I've been looking around for a new place.
Might be able to lock down something swanky with a roommate
- to share costs. - Are you kidding?
- Hell yeah! - All right!
So, housewarming.
I'll handle the margaritas,
- you handle the music. - Sure.
Hey, Hondo, you got someone to cover for me tomorrow?
Erika could cover for you. Rocker's team has tomorrow off.
- She'd be down for it. - You think this is the
white supremacist group the Imperial Dukes?
That's my worry.
These aren't just smash-and-grabs.
They're coordinated hate crimes.
The guy I arrested yesterday was wearing
- the same kind of bandana. - Abel McConnell
was spotted entering the compound about 40 minutes ago.
Give me two!
Shots fired! Coming from the attic.
Guten Tag, Chris. What's up?
Hey. Are you okay?
She's dead.
Whoa, what are you talking about? Who's dead?
Erika.
Erika Rogers? What happened, Chris?
It all went down so fast. During the raid...
...a bullet winged Tan.
I'm hit!
I'll cover you. Go, go!
Erika and I brought him out safe.
He's okay.
Suspect down. Clear for entry.
You okay? Hey.
I think I was hit, too.
We didn't know Erika got hit until just after.
It was an armor-piercing round from the shooter.
All units...
58-David is down.
I repeat, 58-David is down.
We've lost Erika Rogers.
Over.
Dear God.
Hondo, call FID, tell 'em we have an officer down.
I'll call Chief Rivera.
I have to notify Officer Rogers's next of kin
before the press leaks it.
Roger that, Commander.
Commander.
Alonso, what are you doing?
You're gonna tell Erika's sister.
I want to come with you.
You need to go back to the scene.
This is an officer-involved shooting.
You and the team have to talk to FID before anyone else.
Please, Commander.
I'm sorry. Go back.
That's an order.
I'm sorry to lay this on you, but they got us separated.
There's no one here for me to talk to.
I think I'm freaking out.
No, I'm glad you called me.
Did you tell Deac yet?
Hondo called him right after we finished with FID.
I don't know what to do.
We've never lost a teammate before.
SWAT doesn't lose officers.
Man, I wish I could be there for you right now.
Please stay on the phone with me.
I'm here as long as you need me.
I'm not going anywhere.
The chief and I extend our deepest sympathies
to you and your family.
An assistance officer will be here shortly
to help you make arrangements.
What's her sister's name?
Latasha. She's Officer Rogers's
only next of kin in the city.
Chief Rivera, it should be me. I should tell her.
Are you sure, Commander?
Yes, sir.
Okay. I'll follow your lead.
All right.
Ms. Rogers...
Oh, my God. No.
- Ma'am... - No.
I regret to inform you that your sister died
- in the line of duty earlier today. - No, please.
No!
I'm so sorry, Latasha.
- Please... - The chief and I extend
our deepest sympathies to you and your family.
No...
I've gone on record befores. Saying that money's going
to all the wrong places in this city.
In all her infinite wisdom...
That was quite a service this morning, Commander.
Glad to see Officer Rogers's extended family
came in from Houston.
They could see cops from as far as New York to Maryland attended.
We're gonna have a plaque in honor of her memory
- and service here at HQ. - That's a great gesture.
I came to tell you that FID's finished its investigation
of 20-Squad's raid.
Our union rep's delivering their report by the end of today.
Any sense how it's looking for us?
I haven't heard either way.
City Councilman Dudley's
been criticizing SWAT pretty hard
the past few days.
A civilian and a Black female officer killed.
- It's horrible optics. - I get that.
And we're examining everything on our end.
It's a tragedy we all feel personally.
In politics, tragedies provide opportunity.
Dudley's running for mayor.
And after the past summer's unrest,
the mayor is in the hot seat.
People want reform. That includes LAPD
- and city hall. - Some people want sincere reform,
- others just want a power grab. - Either way,
the public may demand a pound of flesh.
We train the right way.
We do things the right way.
Let's hope the FID report clears your officers.
Nichelle, hey.
