his hands reached out underneath the
blanket
we had tried so hard to keep our
distance
but as the weather grew colder we
couldn't help but move
closer until finally we found
each other in the night who could have
known that would be the night i realized
that i was in love with my stepbrother
i was 10 years old when my dad remarried
another woman
who had a son named dan from her
previous marriage
she seemed nice enough but i could never
get along with her son
hell i never even referred to dan as my
stepbrother
he was just another person who lived in
the house we would barely speak and when
we did
we fought like crazy even though i knew
it wasn't fair
i couldn't help but feel like his mum
had taken away my dad from my mom
so i never forgave him for that it
wasn't until
i got my driver's license that we
started properly talking
my dad had asked dan to help me out with
the car in the garage
it was the first time i couldn't help
but notice the way his hair framed his
face
and whenever he looked straight at me i
would blush like crazy
i didn't understand this feeling at all
except
all i knew was that the hatred i once
held for my stepbrother was now replaced
with a
deep longing susie
sue help i'm stuck
i snapped out of my trance when i
realized that his foot had gotten stuck
on the car oh no here
give me your hand we quickly yanked his
foot out but
before i could even say another word he
pulled me close to him
i couldn't help but freeze my heart felt
like it was going to burst
out of my chest
we stood there for what felt like hours
when he slowly reached down and caressed
my neck
causing my breath to hitch i didn't know
what came over me when i reached up for
my step-brother's lips
he quickly turned his face and backed
away from me sue
don't he said before walking back into
the house
leaving me standing in the garage alone
what did i just do
i was so worried dan would tell my dad
or my stepmom that had just tried to
kiss him
what would they think of me what does he
think of me
but as i walked in no one said anything
so i quietly went into my room and tried
to calm myself down
later that night i gathered the courage
to talk to my stepbrother
i needed to make sure we were okay
because i couldn't bear the thought that
i had
just ruined our family but before i
could even say a word he asked me to sit
down and said
susie what happened really caught me off
guard because
honestly i thought you hated me i wasn't
ready
i i'm so sorry dan
he then placed his hand on mine while i
stared at him when he reached down
and cupped my face pulling me in for a
hug
i wanted nothing more than to kiss him
at that moment
but i didn't want to make a fool out of
myself for the second time
after that night our relationship went
kind of dormant for a month
we would often steal looks from across
the dinner table but dan would always
make sure we were never alone together
and he spent a lot of time with his
friends i mean
we were step siblings for god's sake i
knew we could never
act on how much we wanted each other
still
i couldn't help but feel hurt from his
distance
so i had no choice but to try and get
rid of my feelings
and i was able to almost push them away
until
our yearly winter trip to korea to see
my dad's family
my grandmother's house was a lot smaller
than our house in the u.s
so my stepbrother and i were forced to
share a room together
i tried to hide how nervous i was but i
could feel the blood
rising in my cheeks how would i survive
a whole night alone
with dan i thought my feelings were
finally gone
but they had only grown stronger that
night
i'd laid there trying to calm my nerves
i could feel dan's soft breath
next to me i wondered what he was
thinking about
and if he ever thought about me
but the silence kept getting stronger
until finally
i felt dan get up and move right next to
me
without saying a word he caressed my
cheek
i couldn't help myself and pulled him to
me we finally had some privacy and were
able to express how we felt
dan i i love you
i love you so much i know this is wrong
but i can't stop how i feel please
before i could say another word
dan kissed me passionately it was
utter bliss we explored each other for
hours and
i never wanted this night to end until i
locked eyes with my dad
standing in the doorway
what are you guys doing stop
stop dan and i jumped apart so fast
how long had he been standing there for
my dad didn't say another word but
instead
slammed the door my heart was beating so
loudly in my chest we were so lost in
each other that we didn't even
hear my dad open the door i knew one of
the worst conversations in my life would
take place
soon i looked at dan who was as white as
paper
what were we going to do what would our
parents think
i couldn't even imagine what they were
going to say but i knew it was going to
be bad
nervously walked downstairs to where our
parents were sitting waiting
for us
dad i we
stop both of you sit down
how long has this been going on i know
this is unconventional and
how disappointed you must be in me but
i'm
in love with susie and i have been for a
long time
i know we are step siblings but i've
never seen her that way
please please understand and you
susie why would you do this to us
i love him dad i love him more than i
have
ever loved anyone in my life i've tried
everything to stop how i am feeling but
i can't
suzie can you and dan please leave us
alone for a moment
i need to speak with your father after
my stepmom said that
dan and i left the room i could feel my
heart in my stomach
and the fear was building in me
it felt like a lifetime waiting in the
front door and just
as the fear was about to eat me up dan's
hand reached out and
softly touched mine susie no matter what
happens
know that i truly love you choking back
on my tears i whispered back
i love you too more than anything but
before we could say anything else
my stepmom opened the door and pulled
dan in for a hug
she then turned to me and said that if
we truly loved each other more than
anything in this world then we'd done
nothing wrong
and there was no need to worry our
parents would support our love no matter
what
because even if they didn't like the
idea of us being together
in the end they wanted nothing more than
for us to be happy
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so thanks to our parents support
we've been together for over 10 years
and now with twins on the way
i can truly say that we are just as in
love with each other as we were in the
beginning
dan and i may have started off as step
siblings but
we were destined to become soul mates
the most
important lesson i've learned from this
experience is that you cannot stop who
you love
no matter what society says or things
because
in the end love will always win
you