feel good?hun?
好吧，这感觉不好 okay, it does not feel good
我们住在这个医院的原因是 the reason we live at the hospital is because
是因为我们下班之后也要治疗病患 because we do, do treatments after hours and we're on call
而且我们基本上是一天24小时都要准备接急诊 pretty much 24/7 to take in emergencies
这个就是我的公寓，我住的地方，当我从诊室回来的时候 this is my apartment, where I live, when I'm back from the clinic
我和其他几个实习生一起住在这个公寓 and me and the other intern each other own the apartment
这儿看起来就是这个样 this is what it looks like
我有些希望能够做的事情 there's some things like I wish I could do
我今年刚搬到弗吉尼亚州 you know, I just moved to Virginia this year
有好多东西我都想去看 there's a lot of stuff i like to go and see
我还没有看过弗吉尼亚大学的校园 I still haven't really seen the campus of UVA
就像那样开车过去看看 you know,just sort of driven by
如果能在自己住在这里的时候 it would be nice if i can just sort of go do that sort of things
去做那样的事情就太好了 that what i do when i am living here
但我没什么时间 yeah, but I don't really have time
这里有些照片 these are some pictures
这是我在学校马展时在校骑马队的照片 this is me in college on the riding team on the horse show
这两张照片是我的第一匹马 these two pictures are actually my first horse
这是一张我曾经拿来展出的小马的照片 here's a picture of me and the pony i used on show
好吧 and okay
这有张我狗狗的照片 here's a picture of my dog
那是我和我最好的朋友的照片 that is the picture of me and my best friend
她和我一起上兽医学院 she went to vet school with me
我想说我现在大部分朋友其实都是兽医 I mean I would say most of my friends now are veterinarians
都是些我们一起上学的同学 you know ,like classmates that i went to school with
在兽医学院，你总是那么的忙 you know in vet school , you are so busy and...
我想说有时候你生命中的其他人并不完全知道 I would say that sometimes other people in your life don't necessarily
你在兽医学院到底再经历什么还有你为什么总是没时间 understand what you're going through in vet school and why you are never available
为什么你总是很累 and why you're always tired
为什么你总是要去学习 and why you always have to study
然后你总是没时间去做一些事情 and you don't have time for this
我觉得你是会觉得和生命中的其他人有一定的距离感 and I think you do sort of feel a little bit of separation from those other people in your life
而你会和你兽医学院的那些同学走的很近 and you get closer, you know, to your vet school friend
因为你们在一起经历同样的事情 because, just, you're all going through it together
在我去兽医学院之前我觉得 before i went to vet school, you know, like
哦~，马真漂亮真可爱 oh, horrses're just so pretty, they are so nice
你总是 you're always like..
我觉得就是你看马的角度会不太一样 i think you just look at them differently
我觉得在兽医方面更富有经验之后 and I guess you become a little more hardened
现在再来看这不过就是另外一匹马而已 you know now, all that it's just another horse, like
我也不清楚，它们就在你眼中变得不一样了 I don't know, they become, they become different, definitely
你对于安乐死的观点 your views on euthanasia
和这之类的事情一定会在上了兽医学院之后改变 that sort of things definitely change after vet school
我对于安乐死的第一次经历是对我自己的马 I mean the first experience I had with euthanasia was when I was with my own horse
当我还只是个孩子的时候 when i was my a kid
她病了好些时间了 you know, she had been sick for a while
她有慢性的疝气 she was chronically having colic
我们把她往医院送了无数次 you know, we sent her to the hospital for numerous times
所以，最终就是，她的时候也该到了 you know, finally, this is time
当是你自己的马的时候，这是有些难受 you know, this is definitely pretty hard, you know when it's your own horse
我记得我在兽医学院在接受的马的安乐死的第一个案例 I guess my first euthanasia like in vet school, um, of a horse
是一个和钱有关的案例 was, was a money case
就是那种情况 it was, you know, that situation
我们都讨厌那种马需要做手术的情况 you know that, that we all hate where's a horse that needed surgery
这匹马的病是可以通过手术治愈的 and it had a fixable problem
可能会有我们不确定能不能够修复的风险 you know, there would've been complications and risks associated that wasn't for sure
但是这个治好的概率还是挺大的 that we could fix, but there was a pretty good chance
如果马的主人愿意出七千到一万美金的话我们应该就可以救治这匹马 that if they were willing to spend, you know, 7 to 10 thousand dollars so that we could save the horse
但是，这超出马主人的承受范围了 um, but, you know that was out side of their budget
所以，我们不得不把这匹马用安乐死放倒了 so, you know, we had to put the horse down
这感觉太不好了 that sucked, that was hard
尤其是当你在学校的时候 you know, especially when you're in school
你在大学中可以做任何事情的时候 when you're in the university where you can do everything
你想做一切你能做的事情 you want to do everything that you can
作为兽医，我们尽量不通过我们的客户对于安乐死的决定 you know, as veterinarians, we try not to judge our clients
对他们乱下评论 you know on their decisions euthanasia
这不是我们的工作 that's, it's not our job
从道德上来讲，也不该我们评判 also, ethically, it's not our place
有的时候这事有些压抑 you know sometimes this is kind of depressing
当你没钱的时候 you know when you have no budget cases on the road
你最终决定让马安乐死 where,you know,you end up euthanasing on and
就好像是，为什么… it's just like, why..
为什么我要做这样的事情 why am I doing this
我们连这些马都救不了 we can't even save these horses
尤其是当你有时候 especially if you have a case
什么办法都在那匹马上尝试了 where you do everything possible on the horse
但是那匹马还是死了 still dies anyway
然后你就觉得 and you're like
救它的意义到底是什么，为什么 what, what's the point, why
为什么我们要这么做 why do we even do this
为什么我们还要麻烦自己去尝试 why do we even bother
当你有那些好的时候 you know when you have good moments to that sort of
就是你真的把马治好了的时候 you know when you do fix the horse
你在围着那匹马辛苦工作两个礼拜 and you do spend, you know, two weeks, you know, working really hard on the patient and
然后它健健康康地回家了 and they go home, and they do well
就是这样的时刻能够弥补前面那种情况的失落 so that sort of, you know, makes up for it
我们作为实习生大部分时候就是站在旁边协助别的医生做手术 yeah the interns, we just kind of mostly stand watching and assist with the surgery
有的手术可能我们会做的多一点 some surgery we get to do more than others, so it really depends on the surgery
这个手术就只有这么小一块地方 this one was just a small field in there
只是个一个人做的手术而已 it's really just one person job but
但是其他一些手术我们就可以做得更多 some of the other surgeries we get to do more
我挺喜欢我在这里的时光 I love my time here at Blue Ridge
这是个极佳的学习和工作的地方 it's a great place to work and to learn
在其他的一些地方他们只会把实习生当成是便宜的劳动力 at some places they see interns just sort of as cheap labor
但是这里的人们真的愿意花时间来教你 but the people here, they really do take the time to teach you
真的给予你知识 and to sort of share their knowledge with you
他们希望你能出去当一个更好的医生 and they want you to come out being a better doctor
事实上我上周刚接受了一份工作机会 so actually i just accepted a job offer last week
在一个叫做弗吉尼亚马类诊所的项目 at a practice enrichment called Virginia Equine
这是个专做马类流动救助的地方 it's an all equine ambulatory practice
所以我不会做任何医院的工作 i won't be doing any hospital work
我会不断出去到农场上 I will be just going out on farms
离开这我当然会很难过 I will definetely be sad to leave
不过再也不用两点钟起来会诊让我很激动 although I will be excited to not to do treatments two'o clock in the morning anymore
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