Hey. You working today?
They got us on desk duty until the FID report comes back.
Well, I won't keep you.
We really don't get to speak much these days.
I haven't seen you stop by the community center lately.
Just wanted to check in,
see how the funeral went.
The team's taking it pretty hard,
but we're all showing up.
And how about you?
I don't know, I'm, uh...
still processing.
Well, I know you're trying to get better at opening up.
If you want to talk, you know where to find me.
I do. Thank you, Nichelle.
Heard the FID report's coming out today.
Keep your head up.
Thanks, man.
Rocker... I am so sorry about Erika.
She was a great team member.
You know, curious, great spirit.
Constantly asking questions.
She admired you, Hondo.
Looks like you're retracing your steps from the raid?
I'm doing what I can.
I have no idea what that report's gonna say, so...
I just want to make sure that I remember
how everything went down...
in case I got to defend my decisions.
Here.
David, I know it's not the best time to ask, but...
- do you need to go back? - Yeah.
I'm the only member of the squad that's cleared for field duty,
so I have to go back if we get a call.
I mean, to SWAT. Period.
Are you open to leaving?
You mean retiring?
Annie, I'm a year away from collecting my pension.
Yeah, but private security's going so well.
You've got great benefits.
And if you did that full-time, you'd still have a great job
that you love, and you wouldn't be
in this kind of danger all the time.
Can we talk about this later?
What if later is too late?
If you were there three days ago,
that might have been your funeral instead of Erika's.
You don't know that.
Where does that put me and the kids?
I can't do all this without you.
I don't ever want to.
I'm sorry, this morning at the service,
it's just, things got too real.
Just quit while you're ahead.
We'll talk tonight.
Unless you get too busy with work.
I got to go. I'm sorry.
Okay.
Jim, your backpack.
Thank you.
You didn't say a word the whole drive in.
Sorry, I'm just not feeling very talkative.
We all knew Erika, worked with her...
She meant a lot to all of us.
- Especially Chris. - I understand all that.
But there's something else.
You've been tossing in your sleep.
Normally, that means you're nervous about something.
Look, don't worry about me.
Okay?
See you later?
Okay. I love you.
Love you, too.
Alonso. Need a word with you.
Listen, until the FID report comes back,
everybody's benched and on desk duty.
But you personally still haven't been cleared to return to HQ.
- Why not? - Dr. Hughes hasn't signed off
on your psych eval.
Well, that's crap. I'm fine.
She wants to see you again.
Said she has some reservations.
Reservations? Like what, exactly?
I'm not the shrink.
But maybe you living with Erika is a factor.
And until the issue's resolved
to the satisfaction of the doc,
I have to abide by her recommendations.
Understood, Commander.
Guys, focus!
Durham, monkey grip, man.
Why they call 'em "monkey bars." Let's go!
Thanks for letting me stand in for you,
supervise the candidates.
Well, if you're gonna be on desk duty,
might as well be of some use.
- What round are they on? - Ten.
Let's go, Malhotra. Get up there.
Stop this.
What are you two doing?
Trying to be the best versions of ourselves.
It's a rhetorical question, man.
You're both trying to make it onto SWAT, okay?
You think this is hard, wait till you get out in the field.
It can be, uh... it can be rough.
And we need to know
you can deal with that. You guys got it?
It's not rhetorical. You guys got it?
- Yes, sir. - Yes, sir.
Let's go.
Hey, Durham,
listen, I know you're tired.
Don't think of that as weight.
Think of that as a life.
All right? It's mental.
You get over that wall, they survive.
Calibrate. Let's go. You can do it.
Copy that, will do. Thanks, Sergeant Kay.
Let's go.
- Riding them pretty hard. - Shouldn't I?
Thought we were gonna ease up the last week of SWAT school.
It's not that kind of week.
Chris. I know you wanted to see me again, but, uh,
I think I deserve to be back in HQ with the rest of my team.
I have reservations.
I learned that you personally lobbied for Erika
to fill in on 20-Squad the day that she got killed.
I want to make sure you don't have any self-condemnation
or guilt about that.
I appreciate it, Doc, but I'm good to go.
I don't need another psych eval.
You two were roommates. I, uh, I imagine
you were very close.
We just moved into that place.
And all of her belongings are still at your apartment.
You see them every time you go back home.
How does that make you feel?
You haven't been back home since Erika was killed.
Is that right?
Does any of that really matter?
Where have you been spending your nights?
- At my uncle's house. - Chris.
You need to go home.
Why? This is home.
And I'm here, and I can help my team
back out in the field once the FID report drops.
Who's gonna pack up Erika's belongings?
How are you supposed to move on?
In order to deal with this,
you need to go back to where you live.
And if that means it takes more time, so be it,
but I can't sign off on you
until you can process this situation.
Do you understand what I'm telling you?
Yeah.
I got it.
Good. Come talk to me tomorrow.
I want to help you through this.
Do you have anything to help me sleep?
Yo, Deac.
Listen, um,
I was hoping you could help me out with something.
Sure. What do you need?
FID did a walk-through of the Imperial Dukes' compound,
but I want to do one of my own,
and I could really use a pair of fresh eyes on it.
FID's report comes out later today.
What difference does it make if you and I walk it?
I need to know that the team did everything right.
You, uh, you clear this with Hicks?
Yeah. Look, we can take two cars
just in case you get called into the field.
Deacon, you weren't there, man.
It was tough to see.
And I want to make sure we did everything right by Erika.
Yeah, of course. Whatever you need.
Appreciate you.
The way we entered, in tight formation,
it was our best approach given the intel that we had.
No, I know the four-side entry made sense.
It gave you cover on the approach.
But a breach from the front
might have prevented McConnell from fleeing upstairs.
You've already studied this place on your own.
Yeah. I read everyone's after action reports.
Did a virtual walkthrough of the crime scene.
Just to get the facts. It's nothing personal.
I'm not auditing your work.
But you think I did something wrong.
No, it's... it's not that clear.
Deacon, when we breached, I had to pick between
two different approaches based on limited intel.
If you were team leader,
would you have made the other call?
Doesn't matter.
Neither option was 100% safe.
The fact is another approach could have been utilized,
and FID might use that against us.
Because they have the benefit of having all the information now.
I know it's hard waiting on an FID decision.
But nothing you or I do at this point
is gonna affect the outcome of their investigation.
Maybe we can do something other than play
Monday morning quarterback.
The white nationalists who killed Erika...
The Imperial Dukes... They're a terrorist group
that operates through independent cells
made up of four to eight members.
Now, we've already taken down four of them,
but I can't shake the feeling that there's more out there.
And to find them, I want to search every inch of this place.
Maybe we can get a lead on more members.
Possibly another cell.
From what I've read, the Imperial Dukes
pervert Christian beliefs.
They claim they're fighting a holy race war
that's happening everywhere in the shadows.
With their pop culture references,
- their dog whistle tactics... - They see any kind of change,
any shift in power, as a threat.
Deacon, if we had come from this direction,
we would have breached the house from the front.
And we might have been able to keep McConnell
from going up those stairs.
And we would have seen that some of these shell casings
were for armor-piercing rounds.
Hondo, it's tough to tell from these.
You didn't know what you were fully up against
until Erika took a 5.56 to the chest.
Anything else you learn from your deep dive earlier?
I get why everyone's on edge,
but y-you don't normally second-guess yourself like this.
I don't normally get one of my own killed.
It was your bullet that hit Abel McConnell.
You killed the guy that killed Erika.
You're the one that took him out.
That's got to give you some solace.
It doesn't.
Wait a minute.
What?
Target positions. The cover pattern.
The dimensions of the alley. I know this layout.
This training course is exactly like one at Pendleton.
It's a carbon copy, man.
Whoever built this might have served
in the Marines around the same time I did.
I'm sure the feds picked up on that?
No, no, don't be so sure, Deac.
Pendleton updates its courses every few years.
This is an old layout.
Whoever built it served when I did.
- Sounds like a lead. - You're damn straight.
Been working off Hondo's theory.
None of the four Imperial Dukes we took down three days ago
served in the Marines.
So if none of these guys built the training course,
our builder's still out there.
Started a profile on our suspect.
Cross-checked white males in their 40s with carpentry skills
against Marine Corps enrollment for L.A. County.
That description doesn't exactly narrow things down.
Almost 2,000 guys fit the bill.
But I found something that might help us. Look.
Erika's funeral wasn't the only one scheduled for today.
Abel McConnell, the Imperial Duke who killed Erika,
- his funeral's this afternoon. - The FBI is already
staking out the small group expected to turn out in person,
but this funeral is also being livestreamed.
If we can get a warrant, we can stake it out electronically.
Anyone who's attending could be an Imperial Duke
or our course builder.
I'm tired of it, and so is the city council.
This isn't the first time our mayor has made Los Angeles
front-page news for all the wrong reasons.
There was a period of time two year...
I just came from city hall.
How's the mayor taking him politicizing a tragedy?
She didn't say.
She does want me to notify her
about the FID report as soon as it comes in.
Well, that's an interesting way of saying she's got our backs.
The mayor's in a tough spot.
Some people are calling for her to resign.
So SWAT's being used in a political chess match,
and she's already thinking about how to protect herself?
By sacrificing one of my pieces?
She's a politician. Erika's death affects her, too,
in a different way.
It takes a certain kind of officer
to go through Erika's death three days ago,
and then show up here the same day of her funeral.
They're not pawns. They're human beings.
The mayor knows what you all went through that day.
She doesn't want FID's report to be a problem
any more than you do.
I can think of someone who does.
If you can fast-track that warrant,
we'll be ready to observe from our end.
All right. Thanks, Agent Carr.
Sergeant Kay.
Hey, I just wanted to say I appreciated that pep talk
out there this morning. This has been the toughest week yet.
I'm glad I could help.
Listen, keep pushing yourself, finish strong,
you'll be out in the field soon.
Hey, look, I know it's not my place,
but I get what happened out there.
And I feel for what you and your team are going through right now.
Thank you. It's been tough.
I just think that, with who you are,
if you would've been there,
things could've panned out differently.
They really missed your leadership that day.
- Appreciate that. - Yeah.
Durham's making the strongest case so far.
Just ahead of Malhotra.
Yeah. Kid's got a good heart.
He's just got to keep his head down.
How you holding up?
I've been organizing food for Erika's extended family.
I had to help them. I just needed something positive
to put my mind to the past few days.
Late night, been going to the gym,
hitting the bag till my arms give out.
It's the only way I can get any sleep.
Sounds like you're heading in the right direction.
Yeah. Yeah, thanks for checking on me, Deac.
I hope we can all get out in the field together soon.
Pretty sure that's what Erika would want.
Aside from justice.
Yeah. God willing, it works out that way, huh?
Let me know if you need anything.
Yeah. I will.
How many people out there... Lawyers, grocers, mechanics...
Moonlight as white nationalists?
They just look like regular people.
That's what's frightening.
Six people are attending in person.
78 logged on remotely.
Anything on our anonymous attendees?
Looking at 'em.
Ten of them are using VPNs to hide their identities.
Now, I thought that seemed a little too high-tech
for our builder at first.
It could also mean that he's getting help from other Imperial Dukes.
Okay, wait a minute. This could be something.
One of the client ISPs is registered to Landon McBride.
He's a former Marine.
Two tours in Afghanistan.
And he was at Pendleton
when that same training course was up, Deac.
Received a dishonorable discharge, and he's got a jacket.
Prior for a felony unlawful use of a weapon,
and he's got an outstanding warrant for the assault.
Gives us a reason to talk to him.
That's his last known address.
I'm still on desk duty, Deac. I can't roll on this, just you.
All right, I'll grab a patrol officer.
I'll call you from the house.
I'll check McBride's tax records,
see what they turn up.
Ma'am. I'm Sergeant Kay, LAPD.
Looking for Landon McBride.
I kicked him out four months back.
What'd he do now?
We've got reason to believe that he helped some people
murder a police officer three days ago.
My God.
Does this have anything to do with that online group he joined?
Possibly. Did he ever refer to it by name?
Did he ever mention a group called the Imperial Dukes?
No. Look, I'm sorry, I want to help,
but I broke off all contact with him
after he assaulted a protester.
But it sounds like he escalated.
Got worse over the last few months.
You have any idea where he might be?
Any friends or colleagues he's hanging out with?
He leave anything behind?
No, I tossed all his crap.
His drafting table, schematics.
- Your boyfriend was a builder? - Ex-boyfriend.
He was all right until he got laid off last year.
Told me he was pushed out in favor of other people.
Said new hiring quotas discriminated against him.
I'm sure it was a bit more complicated than that,
but Landon is a simple man.
I'm guessing he went down the rabbit hole after that?
Yeah. Wasn't long before he found that online group.
They fed his anger,
forced some ugly tattoos on him and...
well, pushed him down a darker path.
That laptop.
It's a few years old.
- You two share it? - Yeah.
His account's password protected, though.
I don't know it.
Hey, Chris, what's up?
I know it's late there. I shouldn't have called. My bad.
You talk to Dr. Wendy today?
Yeah. We got a path laid out.
Gonna try it again tomorrow.
Good. Means you're heading in the right direction.
Are you okay, Chris? Where are you?
I'm outside of my apartment. In the hallway.
You're stalling.
You've got to go in and pack Erika's stuff.
And as hard as it is, You've got to handle it.
I know you learned some German when you were in K-9.
You know, I've been hanging out with these guys
that have been teaching me single German words
that actually mean full sentences in English. It's wild.
- Kopf hoch. - Yeah.
It means, uh, to keep your head held high.
That's right. It made me think of you.
'Cause you always keep your head up, Chris.
Now, come on.
You got this.
Got McBride's tax records.
He's a freelance contractor.
Hired to work four construction sites in the last quarter.
Put out a BOLO, unis see him at any of the sites, we'll know.
His girl's laptop give us anything?
FBI got us into McBride's account.
He's definitely been taking pointers
from someone who's tech savvy.
He's tried to cover his tracks by drafting.
Puts messages in a folder,
allows recipients to log in and read 'em. Look.
Which means there's no send receipts.
But some of the unsent drafts should still be recoverable.
Like messages from his other job.
Building things for the Imperial Dukes.
McBride suggested identical building plans
for two other training courses.
So there's potentially two more Imperial Duke cells out there.
Even though none of these messages have been sent,
can we find out who read 'em?
Well, there's at least one person with a login.
Could be the person coordinating the cells.
- Imperial Dukes leader? - Possibly.
I'll have the Feds do a deep dive on the unidentified login.
BOLO got a hit on McBride.
Just got a call from a patrol unit
sitting on a site in City of Industry.
Saw McBride show up, then rabbit.
You better hurry, 'cause it's an active high-speed chase now.
- Take Rocker with you, Deac. - We'll get him for you, Hondo.
Not for me, Deac. For Erika.
Good work, Rocker.
Forcing him north keeps him in
the industrial park, away from the freeway.
Hondo, he's heading east
on a frontage road.
Roger that, Deac. We got eyes in the air.
Rocker,
there's a switchback up ahead.
- It loops around to the south. - Copy that.
Whoa... Hey!
Nice work, guys. He's hemmed in.
Suspect's fleeing. We're in foot pursuit.
Freeze! LAPD!
There's a residential neighborhood to the north.
You got to stop him before he gets to any civilians.
He's in the camper up ahead.
Now, he might have barricaded himself inside, so be careful.
Landon McBride, LAPD SWAT.
Come on out, right now. Hands in the air.
Real slow.
Hondo, cops on the scene found designs of the Imperial Dukes'
training course in McBride's truck.
That might explain why he thought
running from the police was worth it.
- You guys copy that? - Loud and clear, Hondo.
Drop your phone, put your hands behind your head
and get on your knees. Do it now.
Don't my rights matter?
Doesn't my life matter?
Erika Rogers' life mattered.
Oh, the Black chick cop.
Yeah, I heard about that.
You built a training course for white nationalists.
I'm proud of my heritage.
That isn't a crime. At least not yet.
Your friends shot and killed a police officer.
That's aiding and abetting domestic terrorism.
Face down, on the ground,
now.
He's not saying anything.
Because he doesn't think he needs to.
He doesn't need to help himself
because, in his mind, the Imperial Dukes are gonna win
whatever war they're trying to fight.
He's a soldier and this is the sacrifice he's making
for the same lost cause.
We've got the FBI looking to identify
the other hidden login from McBride's e-mail.
Whoever this person is, they are intelligent and cautious.
If it's the Dukes' leader organizing all this,
then we're gonna find him.
But let's stay in the loop with the Feds
and be ready to make a move as soon as they get a solid lead.
Roger that.
Listen, um...
I'm sorry about earlier, at the compound.
I undermined you by double-checking the raid.
No, Deac. You didn't. It's your duty as a sergeant
to see if you could have done it better three days ago.
Or at least know better for the next raid.
It kills me that I was on that school tour
and not with you and the team.
Everyone's dealing with this in their own way, man.
No one's exempt.
FID report's in.
Hey, Ed, what do we got?
Commander. I supposed you want to read their ruling?
"In regards to the events in question,
"Force Investigation Division finds 20-Squad's actions
"to have been within policy.
"It hereby gives no recommendation for discipline
"in the planning or execution of the raid
"resulting in the deaths of suspect Abel McConnell
and Officer Erika Rogers."
All right, so we're approved for field duty again?
Well, Alonso still needs to earn clearance
from Dr. Hughes, but the rest of you
are officially on call.
- What is it, Commander? - There's more.
"It is, however, our opinion that other strategies
"could have been utilized in the raid.
"Alternative actions may have produced
different results, and loss of life may have been averted."
You got to be kidding me.
They're leaving us in a gray area.
Sir, even with other strategies available,
they know that there was nothing that could have guaranteed success.
Hondo's right, Commander.
This clears the team.
Lieutenant Lynch is on her way.
We may have been cleared technically,
but according to the mayor, not politically.
So what happens now?
I think another shoe's about to drop.
Honestly, even with FID clearing us,
it doesn't make Erika's death any easier.
Or maybe it's not supposed to.
It finally hit me.
She's gone, man. Forever.
Part of me still doesn't want to accept it.
Listen...
after I lost Nate, it was brutal.
I found out that grief doesn't go away.
It stays.
Some days it's heavier than others.
But hopefully, on those heavy days
you got people beside you that can help lighten the load.
Shockingly insightful for a guy like you.
Well, Dr. Hughes said that last part.
I'm just filling you in.
I guess we should be thankful we can keep doing our jobs.
Tell the people we care about how important they are.
- Yeah. - All right.
Although SWAT was cleared,
the possibility the team could have done things differently
and avoided two people getting killed
is enough to increase pressure on the mayor.
Hondo made the best of two imperfect choices.
There was no risk-free option.
Doesn't matter. Not now.
The death of one of our few African-American
female officers is not a good look.
Is that what this is all about?
How it looks?
We just lost a colleague. A friend.
I'm sorry, but the mayor wants a scalp.
And it needs to be someone on the team
or someone in command that suggests accountability.
I'm not happy delivering the message.
But you agree with it.
No. But that's the message.
And I'll leave it up to you to decide who it is, Commander.
I'm not giving you anyone from the team.
So...
...I guess the scalp will have to be mine.
What's going on in here?
Sounds like I have to resign.
Like hell you do.
Hondo, this is political fallout we're facing.
The mayor's hand is being forced.
Lieutenant, Commander Hicks isn't responsible for anything
that happened three days ago.
No offense, but this is way above your pay grade, Sergeant.
Is it?
Let me tell you something, Lieutenant.
The men and women who take risks in the field...
We live in a completely different world
than the politicians who criticize us.
We are constantly thrown into situations
where there is a one percent chance
of things going horribly wrong.
That's duly noted.
Well, you put us in those situations often enough,
that one percent is gonna come up,
and it came up three days ago.
The mayor can pretend all she wants
that it's a problem with leadership,
but I promise you, on everything I am,
that game could backfire on her ass.
Excuse me?
Hicks stays or I go.
And the first place I'm gonna go is to the L.A. Times
and I'm-a talk about the real systemic problems
within the LAPD that she,
the commission and the union still ignore.
And I imagine they might even want
to run my picture with it.
I imagine this'll be a tough conversation with the mayor.
Maybe we need to have more tough conversations.
I know we haven't always seen eye to eye,
but I admire the stances you've both taken here.
It's admirable.
And frustrating.
You didn't have to do that.
Yes, I did.
Hang on a second, Latasha.
Thought you were Erika's sister.
Can I come in?
Just wanted to check up on you.
See how you were doing.
I'm, uh... I'm dealing.
I just keep thinking it's...
it's not fair, Erika dying.
I know. I hate it.
And I've hated myself the past three days.
Been tossing and turning in my sleep.
It's been weighing on me.
What has?
When Erika went down,
initially I didn't feel shock or sadness.
I was just relieved
that it wasn't you.
Chris, if you took that bullet
and I lost you...
I wouldn't have recovered.
I know our situation
is impossible.
I was on my way home to Molly when I came here instead.
But being with her feels wrong.
Stop.
'Cause all I think about is being with you.
Why are you telling me this?
Just...
Please leave.
Chris...
Leave. Now.
- Chris. - Please go.
Hi.
I love you. You know that.
Of course I do.
You and the kids...
You're everything to me.
What happened today?
Well, we grabbed another one of the Imperial Dukes.
Well, that's great. Right?
Yeah.
But, uh...
...my team is broken.
I don't know if we're gonna be okay
until we... we grab every last one
of this crew.
So you don't want to retire.
I can't leave my team.
Not like this.
Annie...
...you're my family.
And so are they.
And I think God put me here
so I can help them.
- Hey. - Hey.
I just thought I'd drop by for a surprise visit,
if that's okay.
It was an open invitation.
Hm.
What is it?
Nichelle, uh...
I haven't been as open with you as I should.
I want to tell you something that...
I probably wouldn't tell anyone else.
I'd be lying if I said these past three days
haven't been some of the toughest.
You lost a friend. That can't be easy.
It's just, this past year, with...
with police misconduct,
Black folks getting killed on camera...
...and losing an officer in the field, it just,
it cuts deep.
And now I got doubts about whether the fight
to change things is even worth it.
It's natural to have doubts
when you're trying to make a difference in people's lives.
I get it, Hondo.
But this... I mean,
it's got me wondering about myself as a police officer,
as a leader
and as a Black man in this damn world.
I threatened to resign today.
To protect someone else.
I was willing to lose SWAT.
And they don't know it, but I was not bluffing.
So what happened?
The mayor backed down.
So the heat's off of us, for now.
You felt like you had to sacrifice yourself
to make a difference?
Yeah.
Yeah, because if we're all out there trying to change things
for the better, then why did Erika Rogers
have to pay a bigger price?
Hondo, you can't let that eat at you.
It'll only wear you down.
How do you manage to push through all the noise?
Or maybe it's just looking fearless just comes naturally.
Maybe I feel the same things you feel.
I just try to get it out,
talk it through, like we're doing right now.
Do you hear that?
No. I don't hear anything.
That's what I'm talking about.
See? You're pushing through the noise already.
A good leader has self-awareness
and the desire to do better, be better.
Insecurities don't make anyone less of a leader, Hondo.
They make 'em human.
This is good, talking it through.
Yeah, you should try it more often.
Well, you available for any more surprise visits?